The Malleable Light

Hi All, long time since logging in. I’ve been trying to get the time but busy doing other things..

Over January & February I found a substantial part of my dream memories were of an emotional nature. Dreams that were very symbolic, communicative and sometimes directly healing. In the past month and a half I’ve had about three experiences I wanted to report.

The first I considered an OBE. I woke due to my 10mth old and was awake with her for somewhere around 1-2hrs. Her mother woke and said “Why don’t you go back to bed?”.. My Mrs. has trouble going back to sleep if she gets woken but not I

So I trotted off to bed and thought I would meditate lying down to help me get back to sleep & because I felt like meditating

After a while (maybe 20-30mins) of Anapanna meditation I felt an indescript feeling that i could only relate as a familiar pre-OBE feeling. I then shifted focus to my body and there was a general feeling of something but definately no vibrations of any strength. I then went back to Anapanna as I had no intention of projecting. Before I knew it I was asleep and found myself in the downstairs of my house. Because this happened about two weeks ago much of the detail is gone from memory but I found myself suggesting to myself that I was having an OBE. I was talking to people telling them i was having an OBE. I remember this woman I was talking to was suggesting, “No, No. You’re not having an OBE you’re high on Marijuana”.. I use to smoke the stuff so was then a little unsure.. I KNEW absolutely I was in an altered state of reality and felt very light and free and thought “No, I’m not high I’m in an OBE”.. The theme downstairs was that it was my nextdoor neighbours birthday.. The interesting thing about this is after I woke I asked my Mrs. if she knew when the neighbours birthday was, she said “I know he’s a Pisces (sun sign) so it must be soon”. I saw him a day or two later and asked him and it turns out it’s in early March.. cool huh!! Much of the rest of the experience is in fragments except for a part where someone else was attempting to convince me I had been smoking marijuana”.. I was thinking “I sort of hope not”.. Then I felt what I was experiencing..and it was so much nicer than any marijuana high i have ever experienced (and thats heaps) I was convinced that I was OBE and while in OBE thought to myself “People wish they felt like I do now when they get high”.. then I wondered, “Is this what people are hoping they are going to be experiencing when getting high?”.. I wonder…

There was one time in this OBE that I considered shifting back to my body to prove to myself that i was OBE.. Just the mere thought of doing that produced a feeling in my astral body that made me aware that my physical body was indeed asleep in bed with strong vibes .. I knew I was OBE by this feeling and decided to stay.. I believe by going back to my body consciously I would have retained better memories but it was so nice to be out and i could feel i could sustain it so i played the staying out game

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One other thing that happened was fairly unusual for me.. I had an alien come to me in what i describe as a vsion (while sleeping) and it said “We are coming”… This alien was reptilian to look at (though never seen one before, not even a drawing) with green skin and scales. It (he) was short.. Maybe 5′2″ tall and had very broad shoulders very little neck… It’s manner was urgent though friendly, it seemed like it was warning me so I’m not so surprised or fearful when they come. It felt like it (they) almost HAD to come to Earth,like they (it) had very little choice… Although I believe Alien beings most very likely exist (due mainly to the masive expanse of galaxy & universe out there) – I have never spent much time thinking that they would be coming to Earth and even less time that they would come in a form/manner that would allow them the be visible to us… Over December/January I was reading an e-book by Tayesin from Astral Pulse which speaks a lot about UFO’s Aliens and the like, so not sure how much this influenced this encounter.. Maybe it just allowed me to open up to allow this being to contact me, but who knows?

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The last experience I consider a very Lucid Dream.. the main theme in it was me practicing my flying skills.. Couple of interesting things to note here.. 1. Spent most of this flying lesson in the car driving position (like sitting in the car seat).. It was quite fun

More importantly I note that 2. This experience (considered an LD) was much more colourful and vivid than the experience I called an OBE earlier.. The main differences & why I categorise them differently is I had much more awareness in the OBE.. In the OBE I believed that I was OBE.. I’m sure from the feeling I got, if I did try to move back to my physical body I am SURE I would have ended up in my bed with vibes all over my body.. In the LD I felt like I was dreaming.. I was aware I was dreaming but had no awareness of my physical body or any desire to go back and no desire to do anything else but fly…

I hope something here may help someone in some way,

Thank you,

Dean K

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I hope this post doesn’t make Emmy jealous, but for the sake of consciousness research I must write.

I fell asleep at around 11:30 PM last night and as I fell asleep I tried to clear my mind by observing thoughts without becoming attached to them. Around 5 AM I woke up and ran to the bathroom and then came back to bed and began trying the same techniques in an attempt to astral project. I was tired and my mind was not really coherent so I started trying to push thoughts away. I realized what I was doing and then began allowing my thoughts to drift in without resistance. I was surprised at some of the random thoughts that were entering my mind.  For example a fleeting thought of a specific trip to McDonald’s with my Dad when I was a small child entered my head. These thoughts came and went for 10 minutes or so and during this time frame vibrations were felt several times.

Around 5:30 AM I felt the sensation of myself being bouncing around inside my body. I knew what this was because it’s happened before so I envisioned myself violently bouncing back and forth and within couple of seconds I felt a release and I floated up into the ceiling and things went completely black. I suspected that I was stuck in the ceiling so I thought about standing in my backyard and as I did I felt movement as I drifted from the roof area of my house down into the backyard.

While I was standing in the yard I had full waking consciousness. I knew my name, address etc. I knew that I was either asleep, in some altered state of consciousness or in another reality. I stood there for a minute and let it all soak in. My quality of perception was very good this time and the quality of vision and my senses was superb, equal to or better than waking life.

I looked around and the first thing that came to mind was that I needed to validate and collect evidence. This is where reality fluctuations came into play. I had the idea of floating over to my neighbors house and looking around inside. The idea was that if I ever go inside her house I might be able to identify something I saw in this state. I probably need to rethink my methods of validation.

I floated over to this window that doesn’t really exist in waking life (reality fluctuation) and I pressed my head against the screen in the window (another reality fluctuation, it’s too cold for open windows). Inside I could see her getting a small girl ready for school. She glanced over in my direction at one point but she didn’t seem to notice me there. I was at the window for about a minute and then things shifted.

I found myself standing on the front porch of a house with her on the street I grew up on as a child. She was pissing off the front porch in an attempt to put out a cigarette that she had just thrown on the ground. This was all to funny for me so I asked her if she could see me? She nodded and said yes.  I laughed out loud and asked her “You know you are in my dream, right?”. She didn’t really answer, either she was a dream character or she was just drifting in unconsciousness, it’s hard to say.

She took off running towards the house where my dad lives and jumped into this truck that I have never seen before. This is the part Emmy will like. I jumped in behind her and asked her if she wanted to have sex just to see how she would respond. She agreed to this, but as we started undressing darkness faded in and I found myself back in bed. I question my level of lucidity at this point because I know that I would not cheat in waking life.

I lost lucidity because in my mind I really thought I was awake, but I should have known that I wasn’t because someone out back was mowing the lawn. It’s unlikely that someone would be mowing the lawn at this time of year and at this time of morning. Still this wasn’t enough to make me realize that I was sleeping and the dream continued for about another hour before I finally woke up and wrote this.

The conclusion here is that I was either in the RTZ with extreme reality fluctuations or I was having a lucid dream. Either way I had full waking consciousness. Emmy, you have my permission to have dream sex with anyone that you want.

David Mathis Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams, Meditation, Techniques Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Consciousness, Dreams, Lucid Dreaming, Lucid Dreams

I have been reading Eckhart Tolle’s book The Power of Now and in doing so I have learned some new things and reinforced others. While riding my bike today I was putting Tolle’s words into action and became intensely aware of the unconscious state that everyone was in while driving, walking in out of stores, etc. Even fellow cyclists were somewhere else while they listened to their mp3 players.

I tried my best not to analyze the thoughts that entered my mind during the ride. My goal was to stay present and to simply observe everything around me including myself and my own thoughts and emotions without becoming attached to any of it. It was a riding meditation.

Several thoughts ran through my mind as I rode. I thought to myself: “Why aren’t people talking to one another?”, “Why aren’t they acknowledging each others existence?”, “Where are these people going in such a hurry?”, “What will they do once they get there?”, and “What happens after they do whatever it is that had them in such a hurry?”. Maybe they will start the entire cycle over again? It all seemed so surreal to me when I was in the now. The roar of the cars seemed be more like chaos and I could actually feel the insanity of the peoples uncontrolled thoughts dragging me into unconsciousness.

When I arrived back home I turned my analytical mind back on to process what I had experienced on a physical level. People in general didn’t seem to be aware of the present, anymore more so than when they are sleeping. They seemed to be walking and driving around in a sleep state. Consciousness manifested for the experience but the experience never happening because their minds were focused on the nonexistent future and past.

I thought back to my childhood for the specific purpose of trying to understand this unconscious state they were in. Before I started school, time meant nothing to me. I didn’t think about the past or the future, only the present. I still learned new things and functioned in society much like I do now only I was closer to the source of life as a child, the root consciousness that I feel we all come from and are still connected too. I rarely see a child that’s stressed out or on blood pressure medicines. Children are generally joyful and compassionate for others and live in the moment. What a wonderful idea.

This brings me to me new year’s resolution. Starting now I resolve to be more like a child and to live more in the present, only drawing from the past and the future when absolutely necessary while living this physical life that is trapped in time and space.

The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive. To put it more accurately, it is not so much that you use your mind wrongly—you usually dont use it at all. It uses you. — Eckhart Tolle

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I have not been sticking to my commitment to write a bi-weekly progress report so I will just do a monthly report instead, unless I am seeing a lot of activity and then I will just let the posts speak for themselves. I continuously try to consciously induce the out of body state but as I have stated so many times in the past, being busy in waking life puts a damper on any real progress. I have been meditating every night using a modified Shamatha meditation technique where I am actually laying down rather than sitting up and I have been reading Astral Dynamics and doing energy work.

The meditation is interesting but I think that laying down while meditating is probably not the best idea because I end up drifting off to sleep. I have been experiencing rushing noises right before drifting off that can only be described as the noise you might hear on a radio when the dial is between stations. I posted a video Rushing Noises / Sleep Paralysis Sounds in the video section that somewhat represents what I hear only mine are much shorter in quick bursts that fade in and out.

Astral Dynamics is great and is the best OBE guide available in my opinion. I have finally decided to just read the book rather than stopping when I don’t feel like I and progressing with certain exercises. The book states that one must understand tactile imaging and be able put it into practice to get the most out of the book however if I never read the book because I pause at every hurdle then I know for sure I will not get anything out of the book . I was able to get my hands on a wonderful Astral Dynamics overview Robert Bruce On OBEs thanks to ubikmonroe. I highly recommend this book and even if you don’t buy in to any of this, it’s a trip and worth the read.

That’s all for now. Thanks for dropping in and reading and I wish you the best of luck in your spiritual endeavors.

David Mathis Astral Projection, Meditation, Progress, Techniques Astral Dynamics, Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Meditation, Progress, Rushing Noises, Shamatha Meditation, Sleep Paralysis

I have not achieved the out of body state in a few weeks due to pain and drugs associated with the  extraction of my lower wisdom teeth. The pain has now been gone and I have been trying for the last week to Astral Project.

Last night I decided that I would apply some of the Shamatha Meditation techniques I learned over the weekend for Astral Projection. The two seem so alike that I can’t help but suspect that they are the same exact thing under different names. In fact I found myself sitting in a group of people in the Buddhist temple meditating and thinking to myself, “This is just another  technique for achieving the out of body state”.

I went to bed and fell asleep with no problem at about 11:00 PM while listening to Fleetwood Mac and John Lennon. I woke at 4:00 PM, had my bathroom break and then returned to bed. I ran the mantra “I am now out of body” through my head for about 10 minutes and then my mind and body fell into sleep. I then woke back up around 6:00 AM. This time I began using the “focus on breathing” technique used in  Shamatha Meditation. Random thoughts would enter my mind and I would gently return focus to breathing. The pattern repeated itself 3 more times and then I fell into a shallow sleep and almost lost consciousness but was able to return my focus back to my breathing. 1 more minute passed and the vibrations hit me but it was 6:30 AM, time for work!

I may try this technique again, but as I mentioned in previous posts, I don’t think it really matters what you’re focused on as long as you keep focused on something.

I would be interested to hear if anyone else happens to see the similarities between Shamatha Meditation and Astral Projection.

David Mathis Astral Projection, Meditation Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Buddhism, Shamatha Meditation, Techniques

Yesterday I had the opportunity to visit the Shambhala Meditation Center here is Austin. The center was established in 1976 and offers classes on meditation and Shambhala Buddhism which is a form of Western Buddhism. I made several new friends and had my first lesson in Shamatha Meditation.

During the visit there was a an initial focus on the history of Shambhala Buddhism and then 70% of the 2 hours was focused on Shamatha Meditation, what meditation is, what it isn’t and then about 15 minutes of actual meditation as a group.

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In Buddhism, there are two types of meditation: Shamatha and Vipassana. Shamatha is single pointed meditation. Vipassana is an analytic form of meditation. These 2 meditations have to be cultivated in sequence. Shamatha meditation first, and then Vipassana. Although, the individual need not to have fully accomplished the Shamatha meditation, he must have proper experience of Shamatha meditation in order to embark on Vipassana. Without having any experience of Shamatha meditation, then practice of Vipassana meditation is ineffective.

Shamatha meditation helps to free the mind from disturbing emotions and conceptual thinking processes. It brings the mind under control, under discipline, with some degree of single pointed focus, with full alertness of mind. By doing this meditation, the individual is able to suppress disturbing emotions and gain inner peace, harmony and balance.

Vipassana meditation directly helps to pull out the seeds or imprints that are left in our psyche by these manifest emotional defilements and distorted thoughts so that disturbing emotions and thoughts will never reoccur. It brings unchanging and everlasting inner peace, joy and harmony.

The very purpose of Shamatha meditation is not just to feel good for a period of time but to give birth to deeper levels of understanding, of wisdom. So that individuals can see the ultimate reality of phenomena and are able to go beyond ordinary perceptions. Shamatha meditation cuts through ordinary appearances and the confusion between our concepts and reality.

Now, how to engage in Shamatha meditation and what exactly one is doing while sitting and meditating? When sitting in meditation, one is sitting in motionless body and motionless mind. Sitting in motionless body is not difficult. Sitting in motionless mind is not easy because our ordinary mind is so undisciplined and so oriented, or drawn, towards external stimulation. It is very hard to bring the mind to rest and calm with no single wave of thought or thinking process. Although one can bring mind to rest or calm for a short time, our mind can remain blank, or numb, with no sense of freshness and alertness. Thus, one forgets the object of meditation and mind will be influenced by drowsiness, excitement, or wandering. Therefore, it is really not easy for us to live in motionless mind, even during the meditation period.

In brief, Shamatha meditation is the state of single pointed mind, characterized by perfect mental stability and mental clarity, having some degree of freshness within the mind. Mental clarity can only come when the mind becomes free from sluggishness, drowsiness, haziness, cloudiness, numbness and blankness. Mental stability will only come when the mind becomes free from excitement, agitation, manic thoughts and addiction to wandering aimlessly with no definite destination.

Mental drowsiness and excitement are the two obstacles out of the six obstacles of shamatha meditation that we are going to discuss next time. Every human being is fully qualified to practice Shamatha meditation no matter who we are, no matter what kind of culture we come from.

What causes us to fail at perfecting this form of meditation is laziness, forgetfulness, lack of interest, and not being able to see the positive benefits of Shamatha meditation. The reason we are not interested in meditation is that we think of material comforts, luxuries are the best things in life. We are so consumed by the needs and many demands of this life that we become slaves of material comforts. But in fact, material comforts and luxuries are not the best things in our life because life is temporary. We have a lot of fear and worry concerning material comforts. Material comforts really fool us and mislead us in many ways. If we are sincerely able to see the way material comforts effect us then we can sit in meditation without grasping at what may be the end result of our meditation.

During the meditation there was verbal guidance which provided the key techniques that must be followed to achieve success. I would like to go over the things I experienced during the meditation and touch on the parts that I feel are important and how I think they tie directly into Astral Projection.

The first thing we focused on was posture and position. I feel that this is vital for this type of meditation but maybe not for astral projection. The posture was a seated position with legs crossed and sitting slightly lower than the hip. The back must remain straight but comfortable with the ears positioned directly above the shoulders. The arms hang straight down with the hands resting palm down on the knees or thighs. I was not able to get perfectly comfortable in this position however I have terrible posture so I expect this to improve with time.

The next step was relaxing the body. This step is vital for this type of meditation and for astral projection. We moved through each part of the body relaxing each until the entire body was relaxed. This is the exact same thing I do each night while preparing to project and it’s a prerequisite and one of the first steps you will hear on Robert Monroe’s “Gateway Experience” CDs. You must be relaxed for meditation or astral projection to work.

The last and very important step in my opinion was the focus on breath. The goal is to be still and focus all attention on breath with no expectations. When you do this thoughts will naturally arise and when they do, you neither cling to them or push them away, but rather acknowledge and observe them and return your focus to breath. Inner peace can be achieved if you are able to successfully do this. This step is interesting to me because it’s one of the main techniques I use when astral projecting except I focus on a place or object rather than breath. This technique is presented in William Bulhman’s book “Adventures Beyond the Body: How to Experience Out-of-Body Travel”.

In conclusion. I feel that Shamatha Meditation and astral projection are very similar (if not the same) and that by practicing both I should be able to achieve inner peace and astral projection quicker. The two practices complimant each other and I suggest that those of you who are attempting astral projection without practicing meditation add meditation to your lifesytle.

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