The Malleable Light

Last night I was extremely tired after a long day of getting nothing done. I have days where I work fervently but without any focus and end up nowhere. That was my day yesterday. I normally try to meditate for an hour or so before bed while listening to binaural beats or isochronic tones that range between 4.5 HZ and 9 HZ. Last night I decided that a 3 HZ tone and some rest would be a better idea.

I laid down and instantly fell asleep around 12:30 AM. The earbud headphones stayed snug in my ears while I slept through the night with the 3 HZ tone pulsing the entire time. Around 5 AM (I think) I remember being in a dream on a road that crossed through a residential area. I was talking to my Wife and I was still very much out of control. Then I remember that I started to meditate in the street and things drastically changed.

While meditating I floated out of my body and as I did my vision sharpened and I had full waking awareness within my dream. It’s hard to explain and perhaps it will not make sense to someone that’s  focused on physical matter reality but as I was in this state I was communicating  with my wife with non verbal communication and I remember being excited at the possibility.

I walked around for what I perceived to be 20 minutes at least. Some things to note is that my vision was superb in this state. There were tons of oak and maple trees around and the colors had a depth to them beyond that of which I have seen in waking reality. The leaves were super sharp and I could see every detail of every leaf.

The odd part about it all was that I seemed to be contained within a dome of light and then off in the distance I could see the light fading off into darkness. Several times I walked into the darkness and I could feel my dream state rushing back trying to take over my awareness. I would simply demand awareness and the darkness would retreat.

Towards the end of this experience I looked up and noticed that in the darkness there were thousands of stars. I remember thinking to myself that I wanted more information about the stars and suddenly dozens of translucent information panels appears in my field of view and as I focused on areas of the sky beams of light would extend out from the surrounding panels and  information about the objects would appear on the panels. It was happening very quickly and the panels would shift around into the perfect spots to avoid blocking my view of what I was looking at. I seemed to be able to read the information much faster than in this awareness and the rapidly changing positions and information didn’t seem to bother me.

Then what I call the grand finale happened. While looking at the night, meteors started whizzing by and rectangular white marques would zoom in and surround them as they blazed across the sky and little bursts of information about them would hit my consciousness. The information that I was seeing is not something that I can translate into human terms. I woke up shortly after the meteors and it was about 6 AM.

This is all for now. Feel free to comment and let me know what you think .

David Mathis Astral Projection, Dreams, Lucid Dreams, Meditation Astral Projection, Dreams, Lucid Dreams, Meditation

Very short post here but I figured it was worth mentioning.

Two nights ago (I think Sunday night) I had gone to bed and was listening to AmbiScience™ – Bundle Pack 2 – Shamanic Meditation Low Pitch (Isochronic tones at 4.5HZ) with Leaving Terra overlayed. I think it was about 11 PM when I laid down.

I listened for awhile and ended up falling into a light sleep, got tangled up in my headphone cords and woke back up. The headphones had fallen out of my ears  so I put them back on and closed my eyes. Literally a few seconds later the blackness behind my eyes turned into 3D blackness (blackness with depth to it). My vision became crystal clear (can’t describe)  and tiny white points of light were rushing in at me and passing through my head. This lasted for about 1 second and was gone.It kind of felt and looked like I was flying through deep space with galaxies passing by and through me.

I really don’t know what this was and nothing else happened for the rest of the night but I wanted to have this written for reference.

David Mathis Dreams, Meditation Hypnagogic Hallucinations, Isochronic Tones, Meditation, Universe

Anyone who has been around meditation or the exploration of consciousness scene long enough knows about binaural beats and how they can be used to coax the brain into specific rhythms. I have been using a wide variety of beats for about two years now including Hemi-Sync, Brain Sync and a few others. I have have produced some objective results using beats in regards to faster learning, more intense focus and with lucid dreaming and OOBEs.  The thing is,  it’s hard to know if the results are being manifested from my intent or  if the beats play some part. I tend to think that binaural beats do work based on the research that has been done at the Monroe Institute, however without personal experience to back it up I can only consider it a likely possibility.

A few months ago I was looking through the iPhone store  for applications to dynamically generate binaural beats and I came across the term isochronic tones. Interesting! I quickly headed over to Google and started reading about this new technology. Wikipedia defines them as:

Isochronic tones are regular beats of a single tone used for brainwave entrainment. Similar to monaural beats, the interference pattern that produces the beat is outside the brain so headphones are not required, but since isochronic tones are more pronounced, the stimuli is even stronger. They differ from monaural beats which are a sine wave pulse rather than entirely separate pulses of a single tone.

The reason I was looking for an app to generate beats was because I got tired of having to depend on one implementation to generate some kind of result. I would rather just have an interface that allows for frequency adjustments and dynamic track overlays. I found a few iPhone apps that would do this, but the tracks were always limited and were of very poor quality, to the point of being a distraction. Then there are so many apps of this type within the store that it seems more like a get rich scheme rather than designed to actually do anything.

Last night curiosity got the best of me so decided to try out the AmbiScience™ series. The application I bought is called Pure Meditation | AmbiScience™ by By Tesla Audio Sciences. I think it ended up costing me a whopping $2.99. What sold me on this product was the fact that it uses the isochronic tones that I have been wanting to try and the track names sounded interesting with names like Lapis Lazuli, Fire Opal, Amethyst, Topaz, The Android’s Dream and many others. As you might have guessed, it lets me pick a frequency and then lay tracks over the top, which was my original goal. Full description here.

So what did the pudding taste like? This morning around 6 AM I ended up using Shamanic Meditation Low Pitch (Isochronic tones at 4.5HZ) with a Brown Noise overlay. The track volume was at 100% and the tone volume at 75%. The iPhone volume was set at about 8. The product allows for a 4.5 – 9 HZ frequency with a choice of binaural beats or isochronic tones. I was laying on my right side and I began to use a concentrative type meditation. The goal at first was to have no thought and then I progressed to just focusing on the tone. The brown noise track basically sounded like a soft wind.

My wife was sitting in front of me holding the baby and I remember hearing him occasionally. Within about 10 minutes he started fading and I felt a floating sensation. I shifted my focus away from my body and upwards and felt myself float up through the ceiling of the room and out of the house. I drifted up higher and off into the sky and then started spinning head over heal  back down into the house. The entire time I was consciously aware that I was in an altered state and could hear the tone the entire time. I had pretty good control over this experience. I like the sensation of flying so I ended up flying all over the sky above our house for several minutes.

I shifted my focus back to my physical body and found myself laying in bed staring at my wife holding the baby. I decided to end the experience and reached up to take the earphones off and my hands passed though my head. I discovered that I was still in the altered state and had actually been looking at her through my closed eyelids. I simply focused on coming back into phase with my physical body, felt gravity and knew I was really back. I opened my physical eyes and my wife was in the exact spot and position that I saw her in while in the altered state.

I found this experience interesting  in that the isochronic tone seemed to have locked me  into this altered state because I had to really focus on pulling myself out of it. This is a very good sign! Perhaps I will be able to repeat this again. We shall see.

David Mathis Astral Projection, Books & Media, Lucid Dreams, Meditation, Progress Astral Projection, Brainsync, Hemi-Sync, Isochronic Tones, Lucid Dreams, Meditation, Shamatha Meditation

I came across Charles T. Tart a few days ago while reading out on the My Big TOE forum. My impression of him after watching his “Reflections on Meditation” is that he is very intelligent and adds some interesting perspectives on many topics that I have been researching and experimenting with (such as spirituality and exploration of consciousness). His approach is not based on any specific practice but upon his own experience with a multitude of different practices.

He explains that humans as a whole are dummies when approaching meditation and that there are many gaps in our knowledge of the subject.  He makes the assumption that we all (video watchers and everyone in the room with him perhaps?) would like to know more about meditation and his goal being to help people become smarties when it comes to meditation. He asks the question, “Has there been any progress in the meditation field in the last few hundreds years?”

To make progress in meditation he suggests that we have to know what it is, how to measure the outcome of doing it and how to measure movement toward these outcomes. He then points out that humans are restricted to a subset of reality and within that subset there is an even smaller subset of things that are subject to logical definition. By being in the human realm we have limitations on understanding and then on top of that there is state specific thinking. This makes ideas about meditation in this state of thinking and in this reality more difficult to describe or define. Additionally he brings up the fact that there are different ideas about what meditation actually is.

He breaks meditation into three basic types, two of which are sitting meditations and the third is done throughout the day. This to me alone makes the video series worth watching. I have to admit that when I got into meditation I was completely confused by the term and rarely (if ever) know what someone means when they tell me that they meditate. It’s much like the confusion I experienced growing up in the Catholic church when someone told me to go pray or that they were praying.

Here are the three basic types of meditation as defined by him in the series:

1. Concentrative meditation (sitting). Which is to put the mind on one thing and when it wonders away come back to the one thing.
2. Mindfulness meditation (sitting). Buddhist Vipassana for example. Rather than holding the mind fixed on one thing,  three qualities are striven for in the naturally occurring flow of experience.
   1. The quality of clarity that is the pay closer receptive attention to what goes on from moment to moment.
   2. The quality of breadth, instead of only paying attention of the things we likes, we pay attention to the whole flow of experience
   3. The quality of equanimity.  Instead of getting caught up in “I don’t like” or “I want more”,  we just let things happen as they want to happen as we pay clear and broad attention to them.
3. Mindfulness in life meditation (non-sitting). Like Vipassana, but performed in everyday life rather than being a sitting meditation.

He feels that the third type may be far more important in that few people ever get in trouble sitting on a meditation mat which lead him to consider the possibility that  mindfulness is needed much more in daily life.

Moving on he talks about people living in an illusion and how it’s often translated into the world isn’t real. He argues that the world is real but our perception of it is so distorted that the world we live in and take to be the real world is a highly illusionary kind of world. I visualized this as absolute reality being filtered by local “physical matter reality” consciousness causing final perception of reality to be reduced to a relative reality warped by emotions, thoughts, ego, history etc. He is not suggesting that abstract thought is a bad thing, but when we don’t know that abstract thought is abstract thought, we end up living in an illusion, which is what meditation seeks to do something about.

He defines meditation as controlled attention practices. Instead of letting our attention be controlled by what happens to us and our conditioned reactions being brought up by what happened to us, instead deliberately take control of what we are going to do with our attention. Basically he is saying not to get caught up in a thought loop which causes us to miss out on what’s actually happening in the present moment.

Going back to the question of progress brought up earlier he goes on to speak about how he feels that Shinzen Young  is making some progress with meditation by using languages that are specific the the culture that he is teaching in. He has some very interesting mathematical equations for suffering  and satisfaction. He also talks about a computer coach that Young has developed that helps people with common problems that may come up with meditation.

In conclusion he feels that we are slowly making progress with meditation. With meditation he doesn’t feel that the one size fits all school of thought is the best approach for teaching people meditation. He concludes that we must define meditation terms more precisely and figure out what specific controlled attention practices should be applied by what specific kind of people under what specific type a circumstances in order to get a lot of work accomplished in an efficient way.

I have included a link to the first video out of a series of 9 below. I will work on getting the videos added to this site in the future.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Fajlmzsu6A

David Mathis Meditation, Techniques Charles T. Tart, Shamatha Meditation, Vipassana Meditation

My new meditation schedule is twice a day and I am hoping to see some results. Hopefully by writing about results will help to solidify their reality and as always give me data to look back on after my brain has long forgotten.

I went to bed around 10:30 PM last night and meditated in a seated position for about 15 minutes, became tired, switched to a laying position and fell asleep.

I woke up around 5:50 AM feeling tired. I got up and went to the restroom and came back to bed and I seemed to be less tired after getting up and walking for a few minutes. I put on my headphones and started listening to Brain Sync – Brain Massage and began to meditate by running the mantra ah-lum-baa-dee-dum – ah-lum-bar-dee-dum through my head. The goal was and is always to eliminate thoughts, and I know this intellectually, however knowing and doing (or should I say not doing) are two different things.

The Brain Sync track starts off with background binaural beats, soothing music and a river and then as the track progresses the music gets softer and softer until it’s completely gone, leaving only the sound of water.  The meditation technique and this track seemed to work well together. The music got softer and so did the complexity of my mantra until all that was left was the sound of flowing water and a faint remnant of my mantra, as if my mind became something separate from me.  A few moments later I let the mantra go and latched onto my breathing which was getting more and more shallow. When thoughts found their way in I simply observed them and went back to focusing on breathing.

Before long I noticed that my awareness was slipping away and I had to keep that from happening by quickly directing my focus back to breathing. Every time I would come back to breathing I would have a spinning falling sensation and a faint tingling throughout my body. Each time I would pull my awareness back the sensations would get stronger. I would have just let myself fallen asleep if it had not been for several meetings at work this morning. Normally, at this stage if fall asleep, I will hit strong vibrations and have a full blown OOBE.

I finally called it quits  at 7:15 AM to prepare for meetings.

David Mathis Meditation, Miscellaneous, Progress Brainsync, Meditation, Progress, Techniques

I started my journey for spiritual growth about 1.5 years ago. From the beginning I have intuitively known that I need to quiet the incessant cacophony in my head to make any real progress. This has been a real challenge with so much work all the time. I have been searching for a practical meditation technique that only retains the active components needed to be effective without any added nonsense. The Buddhist meditation was close but didn’t totally connect with my personality.

I am not going to claim success, because I just don’t have enough experience with this technique to do that however I do know that Thomas Campbell’s meditation technique showed some positive results last night on the first try. I really liked when he said that humanity is just a wrinkle in the fabric of consciousness and by using a simple mantra we can create enough background noise to remove the wrinkles leaving only pure consciousness. He has a way with words that I can relate to. Eckhart Tolle almost had me there but not quite. The funny part is that I have been saying all along that the mantra itself didn’t matter but I missed a vital component.  I think the key was that I was using real words that were attached to meanings and that was creating thoughts. Last night for the first time I used an alternating mantra of sounds with no meanings. Each manta contained 5 syllables with only the third syllable changing which created resonate meaningless complex sounds which I kept coming back to anytime thoughts would arise.

I went to bed tired at about 10:30 PM and put on my headphones and started listening to Brain Sync Dream Wave Meditation to block out background noise and then started the mantra ah-lum-bar-dee-dum – ah-lum-baa-dee-dum over and over.Within 10 minutes all I could hear in my head was bar-baa bar-baa. 10 minutes after that all physical sensory perception was gone and I was a single point of consciousness floating in 3d blackness. I could feel a surge of energy flowing through my body and my heart felt like it was racing prior to this. I ended the meditation session and went to sleep.

I woke up at 2:30 AM itching and could not seem to go back to sleep so I got up and went to the restroom and then came back to bed and listened to some random music for a few minutes until I started getting sleepy again. I put on Brain Sync – Brain Massage this time and started the mantra again. I fell asleep within a few minutes.

Around 4:00 PM I woke up in vibrations and instinctively exited my body and was standing in front of my house in the dark. I must have teleported there. This was the first OOBE followed by 2 more. The first one was interesting and I will just say that I was creating my surroundings just by thinking about what I wanted. I will not get into too many details. I had a second OOBE but I can’t actually remember what happened, only that it occurred.

The third OOBE was the most interesting of the three. I was standing on the top of some building that stood alone in some remote country landscape at daybreak. I was thinking to myself about how I had always wanted to project into space. I figured I would give it a try. I thought about flying into space and instantly was projected upward at and incredible speed and stopped at an unknown altitude in complete darkness. With my mind I asked to see the cosmos and suddenly at what appeared like an altitude of about +50º to my right appeared the Milky Way Galaxy with the Moon sitting in front of it. I was so crystal clear and beautiful that I can’t even describe it. I found myself back in waking awareness right after this and then went back to sleep  and had no other experiences.

I would like to point out that if you are going to use Thomas Campbell’s technique for meditation then you will need to read his trilogy My Big TOE. Although I explained his technique above, there is a lot of reading material that leads up to that technique and prepares you for how to effectively use the technique. The main part is adjusting the attitude. Like I said, Eckhart Tolle get’s very close to the exact same message but comes across in a slightly less direct manner. Thomas Campbell is a nuclear physicist and is one of the main guys that helped Robert Monroe invent Hemi-Sync and start the Monroe Institute. He was also one of the main players participating in their exploration of consciousness.  It’s no surprise to me that the technique worked so well.

David Mathis Astral Projection, Meditation, Progress, Techniques Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Brainsync, Buddhism, Consciousness, Eckhart Tolle, Flying, Hemi-Sync, Meditation, Progress, Techniques, Thomas Campbell

Hi All, long time since logging in. I’ve been trying to get the time but busy doing other things..

Over January & February I found a substantial part of my dream memories were of an emotional nature. Dreams that were very symbolic, communicative and sometimes directly healing. In the past month and a half I’ve had about three experiences I wanted to report.

The first I considered an OBE. I woke due to my 10mth old and was awake with her for somewhere around 1-2hrs. Her mother woke and said “Why don’t you go back to bed?”.. My Mrs. has trouble going back to sleep if she gets woken but not I

So I trotted off to bed and thought I would meditate lying down to help me get back to sleep & because I felt like meditating

After a while (maybe 20-30mins) of Anapanna meditation I felt an indescript feeling that i could only relate as a familiar pre-OBE feeling. I then shifted focus to my body and there was a general feeling of something but definately no vibrations of any strength. I then went back to Anapanna as I had no intention of projecting. Before I knew it I was asleep and found myself in the downstairs of my house. Because this happened about two weeks ago much of the detail is gone from memory but I found myself suggesting to myself that I was having an OBE. I was talking to people telling them i was having an OBE. I remember this woman I was talking to was suggesting, “No, No. You’re not having an OBE you’re high on Marijuana”.. I use to smoke the stuff so was then a little unsure.. I KNEW absolutely I was in an altered state of reality and felt very light and free and thought “No, I’m not high I’m in an OBE”.. The theme downstairs was that it was my nextdoor neighbours birthday.. The interesting thing about this is after I woke I asked my Mrs. if she knew when the neighbours birthday was, she said “I know he’s a Pisces (sun sign) so it must be soon”. I saw him a day or two later and asked him and it turns out it’s in early March.. cool huh!! Much of the rest of the experience is in fragments except for a part where someone else was attempting to convince me I had been smoking marijuana”.. I was thinking “I sort of hope not”.. Then I felt what I was experiencing..and it was so much nicer than any marijuana high i have ever experienced (and thats heaps) I was convinced that I was OBE and while in OBE thought to myself “People wish they felt like I do now when they get high”.. then I wondered, “Is this what people are hoping they are going to be experiencing when getting high?”.. I wonder…

There was one time in this OBE that I considered shifting back to my body to prove to myself that i was OBE.. Just the mere thought of doing that produced a feeling in my astral body that made me aware that my physical body was indeed asleep in bed with strong vibes .. I knew I was OBE by this feeling and decided to stay.. I believe by going back to my body consciously I would have retained better memories but it was so nice to be out and i could feel i could sustain it so i played the staying out game

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One other thing that happened was fairly unusual for me.. I had an alien come to me in what i describe as a vsion (while sleeping) and it said “We are coming”… This alien was reptilian to look at (though never seen one before, not even a drawing) with green skin and scales. It (he) was short.. Maybe 5’2″ tall and had very broad shoulders very little neck… It’s manner was urgent though friendly, it seemed like it was warning me so I’m not so surprised or fearful when they come. It felt like it (they) almost HAD to come to Earth,like they (it) had very little choice… Although I believe Alien beings most very likely exist (due mainly to the masive expanse of galaxy & universe out there) – I have never spent much time thinking that they would be coming to Earth and even less time that they would come in a form/manner that would allow them the be visible to us… Over December/January I was reading an e-book by Tayesin from Astral Pulse which speaks a lot about UFO’s Aliens and the like, so not sure how much this influenced this encounter.. Maybe it just allowed me to open up to allow this being to contact me, but who knows?

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The last experience I consider a very Lucid Dream.. the main theme in it was me practicing my flying skills.. Couple of interesting things to note here.. 1. Spent most of this flying lesson in the car driving position (like sitting in the car seat).. It was quite fun

More importantly I note that 2. This experience (considered an LD) was much more colourful and vivid than the experience I called an OBE earlier.. The main differences & why I categorise them differently is I had much more awareness in the OBE.. In the OBE I believed that I was OBE.. I’m sure from the feeling I got, if I did try to move back to my physical body I am SURE I would have ended up in my bed with vibes all over my body.. In the LD I felt like I was dreaming.. I was aware I was dreaming but had no awareness of my physical body or any desire to go back and no desire to do anything else but fly…

I hope something here may help someone in some way,

Thank you,

Dean K

Dean Keune Astral Projection, Dreams, Lucid Dreams, Meditation, Progress Alien, anapanna meditation, Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams, Progress

I hope this post doesn’t make Emmy jealous, but for the sake of consciousness research I must write.

I fell asleep at around 11:30 PM last night and as I fell asleep I tried to clear my mind by observing thoughts without becoming attached to them. Around 5 AM I woke up and ran to the bathroom and then came back to bed and began trying the same techniques in an attempt to astral project. I was tired and my mind was not really coherent so I started trying to push thoughts away. I realized what I was doing and then began allowing my thoughts to drift in without resistance. I was surprised at some of the random thoughts that were entering my mind.  For example a fleeting thought of a specific trip to McDonald’s with my Dad when I was a small child entered my head. These thoughts came and went for 10 minutes or so and during this time frame vibrations were felt several times.

Around 5:30 AM I felt the sensation of myself being bouncing around inside my body. I knew what this was because it’s happened before so I envisioned myself violently bouncing back and forth and within couple of seconds I felt a release and I floated up into the ceiling and things went completely black. I suspected that I was stuck in the ceiling so I thought about standing in my backyard and as I did I felt movement as I drifted from the roof area of my house down into the backyard.

While I was standing in the yard I had full waking consciousness. I knew my name, address etc. I knew that I was either asleep, in some altered state of consciousness or in another reality. I stood there for a minute and let it all soak in. My quality of perception was very good this time and the quality of vision and my senses was superb, equal to or better than waking life.

I looked around and the first thing that came to mind was that I needed to validate and collect evidence. This is where reality fluctuations came into play. I had the idea of floating over to my neighbors house and looking around inside. The idea was that if I ever go inside her house I might be able to identify something I saw in this state. I probably need to rethink my methods of validation.

I floated over to this window that doesn’t really exist in waking life (reality fluctuation) and I pressed my head against the screen in the window (another reality fluctuation, it’s too cold for open windows). Inside I could see her getting a small girl ready for school. She glanced over in my direction at one point but she didn’t seem to notice me there. I was at the window for about a minute and then things shifted.

I found myself standing on the front porch of a house with her on the street I grew up on as a child. She was pissing off the front porch in an attempt to put out a cigarette that she had just thrown on the ground. This was all to funny for me so I asked her if she could see me? She nodded and said yes.  I laughed out loud and asked her “You know you are in my dream, right?”. She didn’t really answer, either she was a dream character or she was just drifting in unconsciousness, it’s hard to say.

She took off running towards the house where my dad lives and jumped into this truck that I have never seen before. This is the part Emmy will like. I jumped in behind her and asked her if she wanted to have sex just to see how she would respond. She agreed to this, but as we started undressing darkness faded in and I found myself back in bed. I question my level of lucidity at this point because I know that I would not cheat in waking life.

I lost lucidity because in my mind I really thought I was awake, but I should have known that I wasn’t because someone out back was mowing the lawn. It’s unlikely that someone would be mowing the lawn at this time of year and at this time of morning. Still this wasn’t enough to make me realize that I was sleeping and the dream continued for about another hour before I finally woke up and wrote this.

The conclusion here is that I was either in the RTZ with extreme reality fluctuations or I was having a lucid dream. Either way I had full waking consciousness. Emmy, you have my permission to have dream sex with anyone that you want.

David Mathis Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams, Meditation, Techniques Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Consciousness, Dreams, Lucid Dreaming, Lucid Dreams