The Malleable Light

Didn’t have any last night, but the night before I did. It’s a bit blurry now, but I remember the basics.

I realized I was in the dream state by noticing my old house. That seems to happen a lot. We lived in that house from the time I was 15 or so until I graduated college, so it’s the main old house in my head.

Once I recognized that I was dreaming, the whole room started to go blurry. I sat down and repeated “clarity now, focus now” until it cleared up. First, I tried to fly. I flew up and banged my head on the ceiling. No problem, I’ll just fly through the wall, right? Wrong. I tried to fly through the wall, and ran into it. Apparently, sometimes even in lucid dreams, you just have to use the front door.

I went out the front door and wandered around. The scenery wasn’t anything like that around my old house. This was very obviously a dream, and not projecting. I wandered through woods until I got to crocodiles in a sewer. Last time I checked, Chattanooga doesn’t have crocodiles in the sewers, so I’m pretty sure they’re not really there. I then willed myself to fly up.

That’s where my memory stops. I think maybe the baby woke me again after that and it ended.

What I’ve taken away from this is the following:

1. My old house is one of my signs that I’m dreaming.
2. You can’t always fly through the walls even in a dream.
3. It isn’t always a bad thing when your 18 month old wakes you every hour.

Renate Moody Lucid Dreams Flying, Lucid Dreams

Our 18 month old has been having sleep issues, so I’ve been awake every hour or so the last couple of nights. It’s a bit annoying because I’m still tired in the morning, but it does give me a chance to try to project. Mostly, I’ve had no success. I’m more of a project out of a lucid dream person, rather than consciously projecting.

Last night, this morning, I think around six or so, I managed to project and push myself through the window to the outside. I really wasn’t able to control much of anything I experienced, so it’s possible it was a clear dream. Whatever it was, I attempted to picture places to go, but couldn’t figure out how to get there.

I floated by a lot of different people, didn’t know any of them. I was also able to finally name a place, push myself through a book and end up there. I flew over the ocean, felt at peace, but then got pulled back.

I don’t consider it a failure. I was able to control it slightly, and just the fact that I managed to project or lucid dream either one, after several nights of failing to do anything, gives me hope that I can get this thing figured out eventually.

Renate Moody Astral Projection, Dreams, Lucid Dreams Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams

Yesterday I woke up early to get ready for work. I was slightly rushed because my friend (co-worker) was waiting at the auto mechanic garage for me to pick him up. In my haste I left the Performer 2400 chi generator on the lucid dreaming frequency of 0.5 HZ all day with the “Gateway Affirmation” running on a trend. This may or may not have been responsible for my discovery of the “The Vehram Energy System”.

Later in the day after work I was out on the Astral Pulse forum and noticed a new post about the “The Vehram Energy System”. When I first looked at the title I almost dismissed it as some crazy experience or place on the astral planes with a strange name. My curiosity got the best of me so I opened the post and started reading and I quickly realized that the author had stumbled onto something unique. He was describing a book about an energy system that he was pulling energy from to create his second body and astral project. I didn’t understand much of what he was describing but it piqued an interest so bought the book and began reading.

I finished reading the book at approximately 8:30 PM and then went to bed around 9:30 PM. I fell asleep at 10:30 PM while running the mantra “I will wake up at 3:00 AM” through my until I fell asleep.

Sure enough I woke at 1:15 AM which is my normal 3:15 AM because normally go to sleep around 12 AM. I began the breathing technique outlined in the book and created the sensation of getting heavy as described. I continued this for about a minute and then I clearly remember passing into the hypnagogic state. My body got heavy and I felt my body lose the ability to move and I was left in a totally paralyzed state

While laying in blackness I did exactly what the book suggests. I willed energy from the Vehram array and directed that energy into my body and within less then a second very strong vibrations consumed me.

I was not able to exit at first so I relaxed and then rolled out to the left side and found myself standing next to my bed. Everything was all distorted at first so I asked for total awareness and clarity and almost instantly I was seeing the room and the house EXACTLY how it is in waking life.

I made a conscious effort to stay as close to the physical world as possible this time and then I walked down stairs, through the closed front door and outside. I continued walking until I was out in the street in front of my house. I turned and looked northeast towards downtown Austin which is 6 miles away and hidden behind trees. I commanded my vision to zoom in on the skyline and instantly I could see the buildings with crystal clarity. I was completely amazed by this new ability and was very excited. I looked down at the street and I could see every detail of the pavement.

Next I turned and faced southwest because I remembered once again that I told my friend that I would visit him next time I was out of body for validation purposes. I started imagining his face and for some reason I felt a rushing and could not stay focused. I woke up and it was 1:20 AM. I went down stairs and wrote up a skeleton version of this and then went back to bed to try again.

This new found system seems to work very well and I really don’t know what to think about it yet. I would like to do some validations and then report back my findings. I have added a link to the vehram.com site on the left and I recommend spending the 10 dollars for it. It’s worth it.

David Mathis Books & Media Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Chi Generators, Dreams, Techniques, Vehram Energy System

This will be a short post inspired by a three hour philisophical discussion, in which a man of strong religious beliefs who I have great respect for tried to sway me into his belief system. We discussed “The Ultimate Truth”, and how religions or the lack of religion fit into the search for it. I will not disclose which religion or who I discussed this with, as it is not relevant to this blog entry.

When I was younger, one of my favorite movies was “Hell in the Pacific”, which tells the story of two men, one American and one Japanese, marooned on a small uninhabited island in the Pacific. They survive by accepting their differences and working together, despite the fact that their two countries are at war. At the end of the movie, after calling a truce, a magazine brings their conversation back to religion and war and therefore ending the truce and they begin fighting again. Minutes later a bomb lands on them and blows them to pieces. Last night’s discussion reminded me of this movie.

Our main disagreement stemmed from a hypothetical person who chooses a predefined organized religious path versus one who simply chooses his own path and how this choice will ultimately lead to “The Ultimate Truth”. The one thing that we both agreed on, is that neither of our beliefs or paths made sense to the other.

My current observation is that there may or may not be an “Ultimate Truth”; however, my logical but currently limited human brain tells me that there most likely is. What doesn’t make sense about all of this is when a person expects his religion to make sense to others and tries to force it on them. Based on the information I have collected, no one knows what the “Ultimate Truth” is or even if it exists. There are various religions of various popularity, spread across virtually every culture, all attempting to discover “The Ultimate Truth.”

My personal belief is that Earth and humans are a VERY small part of the overall picture, and confining oneself to one physical world, or even worse, to one religion, will limit one who chooses to do so. Be happy if you have found your path, even if it is a limiting path. It’s fine to share your discoveries with others, but realize that not everyone will be or will want to be on that same path and all paths may “Ultimately” lead to the same truth in one form or another.

It seems that the truth gets lost in interpretation, or perhaps the truth IS the interpretations which exist in religious silos. It’s possible that the “Ultimate Truth” lies in the absence of any interpretation. I think that the key here is to respect others for what they believe even if it doesn’t make sense to you, because it’s very likely that what you believe doesn’t make sense to them either, and that’s ok.

David Mathis Belief Systems, Books & Media Belief, Belief System, Belief Systems, Belief Systems, Hell in the Pacific, Life, Thought Provoking, Truth

Last night I got into bed around 11:00 PM. I read a chapter of Monroe’s book “Journeys out of the Body”, laid down and relaxed, put on my head phones and started listening to the Tibetan Chakra Meditation tracks. I started repeating the mantra “I am now out of body” in my head and fell asleep after about five iterations. I woke up at about 6:00 AM and noticed that the headphones had fallen off at some point during the night. I quickly fell back to sleep while running the same mantra through my head.

I woke up at 7:50 AM and noticed that my daughter was in the bed with me and my wife. I was doubtful that I would be able pull off an OBE because she moves around a lot. I decided to give it a try anyway so I closed my eyes and began the same mantra, “I am now out of body” over and over while I tried not to move. Suddenly I began to feel myself spinning at a rapid rate on an axis that ran through my head and out the bottom of my feet. Ten seconds later light vibrations hit me and I instinctively just relaxed more and told myself “enjoy the ride”. The vibrations then got more intense and seemed to last about 2 minutes and then faded.

The vibrations completely disappeared and I noticed that I was floating in blackness with partial awareness. I felt like I was in a half dream state. I began running the words “clarity and awareness now” over and over and after about 5 iterations I actually started saying it out loud. I continued to say this and I could hear myself very clearly asking for clarity and awareness and thought I was going to wake up my wife and daughter. Suddenly the blackness slowly started fading and I actually felt my analytical mind attach to my state of consciousness and I am standing in a field and in front of me was a huge bright tree. Everything was so vivid and clear I felt the urge to fly and explore. I flew higher and higher and I began to think about the ocean and the landscape turned into ocean. I was soaring and I remembered that in life I am scared of heights, so I told myself to go higher and higher so that I could face my fear. I arrived at what I perceived as to be 5000 feet over the water and I felt some fear surge though me, but I was able to push it away and climb higher.

While I was flying and enjoying complete freedom I remembered that I told my friend from work that I would visit him next time I was out of body. He is skeptical and I wanted to give him some validation. I started imagining his face but I must not have asked the universe right because I asked to see him over and over and nothing but a very slight change in speed occurred.

I lost interest and reduced altitude and was very close to the surface of the water. The ocean then morphed into a wide river and I continued to skim across it about a foot from the surface. I heard a voice that said I had not experienced everything and then suddenly felt myself begin to go under the water. I wasn’t ready and clearly noticed a change in awareness.

I woke, sat up and looked at the alarm clock and noticed that it displayed 9 AM. The first thing that entered my mind was that I needed to write down what had happened. Our bedroom is upstairs and my laptop is downstairs so I got out of bed and headed towards my laptop. I noticed that while walking down the hall that leads to the the stairs that everything was reversed. When I got to the stairs they were not right either. They looked like my stairs, but the distance that each step extended was inconsistent. Some extended about 5 inches out and others one foot. I “walked” down stairs and when I got there I noticed that the TV was gone and everything was packed up in boxes. My wife came down behind me and I felt a sense of fear come over me as if I had forgotten that we had packed and were in the process of moving. I began to panic because the events were so real and I felt as though I was losing my mind. Once again I felt a change in my awareness.

I woke up again. I noticed that the right side of my face was not working. I could not see out of my right eye. The right side of my head was literally inside of the pillow. I got up and looked in the mirror and blood was running down my moustache. The blood was dried to the hairs. I looked at my face in the mirror for about a minute in confusion and tried to understand where this blood had come from. I felt another change in my awareness.

I woke up and looked at the clock and it said 8:01 AM. I immediately got out of bed and headed for my laptop to write this entry. While I was walking down the stairs I was seriously asking myself if waking life was real or if I was out of body.

In conclusion I don’t recall exiting my body this time, the move from physical to nonphysical seemed more like a shift of awareness. Perhaps the intense spinning threw me a distance from my body. I have no idea. It seems that I started out in a half conscious out of body state and then became fully conscious. I then moved into a lucid dream state awareness and had a false awakening. I then had another out of body experience and another false awakening. Finally I moved back to an out of body awareness one final time and then woke up for real. I am definitely back on track.

One last thing that’s worth noting is that I was using my Performer 2400 chi generator. I had it set at a lucid dream frequency of 0.5 HZ with the trend set to the “The Gateway Affirmation” which goes like:

I am more than my physical body. Because I am more than physical matter, I can perceive that which is greater than the physical world. Therefore, I deeply desire to Expand, to Experience; to Know, to Understand; to Control, to Use such greater energies and energy systems as may be beneficial and constructive to me and to those who follow me. Also, I deeply desire the help and cooperation, the assistance, the understanding of those individuals whose wisdom, development and experience are equal or greater than my own. I ask their guidance and protection from any influence or any source that might provide me with less than my stated desires.

David Mathis Astral Projection Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Chakra, False Awakening, Flying, Lucid Dreams, Techniques, Tibetan Chakra Mediataion

I’m not sure what to consider it. This entry won’t be long, because I don’t remember a lot of details really. I believe that my subconscious was trying to bring me to lucidity, but I didn’t quite make it and a dream took over. I have a very vivid image of a night sky, and I know that within the dream, I intended to astral project into it. Before I was able to, or maybe mid-attempt, some people showed up trying to figure out how to get to Knoxville.

I’ve had lucid dreams, I’ve projected within lucid dreams, and I’ve projected intentionally, so when I miss an opportunity it bothers me. I intend to use the vivid image I have of the night sky to practice visualization. Eventually, I will project into that exact area and figure out exactly where I was in the dream.

The lesson I learned from this dream, is that I need to learn to better control my dreams. People aren’t just annoying me in the real world anymore, now they annoy me in my sleep too. If telemarketers start calling me in dreams offering me a lower rate on my credit cards, I’m sure you’ll read all about it here.

Renate Moody Dreams, Lucid Dreams Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams

When I met my wife 5 years ago I introduced myself as religious and she introduced herself as spiritual. I considered myself a Catholic at the time and I didn’t think very much of it. Then after a few years went by I realized that there is a huge difference between religion and spirituality.

I recently added my blog to a directory in an attempt to share my personal experiences with others and once again I noticed that spirituality was nested under religion. The concept gets tied to a religion and faith on a regular basis and that’s fine, however what we see is that while spirituality can stand completely on it’s own, religion must be tied to spirituality. Interesting! So why do we need religion?

Recently, by reading about the personal experiences of others and through my own personal experience, meditation and astral projection I came to realize that when I let myself fall into belief systems I only create huge chains which limit my spiritual growth. I let these beliefs dissolve and by doing so I completely liberated myself from the spiritual confusion and suffering that came with the religious ties of the past.

There are several differences that I have noticed between religion and spirituality. The biggest difference is that religion takes a firm stance based on the views and opinions of other people and their perception of events that have taken place. When a religion’s participant begins to think outside the box they are considered odd, a sinner or even worse. Spirituality and self discovery “by itself” does none of these things. I find it interesting that in the early days of astronomy the scientific discoveries challenged the views of the church and as a result the church felt threatened. Now in modern times it’s ironic that it’s all been completely reversed and now everyone is caught up in science, and religion must fit into science. I think that it’s time that we open up our minds to new possibilities and focus and how religion and science fit into spirituality and then throw out all of the unnecessary nonsense including the fear and the arguments about things that can’t be proven either way.

While I was throwing out the rules you may have guessed, and the guess would be accurate, that I don’t believe in a deity these days. So if I don’t believe in deity then what do I believe in? I believe in a collective consciousness that consists of love, love possibly being a faint perception of the collective. I have no real religion but I may be a cross between mysticism and esotericism while agreeing with some of the Buddhist philosophies. This brings me to another difference which is religion creates a set of rules to follow while spirituality “by itself” allows one to keep an open mind.

The last difference that I would like to point out is that most religions provide no means of validation. Spirituality “by itself” does. Our awareness in waking life is focused on the physical and during our sleep our awareness detaches from the physical and we face our inner self, our soul. We can train our self to be lucid when we detach from the physical and begin teaching our self to remember. It seems that this will inevitably lead to path of truth and discovery while religion might lead us to an understanding of another person’s viewpoint.

In conclusion, it seems that we as the human civilization think that we are advancing at a rapid pace because of cell phones, fancy SUVs and computers. We cling to these physical things, which include our physical body and the ones we love around us. Worst of all we cling to the writings and beliefs of other people, never opening our mind to all of the possibilities presented to us. This ends up restricting us in our ability to choose our own path towards enlightenment and ultimately, recognition of who we really are. There is absolutely nothing wrong with many religions and belief systems but remember that they are exclusionary and limiting. My current view may change, but it appears that it’s only when we realize that we are all connected and that we are more than a physical body or even a separate soul that our light as a whole will shine brightly and we will be free. We have the tools that we need, all we have to do is look inward.

David Mathis Belief Systems Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams, Religion, Spirituality, Thought Provoking

I have been itching to try yoga for the last 2 years and after much research and thinking about it I have decided that kundalini yoga is the style for me. My decision was based on the fact that kundalini deals with the chakras and life force energy and my goal is to ultimately get in better shape and raise energy levels and awareness.

I attended my first class at the Yoga Yoga studio here in Austin at the Westgate location. I didn’t go to a beginners series because apparently I like jumping in the deep end without a life preserver and because the teacher of the particular class has great credentials. His name is Gurudev Singh and he has trained with Yogi Bhajan for over 25 years.

The class started off with a quick meditation and a centering where we repeated a mantra several times. I tried very hard to remember this mantra but I just don’t remember it. I think it may have been ONG NAMO, GURU DEV NAMO. I will make sure to have the teacher write it down next time.

The next 30 minutes of the class was spent on core strengthening and breathing exercises. I must admit that this got the best of me. I did the best I could and gave it a valiant effort nevertheless. The breathing technique called ‘Breath of Fire’ was very foreign to me and difficult to say the least. It’s a very quick in and out breathing that accompanies each physical exercise and is not natural at all. I made it through the hard part and then we did some relaxing and stretching and moved on to meditation.

The meditation was much the same as the Buddhist meditation that I practiced over the weekend however we were instructed to focus on anything we wanted rather than only breathing. The goal was to always bring the focus back to whatever object we had our focus on. There were three separate meditations and each one progressed to deeper meditation and they were separated by another new type of breathing. We had to breath in 4 times and then out 4 times followed by a very deep breath in and then and exhale which lead into the meditation. The meditation seemed to have lasted about 30 minutes and then we did a closing set of mantras and the class ended.

Did anything odd happen? Yes! There was something very strange that happened during the meditation and I have no idea how this is even possible. When I closed my eyes during the meditation I was still able to see the people in the room around me meditating. The sight was not crystal clear like normal vision but instead it was similar to looking at an object that’s sitting against a bright background for a long time without moving your eyes and then closing your eyes and seeing the outline of the object. The only difference was that I saw more than an outline, I saw pale shades of the actual colors that they were wearing and this “sight without eyes” lasted for the entire meditation.. I asked the teacher about this after the class and he simply told me to observe but not to analyze or get caught up in it. I found that very hard to do in this instance. I have observed this same phenomenon right before projecting but I felt much more relaxed while projecting so this time didn’t make very much sense.

In conclusion, I think that this meditation will be effective in the future when my breath and physical shape improves but during this class I was simply not up to the challenge. I believe that this practice may help to condition my body and mind for Astral Projection. Overall it was a great learning experience and I definitely learned that I am out of shape and that I don’t know how to breath .

David Mathis Yoga Buddhism, Kundalini, Kundalini Yoga, Life Force Energy, Yoga