The Malleable Light

Last night I was feeling very tired. This is mostly because I have been working my day job plus staying up late studying and getting my web programming business going. I wasn’t expecting or trying to have an OOBE or a lucid dream last night, I was simply trying to get a good night’s rest.

I fell asleep listening to Electric Light Orchestra – Out of the Blue and then woke back up a few minutes later choking after sucking some saliva down my windpipe. What a horrible feeling it is to wake up gasping for air but it seems to happen to me frequently. I fell back asleep after this and didn’t wake back up.

I don’t remember much of my dreams last night but at some point I found myself in a dream laying in my bed trying to fall asleep. I remember trying to get comfortable but couldn’t. I then felt someone tucking me in. I am not sure who it was but as they tucked me in I became extremely relaxed and then instinctively went for an exit technique. I felt myself sink down into the bed and then I drifted out of the bed an into a upright position standing in the doorway leading out of my bedroom.

I walked down the hallway and then down the stairs to the first floor of our apartment. When I got to the bottom of the stairs I started thinking about whether or not I was awake or asleep so I tried the wall test by attempting to stick my foot though the wall next to the door that leads out of the apartment. The wall seemed pretty solid to me so I figured that I might be awake. I decided to head outside and see if things out there matched reality.

I walked out the door and noticed that things looked and felt real but the outside area did not match what’s really in front of my apartment. It’s hard to explain this and you have to experience an OOBE or lucid dream to understand. Even when things don’t match reality, it’s hard to convince yourself that it’s not reality. The reason for this is how vivid the experience usually is. There is not a difference as far as senses go between being awake or being lucid or in an OOBE. The only clues that you have to go on are reality fluctuations. Even though I normally know that I am not at my real house, the experience itself is very real and normally I am not asking “Is this real?”, I am asking “Where the hell am I?”.

When I waked out of the apartment I found myself standing on a large elevated concrete porch under a white aluminum awning. I was in an urban neighborhood and there was a road directly in front of the house and there were houses on either side of the road about 30 ft apart from each other.

I walked down the stairs and out into the street and looked to my left and noticed a man about 100 yards away walking down the street towards me. It was at this point that I noticed that my clothes had disappeared so I ran back up the porch stairs and ducked out of view. I reality fluctuation happened again and my clothes were back. I wanted to test the environment so I jumped up in the air and rather than falling back to the ground I hovered about 2 ft off the ground. seeing that I was able to fly I decided to explore the neighborhood from the air.

I floated down the stairs and this time turned right and headed down the street. I traveled several houses down and noticed that on the left there was a house with a carport and under it were about 5 or 6 women. I went over and said hi or something that I don’t remember and they started being snobbish. I started becoming too aware at this point and felt the environment around me begin to degrade and a few seconds later found myself back in my normal awareness awake in bed.

I don’t know if this was a lucid dream or an OOBE but overall it was a cool experience. Maybe next time something more trippy will happen.

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This will be a short post because the lucid dream faded quickly. I feel the need to document these experiences if for no reason other than to trend the frequency that I become aware in states of consciousness where I should have been completely unconscious.

I went to bed around 11 PM Central after winning another game of iPhone Scrabble against my wife. I listened to “Brain Sync – The Secret – Universal Mind Meditation” as I drifted off and in about twenty minutes sleep and unconsciousness claimed my mind.

I don’t remember much of my dreams last night other than at some point around 4 AM I found myself throwing a baseball around with three other guys that I don’t remember meeting in waking life. I was in a semi-wooded field type area and I remember throwing the ball to one of the guys that was standing in a wooded patch and he ended up throwing the ball two miles up the hill from us. I felt the need to go fetch so I ran up the hill after the ball.

There was a fluctuation in time and suddenly I was at the top of the hill holding the ball in my hand. I don’t remember making the complete trip up the hill or actually finding the ball. I was standing uphill and in front of this half mile wide river which was opposite to the side of the field that I had been tossing the ball in.

I took off running down the hill towards the river and as I got closer I noticed that there was a steep embankment leading down to it. I started asking myself if I should stop running or if I should leap off of the embankment and fly across the river. This triggered lucidity in the dream because I knew that in waking life I would not be asking myself such things. If I have learned nothing else in life, I have learned that this physical subsystem that we exist in has laws and people can’t fly unaided, which is very unfortunate .

When I touched down on the baseball field side of the river I was fully conscious and lucid in my dream. The three guys were gone and I simply walked around for what I perceived as about a minute. It’s very exciting when you have waking consciousness while dreaming. You must experience it to get it. I tried to hold it all together but the environment and my surroundings quickly faded and I woke up.

Dreams and Lucid dreams in my opinion appear to be mostly physical phenomenons. I am not quite sure what happens when I become lucid and if the lucid awareness has its source rooted beyond the physical. I do know through personal experience that normal unconscious dreams are at least partly if not all physical.  When I was still experiencing migraines with visual auras I experienced the aura  in a dream and then woke up during this experience to find that I was still seeing it in waking life.

Now when I go out of body it’s a completely different feeling and I sometime actually transition out of a lucid dream to get there. Out of body experiences feel as real or more real than waking life. Thomas Campbell and Robert Bruce seem to be right about what’s going on when people experience projections into other realities.  Consciousness must manifest a new body for whatever reality you are visiting. This newly manifested body or form will of course exist in parallel to and independent from your physical body and the physical mind does not need to be in a sleep state in order to manifest consciousness into another reality.

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I hope this post doesn’t make Emmy jealous, but for the sake of consciousness research I must write.

I fell asleep at around 11:30 PM last night and as I fell asleep I tried to clear my mind by observing thoughts without becoming attached to them. Around 5 AM I woke up and ran to the bathroom and then came back to bed and began trying the same techniques in an attempt to astral project. I was tired and my mind was not really coherent so I started trying to push thoughts away. I realized what I was doing and then began allowing my thoughts to drift in without resistance. I was surprised at some of the random thoughts that were entering my mind.  For example a fleeting thought of a specific trip to McDonald’s with my Dad when I was a small child entered my head. These thoughts came and went for 10 minutes or so and during this time frame vibrations were felt several times.

Around 5:30 AM I felt the sensation of myself being bouncing around inside my body. I knew what this was because it’s happened before so I envisioned myself violently bouncing back and forth and within couple of seconds I felt a release and I floated up into the ceiling and things went completely black. I suspected that I was stuck in the ceiling so I thought about standing in my backyard and as I did I felt movement as I drifted from the roof area of my house down into the backyard.

While I was standing in the yard I had full waking consciousness. I knew my name, address etc. I knew that I was either asleep, in some altered state of consciousness or in another reality. I stood there for a minute and let it all soak in. My quality of perception was very good this time and the quality of vision and my senses was superb, equal to or better than waking life.

I looked around and the first thing that came to mind was that I needed to validate and collect evidence. This is where reality fluctuations came into play. I had the idea of floating over to my neighbors house and looking around inside. The idea was that if I ever go inside her house I might be able to identify something I saw in this state. I probably need to rethink my methods of validation.

I floated over to this window that doesn’t really exist in waking life (reality fluctuation) and I pressed my head against the screen in the window (another reality fluctuation, it’s too cold for open windows). Inside I could see her getting a small girl ready for school. She glanced over in my direction at one point but she didn’t seem to notice me there. I was at the window for about a minute and then things shifted.

I found myself standing on the front porch of a house with her on the street I grew up on as a child. She was pissing off the front porch in an attempt to put out a cigarette that she had just thrown on the ground. This was all to funny for me so I asked her if she could see me? She nodded and said yes.  I laughed out loud and asked her “You know you are in my dream, right?”. She didn’t really answer, either she was a dream character or she was just drifting in unconsciousness, it’s hard to say.

She took off running towards the house where my dad lives and jumped into this truck that I have never seen before. This is the part Emmy will like. I jumped in behind her and asked her if she wanted to have sex just to see how she would respond. She agreed to this, but as we started undressing darkness faded in and I found myself back in bed. I question my level of lucidity at this point because I know that I would not cheat in waking life.

I lost lucidity because in my mind I really thought I was awake, but I should have known that I wasn’t because someone out back was mowing the lawn. It’s unlikely that someone would be mowing the lawn at this time of year and at this time of morning. Still this wasn’t enough to make me realize that I was sleeping and the dream continued for about another hour before I finally woke up and wrote this.

The conclusion here is that I was either in the RTZ with extreme reality fluctuations or I was having a lucid dream. Either way I had full waking consciousness. Emmy, you have my permission to have dream sex with anyone that you want.

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I have been reading Eckhart Tolle’s book The Power of Now and in doing so I have learned some new things and reinforced others. While riding my bike today I was putting Tolle’s words into action and became intensely aware of the unconscious state that everyone was in while driving, walking in out of stores, etc. Even fellow cyclists were somewhere else while they listened to their mp3 players.

I tried my best not to analyze the thoughts that entered my mind during the ride. My goal was to stay present and to simply observe everything around me including myself and my own thoughts and emotions without becoming attached to any of it. It was a riding meditation.

Several thoughts ran through my mind as I rode. I thought to myself: “Why aren’t people talking to one another?”, “Why aren’t they acknowledging each others existence?”, “Where are these people going in such a hurry?”, “What will they do once they get there?”, and “What happens after they do whatever it is that had them in such a hurry?”. Maybe they will start the entire cycle over again? It all seemed so surreal to me when I was in the now. The roar of the cars seemed be more like chaos and I could actually feel the insanity of the peoples uncontrolled thoughts dragging me into unconsciousness.

When I arrived back home I turned my analytical mind back on to process what I had experienced on a physical level. People in general didn’t seem to be aware of the present, anymore more so than when they are sleeping. They seemed to be walking and driving around in a sleep state. Consciousness manifested for the experience but the experience never happening because their minds were focused on the nonexistent future and past.

I thought back to my childhood for the specific purpose of trying to understand this unconscious state they were in. Before I started school, time meant nothing to me. I didn’t think about the past or the future, only the present. I still learned new things and functioned in society much like I do now only I was closer to the source of life as a child, the root consciousness that I feel we all come from and are still connected too. I rarely see a child that’s stressed out or on blood pressure medicines. Children are generally joyful and compassionate for others and live in the moment. What a wonderful idea.

This brings me to me new year’s resolution. Starting now I resolve to be more like a child and to live more in the present, only drawing from the past and the future when absolutely necessary while living this physical life that is trapped in time and space.

The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive. To put it more accurately, it is not so much that you use your mind wrongly—you usually dont use it at all. It uses you. — Eckhart Tolle

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I have not been sticking to my commitment to write a bi-weekly progress report so I will just do a monthly report instead, unless I am seeing a lot of activity and then I will just let the posts speak for themselves. I continuously try to consciously induce the out of body state but as I have stated so many times in the past, being busy in waking life puts a damper on any real progress. I have been meditating every night using a modified Shamatha meditation technique where I am actually laying down rather than sitting up and I have been reading Astral Dynamics and doing energy work.

The meditation is interesting but I think that laying down while meditating is probably not the best idea because I end up drifting off to sleep. I have been experiencing rushing noises right before drifting off that can only be described as the noise you might hear on a radio when the dial is between stations. I posted a video Rushing Noises / Sleep Paralysis Sounds in the video section that somewhat represents what I hear only mine are much shorter in quick bursts that fade in and out.

Astral Dynamics is great and is the best OBE guide available in my opinion. I have finally decided to just read the book rather than stopping when I don’t feel like I and progressing with certain exercises. The book states that one must understand tactile imaging and be able put it into practice to get the most out of the book however if I never read the book because I pause at every hurdle then I know for sure I will not get anything out of the book . I was able to get my hands on a wonderful Astral Dynamics overview Robert Bruce On OBEs thanks to ubikmonroe. I highly recommend this book and even if you don’t buy in to any of this, it’s a trip and worth the read.

That’s all for now. Thanks for dropping in and reading and I wish you the best of luck in your spiritual endeavors.

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It’s been a while since I’ve written because I have had zero lucid dreams or astral projection type experiences lately. I am very serious about recording only true experiences objectively. Meaning that I must have waking consciousness while my body sleeps for it to qualify for an entry on here and I must describe only what I experienced without filling in the gaps. Most of the time when I perceive myself as being “out of body” I can recall my name, address or any “waking” thoughts and I know that I’m asleep. Many times I can look at myself sleeping in bed and then move around in what appears to be my house. None of this means that I am actually “out of body” and at this point I have no evidence to draw any definitive conclusions. More validation will be required to truly understand what’s going on. I will continue to call them “out of bod experiences” until my perception suggests otherwise.

I would like to point out my observation that being objective doesn’t necessarily have to mean being actively connected and receiving input from the five waking senses.  I apologize for the lack of a reference but I have read that the waking mind and the five senses can only process a small percentage of the information that’s actually hitting the senses and being sent to the brain at any given moment.  It’s my current belief that while a person is having an “out of body experience” they are not using the five senses and instead they are using a direct type of input, bypassing the senses. I would not then conclude that this type of experience would be any less objective than a waking experience, especially considering that fact that in these out of body states I have access to all waking memories and functions, even if the direct input is mimicking the five senses. Let us not be tricked into assuming that such altered states of conscious are any less real or objective than waking consciousness.

Last night the dream setting was my childhood elementary school O.L.P.H in Chattanooga TN and to expand on this many of my dreams take place at this school. Perhaps this is because I spent 8+ years of my childhood there.

I was riding a bike to some meeting at the church. I remember riding a BMX type bike up the sidewalk northbound on Moore Rd. between Delaware Dr. and the school. There was a fluctuation in the dream or a lapse in my memory because I don’t actually remember going to the meeting or locking the bike up. Not surprisingly, after the meeting I could not find the bike.

I began to question why I didn’t remember putting the bike away or going to the meeting and this missing time triggered my awareness of being in a dream. Immediately I felt a buzzing sensation throughout my body and I suddenly had full waking consciousness within my dream.

I was walking down the sidewalk that leads to the 5th and 6th grade building (at least it was when I went to school there) and I made a conscious effort to fly. I effortlessly rose to an altitude of 100 – 200 feet and noticed that everything had become foggy around me and that to the south and off into the distance there was a bright light that was cutting though the fog.

I was already slightly drifting towards the light but I made a conscious effort to move quicker but the harder I tried the move the more my dream faded until it was gone.

I have noticed that in lucid dreams, trying to take over my dreams seem to always end the dream.  It seems that the part of the brain that’s responsible for creating the dream rapidly deteriorates once I become lucid and specifically try to explore.

I think that next time I become lucid I may try to be more passive while holding on to my waking awareness and see what unfolds. Another possiblitiy would be to simply request a transition into the out of body state. Normally when I request to be out of body the dream ends and I find myself in my bed experiencing strong exit sensations at which time I can simply step out of bed and explore around the house.

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I woke up early this morning at 4 AM and per the lucidology videos and for the first time ever I had enough clarity to consciously wake up and keep perfectly still. Nicholas Newport claims that if a person is able to wake up without moving then they should be able to slip right back into sleep, the trance state or an OBE. Before I woke I had been dreaming that I was back in my childhood bedroom that I had shared with my two brothers growing up. In the dream they are both sleeping in the same bed across from me and but they were grown and for some reason were annoying the crap out of me.

I laid in the bed across from them in the dream trying to fall asleep “while already sleeping” and suddenly I woke up. Perhaps it was the fact that I was dreaming of falling asleep that prevented me from moving when I woke, but I made a conscious decision not to move for the sole purpose of attempting an OBE.

I recall laying in my real bed thinking mostly about staying perfectly still and then 5 seconds later the vibrations hit and I found myself in sleep paralysis. Almost instantly I was back in my dream, however I was now lucid and I knew what was going on. Strangely enough, at the same time I was seeing my current bedroom too. I was not flipping back an forth between dream state and waking consciousness, It seems that I was actually thinking in duality between my dreaming consciousness and my expanded ethereal consciousness.

A few seconds later I noticed in my dream state that the bed sheets where not completely coving my back which caused me to feel unprotected and fear set in. My consciousness then shifted to my dream state and I remember being in paralysis trying to break free by swinging my arms back and forth over my chest. My consciousness suddenly shifted back to my ethereal body and my dream body at the same time and I could see my dream arms sitting still while another set of arms were moving back and forth across my chest passing through my dream arms. I think that the moving arms were perhaps my real time double’s arms.

I never woke up but instead the vibrations stopped and I went straight back into the dream and lost real time consciousness. The fear of not being covered up in the dream caused an abrupt end to the experience. It seems to me that I was conscious on 3 different levels during the experience. I was seeing my dream, my real room and my real time arms moving pretty much all at the same time. I think that if I could have continued the experience and kept the fear at bay, my real time body, including the arms that were moving, would have exited and I may or may not have remembered the OBE. Perhaps the strong fear emotion was the reason I remembered any of it. This also suggest that when I woke up, any projected doubles must have been reeled in at that moment.

You can read more about dual consciousness “mind split” by reading Astral Dynamics by Robert Bruce.

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I have not seen any lucid dreams or out of body experiences to speak of but I have missed a few signals in my dreams that I believe was my consciousness trying to bring me into lucidity.

Last night there were two missed signals, both of which were very obvious and should have snapped me into lucidity. The first signal was that my daughter had cancer in my dream and my wife told me that she was diagnosed months ago and forgot to tell me. It’s pretty obvious while sitting here typing this that my wife would not forget to tell me my if my daughter had cancer. The other signal was that I was standing in my childhood house looking out the back window watching it snow outside. I remember thinking in the dream that it was odd because it’s been 106 degrees for months in Texas. I should have realized I was dreaming when my own thoughts made reference to the impossibility of snow at this time of year and then the fact that I don’t live anywhere near my childhood home and haven’t for years should have been a clue.

The missed signals really do give me hope. I know that my consciousness is trying to awake however my lack of progress in lucid dreaming and out of body experiences can be directly contributed to too much work and programming distractions lately. I will continue to add video content to this blog, read metaphysical material and question my reality at all times and hopefully I will start seeing some changes.

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