Confusion Within Lucid Dream Prevents Projection
I have been having a ton of dreams lately after starting up daily meditation. Last night was no exception as I can remember four different dreams last night, one of which was lucid.
I went to bed around 1:30 PM last night and meditated until I lost awareness. The exercise has been to stay aware as long as I can before sleep takes over while constantly focusing on something that keeps thoughts out. Additionally, any time that I wake up I repeat the same exercise.
I became lucid inside a dream at some point last night at what felt like about 2:00 AM. I was dreaming about a girl stealing my credit cards out of my wallet and then all of the sudden the dream shifted and I found myself in sleep paralysis in bed. Normally when I get into sleep paralysis I know exactly what to do, a simple thought of astral projection will take me to full waking awareness or into what is called the out of body state. The problem this time was that I was laying in my childhood bunk bed. Momentarily I was no longer an adult and had drifted back in time. It’s hard to explain, but at some point fear manifested because of a faint memory of being an adult that slipped in and caused me to question my sanity. It just got progressively worse the more I tried to bring the adult memory back.
During this lucid episode I was completely paralyzed and it seemed that part of a separate awareness was over-lapping this experience and was saying “this is it, project!”. The other part was the fear of not being able to find the time based identity. I was able to move my head and look around the room and it was truly amazing and nostalgic, the room was just like I remembered it with two sets of bunk beds. My other brothers shared a room with me during my childhood. I was paralyzed laying on my right side and was facing the other bed across from me on the other side of the room. It was a small room with only about a 5 foot section of floor space between the beds. Both beds were in opposing corners of the room with a window to the backyard between the two beds. The top of my head was facing the backyard. Opposite wall from the window was the old TV we used to play Atari on sitting on the old clothes drawer.
I kept staring at the TV throughout the experience. It was turned on and there was static on the screen and it looked normal for the most part, however the static seemed to occasionally have huge green flashes within the static. This seemed odd and my attention became intensely focused on the TV. This is where my awareness slowly started transitioning back to current time and the room faded out and my current room began to emerge. Through closed eyelids I saw the source of the green flashes. I was was looking at my Welz Rad5 Chi Generator and their flashing green lights which just happened to be sitting in the exact same location in relation to where my old childhood TV was. I slowly regained full waking consciousness and opened my eyes.
This was a really cool experience and if my identity based fear had not taken over me I would have projected. This has been a known fear for awhile and I think that it’s something that I need to overcome.
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That does sound really cool. Recently, too, I have been having lots of vivid dreams and can easily recall them. Do you have a way to become lucid? I only had 1 lucid dream and it just happened, but would love to be able to control when they happen as I think its a very good way to move to OBE.
Generally after a good meditation session lucid dreams and OBEs just happen. i have not found a way to trigger lucidity at will in a dream yet. I was at one point able to notice things in dreams that triggered lucidity.
I agree. Meditation is a great way to induce lucid dreams.
Lately, I tend to imagine a specific place, or activity I’d like to do as I fall asleep. Last night, I wanted to write a song and although I was unsuccessful in completing the song, I found myself sitting in front of a grand piano playing for a group of strangers, completely aware within the dream.
Great site! Especially the music that plays when you’re reading the posts.
That’s a really cool experience. Thanks for sharing.