The Malleable Light

Last night I was feeling very tired. This is mostly because I have been working my day job plus staying up late studying and getting my web programming business going. I wasn’t expecting or trying to have an OOBE or a lucid dream last night, I was simply trying to get a good night’s rest.

I fell asleep listening to Electric Light Orchestra – Out of the Blue and then woke back up a few minutes later choking after sucking some saliva down my windpipe. What a horrible feeling it is to wake up gasping for air but it seems to happen to me frequently. I fell back asleep after this and didn’t wake back up.

I don’t remember much of my dreams last night but at some point I found myself in a dream laying in my bed trying to fall asleep. I remember trying to get comfortable but couldn’t. I then felt someone tucking me in. I am not sure who it was but as they tucked me in I became extremely relaxed and then instinctively went for an exit technique. I felt myself sink down into the bed and then I drifted out of the bed an into a upright position standing in the doorway leading out of my bedroom.

I walked down the hallway and then down the stairs to the first floor of our apartment. When I got to the bottom of the stairs I started thinking about whether or not I was awake or asleep so I tried the wall test by attempting to stick my foot though the wall next to the door that leads out of the apartment. The wall seemed pretty solid to me so I figured that I might be awake. I decided to head outside and see if things out there matched reality.

I walked out the door and noticed that things looked and felt real but the outside area did not match what’s really in front of my apartment. It’s hard to explain this and you have to experience an OOBE or lucid dream to understand. Even when things don’t match reality, it’s hard to convince yourself that it’s not reality. The reason for this is how vivid the experience usually is. There is not a difference as far as senses go between being awake or being lucid or in an OOBE. The only clues that you have to go on are reality fluctuations. Even though I normally know that I am not at my real house, the experience itself is very real and normally I am not asking “Is this real?”, I am asking “Where the hell am I?”.

When I waked out of the apartment I found myself standing on a large elevated concrete porch under a white aluminum awning. I was in an urban neighborhood and there was a road directly in front of the house and there were houses on either side of the road about 30 ft apart from each other.

I walked down the stairs and out into the street and looked to my left and noticed a man about 100 yards away walking down the street towards me. It was at this point that I noticed that my clothes had disappeared so I ran back up the porch stairs and ducked out of view. I reality fluctuation happened again and my clothes were back. I wanted to test the environment so I jumped up in the air and rather than falling back to the ground I hovered about 2 ft off the ground. seeing that I was able to fly I decided to explore the neighborhood from the air.

I floated down the stairs and this time turned right and headed down the street. I traveled several houses down and noticed that on the left there was a house with a carport and under it were about 5 or 6 women. I went over and said hi or something that I don’t remember and they started being snobbish. I started becoming too aware at this point and felt the environment around me begin to degrade and a few seconds later found myself back in my normal awareness awake in bed.

I don’t know if this was a lucid dream or an OOBE but overall it was a cool experience. Maybe next time something more trippy will happen.

David Mathis Astral Projection, Dreams, Lucid Dreams Astral Projection, Dreams, Flying, Lucid Dreams

As my lack of posts shows, I do not strive to project like my husband, David, does. I have known of such experiences but never really had the curiosity that my other half has in the subject. Even if I did, I think my mom duties would keep me from really becoming fully engaged in striving for achieving going out of body. I am more in the frame of mind that “if it happens , it happens..If not then I won’t be disappointed”

This morning I was not intending to try to go out of body. It was the last thing on my mind. I was more concerned with how long my 4 year old was going to sleep and the laundry I was going to have to start once I got up from bed. I woke up with David’s alarm clock and drifted back to sleep for some time. I awoke again some 45 minutes later and laid in bed checking my email and surfing the net on my I-phone as my daughter slept next to me in her bed. David came into the room and said goodbye to me before he headed to work and I continued to surf the net. I grew bored and a bit sleepy so I laid my head back down and found a comfortable spot to drift off. I am 24 weeks pregnant with our first son and so I fell asleep to feeling his kicks and movements. As I drifted off to sleep, I had a feeling I was going into sleep paralysis because I got a very similar sensation of the inability to keep my eyelids open no matter how much I tried. Its very similar to the feeling of trying to keep your eyes open as anesthesia is beginning to take its effect before you go under for surgery. The only difference is that your mind stays awake and aware of what is going on where as when under anesthesia, you just black out for what seems like a second and then your awake again.

As I lay there, I began to realize I could feel my child’s movements fade away. He was still active but its as if they just became lighter and lighter as I began to feel the vibrations come over me. I thought to myself ” Oh I know what this is…I am not gonna chicken out like I did last time!” Last time being my other post from back in April of 2009.

As the vibrational state came over me, I said to myself “I am going out of body” and repeated that about three times. Suddenly I heard myself take a deep, deep, breath of air and as the air filled my lungs, I felt myself float up. It was as if my lungs being filled with air were acting as helium balloons lifting me up and out. Right at that time, I heard a voice very clearly say to me ” I see France”. I also heard a man’s voice but could not make out what he said. I did not understand what “I see France” meant so as I tried to gain better sight, the motherly part of me took over. I heard my daughter stir and move and then I switched to what I can only assume was dream mode. I dreamed my daughter sat up in bed and was talking to me…I knew I was dreaming and tried to gain control back of reality but failed. I struggled to wake up and began to wiggle my fingers to wake myself up. Just then, my son gave me a good kick as if to say ” Hey mom wake up!” and that did it. I was back in my body and fully awake, only to see that I had been right to assume I was in a dream state when I imagined my daughter awake and sitting up. She was still fast asleep in the same position she was when I had drifted off to sleep.

All in all, it was pretty interesting and I am glad I got a little bit further then I did last time. I was able to at least get up and out of my body even if it was just for a short few seconds to a minute. Maybe in another 10 months, I will get a bit closer. Then again, I will have a 6 month old so I will just be thankful to get a whole night’s sleep, projecting or no projecting!

Emmy Mathis Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams, Progress Astral Projection, Consciousness, Dreams, Floating, Lucid Dreams, pregnancy, Progress

Hi All, long time since logging in. I’ve been trying to get the time but busy doing other things..

Over January & February I found a substantial part of my dream memories were of an emotional nature. Dreams that were very symbolic, communicative and sometimes directly healing. In the past month and a half I’ve had about three experiences I wanted to report.

The first I considered an OBE. I woke due to my 10mth old and was awake with her for somewhere around 1-2hrs. Her mother woke and said “Why don’t you go back to bed?”.. My Mrs. has trouble going back to sleep if she gets woken but not I

So I trotted off to bed and thought I would meditate lying down to help me get back to sleep & because I felt like meditating

After a while (maybe 20-30mins) of Anapanna meditation I felt an indescript feeling that i could only relate as a familiar pre-OBE feeling. I then shifted focus to my body and there was a general feeling of something but definately no vibrations of any strength. I then went back to Anapanna as I had no intention of projecting. Before I knew it I was asleep and found myself in the downstairs of my house. Because this happened about two weeks ago much of the detail is gone from memory but I found myself suggesting to myself that I was having an OBE. I was talking to people telling them i was having an OBE. I remember this woman I was talking to was suggesting, “No, No. You’re not having an OBE you’re high on Marijuana”.. I use to smoke the stuff so was then a little unsure.. I KNEW absolutely I was in an altered state of reality and felt very light and free and thought “No, I’m not high I’m in an OBE”.. The theme downstairs was that it was my nextdoor neighbours birthday.. The interesting thing about this is after I woke I asked my Mrs. if she knew when the neighbours birthday was, she said “I know he’s a Pisces (sun sign) so it must be soon”. I saw him a day or two later and asked him and it turns out it’s in early March.. cool huh!! Much of the rest of the experience is in fragments except for a part where someone else was attempting to convince me I had been smoking marijuana”.. I was thinking “I sort of hope not”.. Then I felt what I was experiencing..and it was so much nicer than any marijuana high i have ever experienced (and thats heaps) I was convinced that I was OBE and while in OBE thought to myself “People wish they felt like I do now when they get high”.. then I wondered, “Is this what people are hoping they are going to be experiencing when getting high?”.. I wonder…

There was one time in this OBE that I considered shifting back to my body to prove to myself that i was OBE.. Just the mere thought of doing that produced a feeling in my astral body that made me aware that my physical body was indeed asleep in bed with strong vibes .. I knew I was OBE by this feeling and decided to stay.. I believe by going back to my body consciously I would have retained better memories but it was so nice to be out and i could feel i could sustain it so i played the staying out game

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One other thing that happened was fairly unusual for me.. I had an alien come to me in what i describe as a vsion (while sleeping) and it said “We are coming”… This alien was reptilian to look at (though never seen one before, not even a drawing) with green skin and scales. It (he) was short.. Maybe 5′2″ tall and had very broad shoulders very little neck… It’s manner was urgent though friendly, it seemed like it was warning me so I’m not so surprised or fearful when they come. It felt like it (they) almost HAD to come to Earth,like they (it) had very little choice… Although I believe Alien beings most very likely exist (due mainly to the masive expanse of galaxy & universe out there) – I have never spent much time thinking that they would be coming to Earth and even less time that they would come in a form/manner that would allow them the be visible to us… Over December/January I was reading an e-book by Tayesin from Astral Pulse which speaks a lot about UFO’s Aliens and the like, so not sure how much this influenced this encounter.. Maybe it just allowed me to open up to allow this being to contact me, but who knows?

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The last experience I consider a very Lucid Dream.. the main theme in it was me practicing my flying skills.. Couple of interesting things to note here.. 1. Spent most of this flying lesson in the car driving position (like sitting in the car seat).. It was quite fun

More importantly I note that 2. This experience (considered an LD) was much more colourful and vivid than the experience I called an OBE earlier.. The main differences & why I categorise them differently is I had much more awareness in the OBE.. In the OBE I believed that I was OBE.. I’m sure from the feeling I got, if I did try to move back to my physical body I am SURE I would have ended up in my bed with vibes all over my body.. In the LD I felt like I was dreaming.. I was aware I was dreaming but had no awareness of my physical body or any desire to go back and no desire to do anything else but fly…

I hope something here may help someone in some way,

Thank you,

Dean K

Dean Keune Astral Projection, Dreams, Lucid Dreams, Meditation, Progress Alien, anapanna meditation, Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams, Progress

This will be a short post because the lucid dream faded quickly. I feel the need to document these experiences if for no reason other than to trend the frequency that I become aware in states of consciousness where I should have been completely unconscious.

I went to bed around 11 PM Central after winning another game of iPhone Scrabble against my wife. I listened to “Brain Sync – The Secret – Universal Mind Meditation” as I drifted off and in about twenty minutes sleep and unconsciousness claimed my mind.

I don’t remember much of my dreams last night other than at some point around 4 AM I found myself throwing a baseball around with three other guys that I don’t remember meeting in waking life. I was in a semi-wooded field type area and I remember throwing the ball to one of the guys that was standing in a wooded patch and he ended up throwing the ball two miles up the hill from us. I felt the need to go fetch so I ran up the hill after the ball.

There was a fluctuation in time and suddenly I was at the top of the hill holding the ball in my hand. I don’t remember making the complete trip up the hill or actually finding the ball. I was standing uphill and in front of this half mile wide river which was opposite to the side of the field that I had been tossing the ball in.

I took off running down the hill towards the river and as I got closer I noticed that there was a steep embankment leading down to it. I started asking myself if I should stop running or if I should leap off of the embankment and fly across the river. This triggered lucidity in the dream because I knew that in waking life I would not be asking myself such things. If I have learned nothing else in life, I have learned that this physical subsystem that we exist in has laws and people can’t fly unaided, which is very unfortunate .

When I touched down on the baseball field side of the river I was fully conscious and lucid in my dream. The three guys were gone and I simply walked around for what I perceived as about a minute. It’s very exciting when you have waking consciousness while dreaming. You must experience it to get it. I tried to hold it all together but the environment and my surroundings quickly faded and I woke up.

Dreams and Lucid dreams in my opinion appear to be mostly physical phenomenons. I am not quite sure what happens when I become lucid and if the lucid awareness has its source rooted beyond the physical. I do know through personal experience that normal unconscious dreams are at least partly if not all physical.  When I was still experiencing migraines with visual auras I experienced the aura  in a dream and then woke up during this experience to find that I was still seeing it in waking life.

Now when I go out of body it’s a completely different feeling and I sometime actually transition out of a lucid dream to get there. Out of body experiences feel as real or more real than waking life. Thomas Campbell and Robert Bruce seem to be right about what’s going on when people experience projections into other realities.  Consciousness must manifest a new body for whatever reality you are visiting. This newly manifested body or form will of course exist in parallel to and independent from your physical body and the physical mind does not need to be in a sleep state in order to manifest consciousness into another reality.

David Mathis Dreams, Lucid Dreams Baseball, Brainsync, Consciousness, Dreams, Flying, Lucid Dreams

As far as I’m aware this mornings adventures play out in the following order..

It starts with a dream of my Naturopathy Graduation Party (which I’ve already had) but in the dream it is a much ‘darker’ party.. not much to mention here…

following this I am dreaming I am following my daughter through the stars.. It’s like I’m following her around like I might do in waking life just to make sure she stays safe.. When I awaken I wonder if this has any reference to the possibility of her incarnating on planets and me being her father or parent in past and possibly future lifetimes..

While still in the stars (dream) I begin to become more aware especially after I get this quite strong feeling suggesting to me -> “You are about to have an OBE”.. I figured this to be true and made some mental preparation for the next part of the process.. At this stage I wasn’t aware of my physical body, any vibrations or even where I was located anymore.. I then felt the familiar sensation of my astral body separating from my physical body… My legs were being pulled up and over my head, which is an exit stratergy I’ve never even thought of using, now it was happening to me.. It felt OK, so I went with it..

Next I find myself in my parents house (where I grew up).. I can still feel the sensation of the separation, and my legs being pulled over and behind my head.. When out I figured I was having an OBE so I ran out of the bedroom, past my Dad who was sitting in the kitchen, and went to jump off the veranda but quickly thought to myself “What if I’m actually awake and go SPLAT on the ground (after I jump from this 12ft high veranda)”.. Just in case, as I pass the door on my way to the veranda I tap the door frame with my hand – it feels hard. “I’m possibly in physical reality?”, i wonder.. I think “No, this is an OBE and I remember the separation from my body”.. I then aim to test reality and make my way for another room that has quite a big window in it, I jump out of this window and fly a little, but not real well, and land on the ground in the backyard about 50m away (my parents live on a farm).. As soon as I hit the ground my Mum has followed me outside and sees me, but almost as soon as I hit the ground I rocket up into the air at tremendous speed and watch the roof of the house become smaller and smaller as I fly high up into the air and away from the Earth…

Just then I begin getting a call back to my body.. I try to fight it but I haven’t got enough control and I find myself waking up in bed with a kind of “Damn it, I knew I was OBE” type feeling.. I couldn’t go back and was now awake..

In this experience although I had a fair amount of awareness I did find myself questioning myself as to whether I was in OBE or awake. I also jumped through a window that should have had fly screen on it but didn’t I consider the experience at my parents house an OBE as I had some familiar exit sensations and was pre-warned but apart from that it felt very much like a lucid dream. This further confirms that the separation between the two experiences is minute and only possibly defined by the individual’s experience. Although the RTZ (Real Time Zone) talked about by Robert Bruce may feel and react differently. As yet I don’t know,

Peace

Dean Keune Astral Projection, Dreams, Lucid Dreams Flying

I hope this post doesn’t make Emmy jealous, but for the sake of consciousness research I must write.

I fell asleep at around 11:30 PM last night and as I fell asleep I tried to clear my mind by observing thoughts without becoming attached to them. Around 5 AM I woke up and ran to the bathroom and then came back to bed and began trying the same techniques in an attempt to astral project. I was tired and my mind was not really coherent so I started trying to push thoughts away. I realized what I was doing and then began allowing my thoughts to drift in without resistance. I was surprised at some of the random thoughts that were entering my mind.  For example a fleeting thought of a specific trip to McDonald’s with my Dad when I was a small child entered my head. These thoughts came and went for 10 minutes or so and during this time frame vibrations were felt several times.

Around 5:30 AM I felt the sensation of myself being bouncing around inside my body. I knew what this was because it’s happened before so I envisioned myself violently bouncing back and forth and within couple of seconds I felt a release and I floated up into the ceiling and things went completely black. I suspected that I was stuck in the ceiling so I thought about standing in my backyard and as I did I felt movement as I drifted from the roof area of my house down into the backyard.

While I was standing in the yard I had full waking consciousness. I knew my name, address etc. I knew that I was either asleep, in some altered state of consciousness or in another reality. I stood there for a minute and let it all soak in. My quality of perception was very good this time and the quality of vision and my senses was superb, equal to or better than waking life.

I looked around and the first thing that came to mind was that I needed to validate and collect evidence. This is where reality fluctuations came into play. I had the idea of floating over to my neighbors house and looking around inside. The idea was that if I ever go inside her house I might be able to identify something I saw in this state. I probably need to rethink my methods of validation.

I floated over to this window that doesn’t really exist in waking life (reality fluctuation) and I pressed my head against the screen in the window (another reality fluctuation, it’s too cold for open windows). Inside I could see her getting a small girl ready for school. She glanced over in my direction at one point but she didn’t seem to notice me there. I was at the window for about a minute and then things shifted.

I found myself standing on the front porch of a house with her on the street I grew up on as a child. She was pissing off the front porch in an attempt to put out a cigarette that she had just thrown on the ground. This was all to funny for me so I asked her if she could see me? She nodded and said yes.  I laughed out loud and asked her “You know you are in my dream, right?”. She didn’t really answer, either she was a dream character or she was just drifting in unconsciousness, it’s hard to say.

She took off running towards the house where my dad lives and jumped into this truck that I have never seen before. This is the part Emmy will like. I jumped in behind her and asked her if she wanted to have sex just to see how she would respond. She agreed to this, but as we started undressing darkness faded in and I found myself back in bed. I question my level of lucidity at this point because I know that I would not cheat in waking life.

I lost lucidity because in my mind I really thought I was awake, but I should have known that I wasn’t because someone out back was mowing the lawn. It’s unlikely that someone would be mowing the lawn at this time of year and at this time of morning. Still this wasn’t enough to make me realize that I was sleeping and the dream continued for about another hour before I finally woke up and wrote this.

The conclusion here is that I was either in the RTZ with extreme reality fluctuations or I was having a lucid dream. Either way I had full waking consciousness. Emmy, you have my permission to have dream sex with anyone that you want.

David Mathis Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams, Meditation, Techniques Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Consciousness, Dreams, Lucid Dreaming, Lucid Dreams

I have been reading Eckhart Tolle’s book The Power of Now and in doing so I have learned some new things and reinforced others. While riding my bike today I was putting Tolle’s words into action and became intensely aware of the unconscious state that everyone was in while driving, walking in out of stores, etc. Even fellow cyclists were somewhere else while they listened to their mp3 players.

I tried my best not to analyze the thoughts that entered my mind during the ride. My goal was to stay present and to simply observe everything around me including myself and my own thoughts and emotions without becoming attached to any of it. It was a riding meditation.

Several thoughts ran through my mind as I rode. I thought to myself: “Why aren’t people talking to one another?”, “Why aren’t they acknowledging each others existence?”, “Where are these people going in such a hurry?”, “What will they do once they get there?”, and “What happens after they do whatever it is that had them in such a hurry?”. Maybe they will start the entire cycle over again? It all seemed so surreal to me when I was in the now. The roar of the cars seemed be more like chaos and I could actually feel the insanity of the peoples uncontrolled thoughts dragging me into unconsciousness.

When I arrived back home I turned my analytical mind back on to process what I had experienced on a physical level. People in general didn’t seem to be aware of the present, anymore more so than when they are sleeping. They seemed to be walking and driving around in a sleep state. Consciousness manifested for the experience but the experience never happening because their minds were focused on the nonexistent future and past.

I thought back to my childhood for the specific purpose of trying to understand this unconscious state they were in. Before I started school, time meant nothing to me. I didn’t think about the past or the future, only the present. I still learned new things and functioned in society much like I do now only I was closer to the source of life as a child, the root consciousness that I feel we all come from and are still connected too. I rarely see a child that’s stressed out or on blood pressure medicines. Children are generally joyful and compassionate for others and live in the moment. What a wonderful idea.

This brings me to me new year’s resolution. Starting now I resolve to be more like a child and to live more in the present, only drawing from the past and the future when absolutely necessary while living this physical life that is trapped in time and space.

The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive. To put it more accurately, it is not so much that you use your mind wrongly—you usually dont use it at all. It uses you. — Eckhart Tolle

David Mathis Books & Media, Meditation, Miscellaneous Consciousness, Eckhart Tolle, Life, Now, The Power of Now, Thought Provoking, Thoughts, Time

I have been in a cycle of very few dreams or other AP type events… but that seems to happen to me and soon I’ll be in a cycle where Dreams and Lucid Dreams are nightly or multiple nightly

Anyway…  I was having quite a pleasant lucid dream that I was totally content in.. I could fly, I had pretty close to full waking consciousness at times, but I didn’t feel like moving to an AP which is now often my goal when becoming lucid…

I was in a scene on the road of my primary school.. I felt like I was in my twenties or later..

Where this becomes interesting is when I get tired of the dream and decide to take some more control..

My current AP target has been Dec 2012 – Jan 2013… Every now and then in the day I recount that this is my target..  So when leaving the Lucid Dream it was natural that this is where I wanted to go.. Though I forgot to get ready for an AP (ie. aim for physical body back in bed -> project etc)..

I actually seemed to move forward (in time) within the lucid dream.. My desire to go forward in the future caused me to spin around (I actually believe that the scene around me was spinning and was I still)..

Whichever way it was, I found myself in what I took for 2012 (though no way to tell other than this is what i was aiming for) – (nothing much had happened by the looks of it!)…  I then thought I should actually aim for Jan 2013..

When I landed I was in the same location.. things look the same as they do in reality though compared to my earlier lucid dream the scene has now changed to night..

I’m in Australia.. same locale.. nighttime.. behind me is the service station just as per reality.. I stand underneath it’s cover and close to me are a few people.. There is quite a large storm off into the distance with lightning.. The ground feels as though it is trembling off into the distance (but i can’t be sure about this)..

I look to the storm and lightning and ask someone next to me “What is that?”..

“That”, they said.. “Is Krakatoa”..

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So I’m not sure where I landed, but if it was Jan 2013, part of me on some level must think that in Jan 2013, Krakatoa has recently erupted or been erupting???

In waking life I have wondered if there will be an increase in volcanic activity while moving to 2012..  though I’ve never consciously thought about Krakatoa particularly (though i know of it) so I’m not sure how much this influenced what I saw,

Thanks for reading,

Merry Christmas
Dean

Dean Keune Lucid Dreams 2012, Flying, Lucid Dreams