The Malleable Light

I have been reading the My Big TOE trilogy lately and trying to meditate more consistently. Last night I read a very long chapter and then did a 20 minute mantra type meditation that produced so interesting results.

There is a reason they (the various meditation experts I have listened to over the past few years) say don’t lay down while meditating. I tend to fall asleep if I attempt to meditate while laying down.

I was in a seated position in bed listening to Naturespace – Back Home and focusing on the meaningless mantra “a lum bar de dum, a lum baa de dum”.

I did this for about 15 minutes and then noticed that the mantra moved into the background and seems to continue without any effort on my part. Meaning I no longer was actively running the mantra through my mind, it was just happening on it’s own. It faded out and became softer and softer and I no longer needed it to keep my thoughts out. Things got very quite and awareness faded.

A few moments later (this was my perception) I was aware again but things were different. I was floating in 3D blackness in complete calmness. I thought about my laptop being in front of me and it started coming into my view. It was odd though because it was my laptop outlined in the blackness and had no color. I was like wow for a second and then when thoughts started running in my mind again the experience ended.

David Mathis Meditation

It’s been several months since having something within the context of altered states of consciousness to write about. It’s the same old excuse (which isn’t really an excuse) of working too many hours, depriving myself of proper focus. For the last two nights I have started listening using the iPhone application Inner Node Studio Binaural Beat (Out of Body). Whether or not this application helped induce an altered state is purely anecdotal.

I read a few chapters of My Big TOE last night and then around 11 PM I started listening to the iPhone track and fell asleep. At around 4 AM Julia came over to our room after having a nightmare. I brought her back to her room, stayed with her until she fell back to sleep and then went back to bed while listening to the iPhone track again.

As I listened and after what I perceived as five minutes passing I felt a shift in consciousness.  I didn’t fight it and just observed and suddenly I felt a twisting motion and my body felt as though it was twisting down into a funnel. Very quickly I felt as though my consciousness had collapsed in on itself and then into a point o awareness (best I can describe it, sorry). When I became pure consciousness I set my intent on exploring the RTZ (real time zone)

I then found myself standing in the hallway on the second floor of our old address here in Austin. I walked down the stairs and noticed that the furniture was different but it was had to see, as it was dark in the house. I then thought about being out front in the street and I was instantly there. I noticed that if I looked into darkness or shadows, my awareness would fade so I would quickly turn my attention back to lighted areas. This didn’t last long and I was pulled towards our current house.

A few moments later I woke up in my bed, got up and walked out into the hallway. After a couple of minutes I noticed that something wasn’t right. The house looked strangely different. My consciousness shifted and I found myself standing in a room that I had not seen before. I felt like I was still in our house, but the window I was looking out of is not an actual window in my house, and I saw Julia get on a school bus outside. I must have been losing touch with my waking awareness because at this point I stopped questioning the anomalies  that I was witnessing. I think that my subconscious had rushed in and it ended the experience.

The fascinating part of this experience was the solidness and realness of the experience. There was absolutely nothing about the experience in terms of things that might seem to defy the laws of physics that would cause me to question things based on this observation alone.  The fact that I showed up at the old place and walked through a wall certainly did.

I was really nice to “get out” of local awareness after several months of nothing. My goal is to a) be able to consistently reproduce these experiences and the b) use them to produce measurable results on waking objective reality. I have been able to do this at least once already but I can’t consistently get into these states. I’m in no hurry though .

David Mathis Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams, Meditation

Last night I was extremely tired after a long day of getting nothing done. I have days where I work fervently but without any focus and end up nowhere. That was my day yesterday. I normally try to meditate for an hour or so before bed while listening to binaural beats or isochronic tones that range between 4.5 HZ and 9 HZ. Last night I decided that a 3 HZ tone and some rest would be a better idea.

I laid down and instantly fell asleep around 12:30 AM. The earbud headphones stayed snug in my ears while I slept through the night with the 3 HZ tone pulsing the entire time. Around 5 AM (I think) I remember being in a dream on a road that crossed through a residential area. I was talking to my Wife and I was still very much out of control. Then I remember that I started to meditate in the street and things drastically changed.

While meditating I floated out of my body and as I did my vision sharpened and I had full waking awareness within my dream. It’s hard to explain and perhaps it will not make sense to someone that’s  focused on physical matter reality but as I was in this state I was communicating  with my wife with non verbal communication and I remember being excited at the possibility.

I walked around for what I perceived to be 20 minutes at least. Some things to note is that my vision was superb in this state. There were tons of oak and maple trees around and the colors had a depth to them beyond that of which I have seen in waking reality. The leaves were super sharp and I could see every detail of every leaf.

The odd part about it all was that I seemed to be contained within a dome of light and then off in the distance I could see the light fading off into darkness. Several times I walked into the darkness and I could feel my dream state rushing back trying to take over my awareness. I would simply demand awareness and the darkness would retreat.

Towards the end of this experience I looked up and noticed that in the darkness there were thousands of stars. I remember thinking to myself that I wanted more information about the stars and suddenly dozens of translucent information panels appears in my field of view and as I focused on areas of the sky beams of light would extend out from the surrounding panels and  information about the objects would appear on the panels. It was happening very quickly and the panels would shift around into the perfect spots to avoid blocking my view of what I was looking at. I seemed to be able to read the information much faster than in this awareness and the rapidly changing positions and information didn’t seem to bother me.

Then what I call the grand finale happened. While looking at the night, meteors started whizzing by and rectangular white marques would zoom in and surround them as they blazed across the sky and little bursts of information about them would hit my consciousness. The information that I was seeing is not something that I can translate into human terms. I woke up shortly after the meteors and it was about 6 AM.

This is all for now. Feel free to comment and let me know what you think .

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Very short post here but I figured it was worth mentioning.

Two nights ago (I think Sunday night) I had gone to bed and was listening to AmbiScience™ – Bundle Pack 2 – Shamanic Meditation Low Pitch (Isochronic tones at 4.5HZ) with Leaving Terra overlayed. I think it was about 11 PM when I laid down.

I listened for awhile and ended up falling into a light sleep, got tangled up in my headphone cords and woke back up. The headphones had fallen out of my ears  so I put them back on and closed my eyes. Literally a few seconds later the blackness behind my eyes turned into 3D blackness (blackness with depth to it). My vision became crystal clear (can’t describe)  and tiny white points of light were rushing in at me and passing through my head. This lasted for about 1 second and was gone.It kind of felt and looked like I was flying through deep space with galaxies passing by and through me.

I really don’t know what this was and nothing else happened for the rest of the night but I wanted to have this written for reference.

David Mathis Dreams, Meditation Hypnagogic Hallucinations, Isochronic Tones, Meditation, Universe