I’ll set the preceeding events because i believe they contributed significantly to me having this experience..

On Friday afternoon i was fairly tired at work and my Children and Mrs were out at the kids Nana’s house.. I got home about 6pm, showered and thought i might again use this as a chance to project.

I lied down to ready for projection and started with muscle relaxation. Once i found my body relaxed i thought to meditate for a bit but it wasn’t long before i was asleep.

An alarm i had set woke me at 8:05pm but the kids and mrs weren’t home (not unusual on Nana visits and I wasn’t concerned at all).. i thought i’d skip dinner and go back to bed..

The Mrs work me up a bit after 11pm on coming home.. we stayed up together for about 1 hr after which i couldn’t go back to sleep cause i’d nearly had 5hrs sleep already.. I watched some of a tv series i had on the computer and went to bed about 1:30am knowing that sleeping 5hrs and having been awake for 2.5 hrs would give me a good chance to project in the morning..

I had quite some trouble relaxing and being able to go back to sleep. At one stage I nearly got back out of bed again until i was more sleepy though while still in bed i felt a shift of relaxation in my energy and stayed in bed..

Experience starts

I become consciously aware but all i can see is blackness.. I remember that i may be in a projection experience but am having difficulties with my astral vision.. I work on this by attempting to open my astral eyes to see.. Difficulties persist.. I have the feeling that i am in a dream within a dream..

Although I can’t see, i can feel walls and objects and as i feel my way around in the dark i notice some light appearing.. I continue into the light and it opened up in a scene…

Here i have a scene where i’m at my parents farm in the daytime.. That scene goes for a while and then i’m feeling the darkness decending again.. again i feel my way out of the darkness to another scene or work on my astral eyesight by attempting to open my eyelids.. This was the most significant astral type experience i’ve had in more than 2yrs.. Through this experience i was in a scene.. left the scene.. felt myself return to my body or close to my body at times and worked my way into another scene again about 5-7 times.. In one of the later ones i went to my Dad and he was laying on a bed quite unwell. He has heart problems and i was asking him if he was going to die soon.. While with him i was very aware of what was happening and thought about shifting to Late Dec 2012 or January 2013 as that is a goal i remind myself of should i get to have enough awareness of the astral process.. Though i stop this idea as i believe it is more important to stay with my father and go along with what is currently happening… It didn’t feel like he was going to die real soon but it did feel like he is currently suffering in his body..

At one time i feel into the astral landscape around me (current house scene) and wonder about my physical body and where it is located.. I feel the whole scene shift and becomes more closely aligned with Real Time Physical Reality.. I wonder if i am now closer to the RTZ?

In another later scene i find myself at a kids park in a nighttime scene.. it’s a fairly happy scene.. It is here i still have vivid memories of all the experiences and places i have visited thus far and begin to feel like prolonging this astral experience of going in and out of scenes is likely to come to an end..

I remember Robert Bruce’s advice to keep experiences short in order to improve recall.. I shorten this scene and it comes to an end..

End of Experience

Unfortunately instead of getting up to write down the experiences in full detail i decide i feel too tired and go back to sleep.

If i had of gotten up and wrote it down i’m sure i would have had a more vivid recall of the experience. As it stands though i still had a fair memory of the experience but in less detail and can still (in waking life) feel the memory of what it was like finding my way in the darkness and returning to or close to my physical body and re-projecting..

I’d like to ensure in the future i would get up and record these experiences upon waking instead of returning to sleep to improve recall..

Thx,

Dean

I’ve increased my meditation practice and returned to keeping a journal of anything dreamlike i can remember..

I think the combination of this and my desire led me to have my first lucid dream in months.

Sunday 8/1/12 -

• i woke at 7:00am
• Meditated until 7:32am and straight back to bed with the intention of projecting. Got some good hypnogogic imagery and scenes appearing but nothing i was able to enter into
• After 20min i give up and roll over to rest, not sure if i’ll just rest and get up soon after, or will go back to sleep.

Dream begins

I find myself at my work. A few things are quite off.. without too much detail i kind of let the “offness” go for a bit but eventually i realise i’m dreaming. I wonder to myself where i physically am. Because from memory i had given up on projection/lucid dreaming and had gotten up out of bed.. But i was dreaming.. Was i asleep at my work? How is this working for me to be in this dream? Where am i physically?

Almost like a reflex as soon as i confirm to myself that I AM dreaming I float into the air and am able to fly.

I look for something more interesting to do than be at work.

I leave the immediate area and go out the back.. I watch a scenario there for about 10sec but decide to move further along.

It is a nighttime scene. I look in the distance and across some water there is a Casino and some big bright flashing lights. Kind of seems interesting but don’t fancy i’ll find much with real depth over there. Instead i see a boat chugging down the river to the left and decide to fly and land on it. My first flying attempt fails and i fall back to the warf/ground after 10metres or so, but i know if i aim for the boat and try again i will make it.

I fly and almost overshoot my mark but as i get close to landing on the boat it adjusts (slows & speeds) for me so that i can land on it. I land! As coming close to landing i notice the boat was now circular in shape and reminds me of a small UFO floating on the water. As i landed i notice most of the crew were small toys. Toy people with varying appearances about 15cm tall. Sitting near one of the walls of the ship was my 5yr old son. He seemed quite inward and a bit saddened, he did talk to me but the scene began to break down and i woke up in bed on my side..

End of Dream

The time was 8:52am

I had probably been asleep 1hr and the dream felt to go for about 2-3min after being lucid and about 3-5min before being lucid.

Since having this dream i wondered about the part with my son and wondered if he needs some more help from me with his emotional direction… I think this could be true..

Dean

I woke up wondering what the significance of the dream was, and decided that maybe it meant that small annoyances, if I let them bother me, would become bigger and bigger issues.

My husband went upstairs, and I heard him yell. Our cat in the middle of the night had tried to jump to the bathroom window, and the window slammed shut on her left paw. We ended up having to take her for a visit to the vet, and had her leg splinted. She’s doing pretty well now. Hopefully in a week or so the splint will come off.

I found this dream interesting since my dream involved my left hand, a visit to the ER and our upstairs bathroom. I think the cat projected her consciousness into my dream to try to get me to wake up so we’d find her. If it wasn’t intentional on her part, I at least think the connection we feel to our animals, comes through when they’re hurt.

I went to bed around 10:30 PM last night and meditated in a seated position for about 15 minutes, became tired, switched to a laying position and fell asleep.

I woke up around 5:50 AM feeling tired. I got up and went to the restroom and came back to bed and I seemed to be less tired after getting up and walking for a few minutes. I put on my headphones and started listening to Brain Sync – Brain Massage and began to meditate by running the mantra ah-lum-baa-dee-dum – ah-lum-bar-dee-dum through my head. The goal was and is always to eliminate thoughts, and I know this intellectually, however knowing and doing (or should I say not doing) are two different things.

The Brain Sync track starts off with background binaural beats, soothing music and a river and then as the track progresses the music gets softer and softer until it’s completely gone, leaving only the sound of water.  The meditation technique and this track seemed to work well together. The music got softer and so did the complexity of my mantra until all that was left was the sound of flowing water and a faint remnant of my mantra, as if my mind became something separate from me.  A few moments later I let the mantra go and latched onto my breathing which was getting more and more shallow. When thoughts found their way in I simply observed them and went back to focusing on breathing.

Before long I noticed that my awareness was slipping away and I had to keep that from happening by quickly directing my focus back to breathing. Every time I would come back to breathing I would have a spinning falling sensation and a faint tingling throughout my body. Each time I would pull my awareness back the sensations would get stronger. I would have just let myself fallen asleep if it had not been for several meetings at work this morning. Normally, at this stage if fall asleep, I will hit strong vibrations and have a full blown OOBE.

I finally called it quits  at 7:15 AM to prepare for meetings.

I tried my best not to analyze the thoughts that entered my mind during the ride. My goal was to stay present and to simply observe everything around me including myself and my own thoughts and emotions without becoming attached to any of it. It was a riding meditation.

Several thoughts ran through my mind as I rode. I thought to myself: “Why aren’t people talking to one another?”, “Why aren’t they acknowledging each others existence?”, “Where are these people going in such a hurry?”, “What will they do once they get there?”, and “What happens after they do whatever it is that had them in such a hurry?”. Maybe they will start the entire cycle over again? It all seemed so surreal to me when I was in the now. The roar of the cars seemed be more like chaos and I could actually feel the insanity of the peoples uncontrolled thoughts dragging me into unconsciousness.

When I arrived back home I turned my analytical mind back on to process what I had experienced on a physical level. People in general didn’t seem to be aware of the present, anymore more so than when they are sleeping. They seemed to be walking and driving around in a sleep state. Consciousness manifested for the experience but the experience never happening because their minds were focused on the nonexistent future and past.

I thought back to my childhood for the specific purpose of trying to understand this unconscious state they were in. Before I started school, time meant nothing to me. I didn’t think about the past or the future, only the present. I still learned new things and functioned in society much like I do now only I was closer to the source of life as a child, the root consciousness that I feel we all come from and are still connected too. I rarely see a child that’s stressed out or on blood pressure medicines. Children are generally joyful and compassionate for others and live in the moment. What a wonderful idea.

This brings me to me new year’s resolution. Starting now I resolve to be more like a child and to live more in the present, only drawing from the past and the future when absolutely necessary while living this physical life that is trapped in time and space.

The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive. To put it more accurately, it is not so much that you use your mind wrongly—you usually dont use it at all. It uses you. — Eckhart Tolle

I ended up in a three room shack. I walked in, and the first room has a gray and yellow chair. I walked through, basically the whole place is gray. In the last room, is a closed door. I was wondering what in the world am I going to learn here. So I started to leave by going through the wall, except I couldn’t get through it. The wall was solid. The door was locked.

A guy came in through the locked door, and had a knife. I had to defend myself by stabbing him with a fork. There was a LOT of blood, but when I left I didn’t have any stab wounds, even though he had stabbed me a lot more than the few stabs I’d gotten in on him. Eventually, I was able to go out the door, and floated up, and continued projecting. I can’t remember now what I did though. I just remember refocusing on Orion and attempting to go somewhere else.

Sunday night while falling asleep two farmers faded into my mind’s eye and then faded out quickly within a few seconds. Monday night I noticed that right as I was falling asleep I started hearing 100s of voices for a few seconds. The odd part about both was that the images and the audio seemed to be linked to the brain sync track I was listening to. I say this because as they both faded out and my waking conscious returned, the images and audio seemed to morph into the track I was listening to. It’s hard to explain how an image transitions into audio, but it did, and it made perfect sense.

I am not sure what this means but it’s a trip and I am glad I that I experienced it.  It would be interesting to hear if others have had similar experiences.

Last night, I had a dream that I feel I should have become lucid in. My consciousness was definitely working on waking me. I dream a lot about wrecking and water, so being in a car around water should be a symbol to wake me. Last night, I dreamed I was in a car with a friend of mine. We were driving downtown Chattanooga to go somewhere. It was raining, but not much and then I notice a huge storm in the background.

We neared a bridge and waves come tumbling after us. Then the dream forwards to after the worst of the waves were over. We weren’t in the car anymore, but we were carrying small pieces of metal. Traffic was backed up. On one side, totally stopped and no one was allowed to travel. We needed on the other side anyway. So we take our pieces of metal, throw them across the road and they popped up into our car.

Pretty interesting dream. I tried to go back into it, but wasn’t able to.  This morning I woke up and wrote about the attempt though. I’m posting that here as well, in lieu of a lucid dream to write about.

Malleable Light

When I lived out in the country in Georgia I would often sit outside on the porch at night and stare off into the night sky and I could literally see the Milky Way galaxy spanning from horizon to horizon.  Back then I always sensed that the stars were aware of me and I them and that we shared a connection to each other.  When I looked at the clouds today I got that same feeling of being connected to the sky. It was as if the clouds were speaking to me on some fundamental level that really can’t be communicated at this time.

This used to puzzle and confuse me but as I have gotten older I have realized that things are not what they seem and that perhaps consciousness is not isolated to living animate objects only. It’s only been very recent that I actually considered the possibility that I am both locally conscious and universally conscious at the same time which would explain the connection I felt with the stars at night.

I hope you find the photograph that I took above to be as breathtaking as I did. It’s  a shame I didn’t have equipment to capture those starry nights that provoked so many deep thoughts.