The Malleable Light

I hope this post doesn’t make Emmy jealous, but for the sake of consciousness research I must write.

I fell asleep at around 11:30 PM last night and as I fell asleep I tried to clear my mind by observing thoughts without becoming attached to them. Around 5 AM I woke up and ran to the bathroom and then came back to bed and began trying the same techniques in an attempt to astral project. I was tired and my mind was not really coherent so I started trying to push thoughts away. I realized what I was doing and then began allowing my thoughts to drift in without resistance. I was surprised at some of the random thoughts that were entering my mind.  For example a fleeting thought of a specific trip to McDonald’s with my Dad when I was a small child entered my head. These thoughts came and went for 10 minutes or so and during this time frame vibrations were felt several times.

Around 5:30 AM I felt the sensation of myself being bouncing around inside my body. I knew what this was because it’s happened before so I envisioned myself violently bouncing back and forth and within couple of seconds I felt a release and I floated up into the ceiling and things went completely black. I suspected that I was stuck in the ceiling so I thought about standing in my backyard and as I did I felt movement as I drifted from the roof area of my house down into the backyard.

While I was standing in the yard I had full waking consciousness. I knew my name, address etc. I knew that I was either asleep, in some altered state of consciousness or in another reality. I stood there for a minute and let it all soak in. My quality of perception was very good this time and the quality of vision and my senses was superb, equal to or better than waking life.

I looked around and the first thing that came to mind was that I needed to validate and collect evidence. This is where reality fluctuations came into play. I had the idea of floating over to my neighbors house and looking around inside. The idea was that if I ever go inside her house I might be able to identify something I saw in this state. I probably need to rethink my methods of validation.

I floated over to this window that doesn’t really exist in waking life (reality fluctuation) and I pressed my head against the screen in the window (another reality fluctuation, it’s too cold for open windows). Inside I could see her getting a small girl ready for school. She glanced over in my direction at one point but she didn’t seem to notice me there. I was at the window for about a minute and then things shifted.

I found myself standing on the front porch of a house with her on the street I grew up on as a child. She was pissing off the front porch in an attempt to put out a cigarette that she had just thrown on the ground. This was all to funny for me so I asked her if she could see me? She nodded and said yes.  I laughed out loud and asked her “You know you are in my dream, right?”. She didn’t really answer, either she was a dream character or she was just drifting in unconsciousness, it’s hard to say.

She took off running towards the house where my dad lives and jumped into this truck that I have never seen before. This is the part Emmy will like. I jumped in behind her and asked her if she wanted to have sex just to see how she would respond. She agreed to this, but as we started undressing darkness faded in and I found myself back in bed. I question my level of lucidity at this point because I know that I would not cheat in waking life.

I lost lucidity because in my mind I really thought I was awake, but I should have known that I wasn’t because someone out back was mowing the lawn. It’s unlikely that someone would be mowing the lawn at this time of year and at this time of morning. Still this wasn’t enough to make me realize that I was sleeping and the dream continued for about another hour before I finally woke up and wrote this.

The conclusion here is that I was either in the RTZ with extreme reality fluctuations or I was having a lucid dream. Either way I had full waking consciousness. Emmy, you have my permission to have dream sex with anyone that you want.

David Mathis Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams, Meditation, Techniques Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Consciousness, Dreams, Lucid Dreaming, Lucid Dreams

I have not been sticking to my commitment to write a bi-weekly progress report so I will just do a monthly report instead, unless I am seeing a lot of activity and then I will just let the posts speak for themselves. I continuously try to consciously induce the out of body state but as I have stated so many times in the past, being busy in waking life puts a damper on any real progress. I have been meditating every night using a modified Shamatha meditation technique where I am actually laying down rather than sitting up and I have been reading Astral Dynamics and doing energy work.

The meditation is interesting but I think that laying down while meditating is probably not the best idea because I end up drifting off to sleep. I have been experiencing rushing noises right before drifting off that can only be described as the noise you might hear on a radio when the dial is between stations. I posted a video Rushing Noises / Sleep Paralysis Sounds in the video section that somewhat represents what I hear only mine are much shorter in quick bursts that fade in and out.

Astral Dynamics is great and is the best OBE guide available in my opinion. I have finally decided to just read the book rather than stopping when I don’t feel like I and progressing with certain exercises. The book states that one must understand tactile imaging and be able put it into practice to get the most out of the book however if I never read the book because I pause at every hurdle then I know for sure I will not get anything out of the book . I was able to get my hands on a wonderful Astral Dynamics overview Robert Bruce On OBEs thanks to ubikmonroe. I highly recommend this book and even if you don’t buy in to any of this, it’s a trip and worth the read.

That’s all for now. Thanks for dropping in and reading and I wish you the best of luck in your spiritual endeavors.

David Mathis Astral Projection, Meditation, Progress, Techniques Astral Dynamics, Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Meditation, Progress, Rushing Noises, Shamatha Meditation, Sleep Paralysis

I woke up early this morning at 4 AM and per the lucidology videos and for the first time ever I had enough clarity to consciously wake up and keep perfectly still. Nicholas Newport claims that if a person is able to wake up without moving then they should be able to slip right back into sleep, the trance state or an OBE. Before I woke I had been dreaming that I was back in my childhood bedroom that I had shared with my two brothers growing up. In the dream they are both sleeping in the same bed across from me and but they were grown and for some reason were annoying the crap out of me.

I laid in the bed across from them in the dream trying to fall asleep “while already sleeping” and suddenly I woke up. Perhaps it was the fact that I was dreaming of falling asleep that prevented me from moving when I woke, but I made a conscious decision not to move for the sole purpose of attempting an OBE.

I recall laying in my real bed thinking mostly about staying perfectly still and then 5 seconds later the vibrations hit and I found myself in sleep paralysis. Almost instantly I was back in my dream, however I was now lucid and I knew what was going on. Strangely enough, at the same time I was seeing my current bedroom too. I was not flipping back an forth between dream state and waking consciousness, It seems that I was actually thinking in duality between my dreaming consciousness and my expanded ethereal consciousness.

A few seconds later I noticed in my dream state that the bed sheets where not completely coving my back which caused me to feel unprotected and fear set in. My consciousness then shifted to my dream state and I remember being in paralysis trying to break free by swinging my arms back and forth over my chest. My consciousness suddenly shifted back to my ethereal body and my dream body at the same time and I could see my dream arms sitting still while another set of arms were moving back and forth across my chest passing through my dream arms. I think that the moving arms were perhaps my real time double’s arms.

I never woke up but instead the vibrations stopped and I went straight back into the dream and lost real time consciousness. The fear of not being covered up in the dream caused an abrupt end to the experience. It seems to me that I was conscious on 3 different levels during the experience. I was seeing my dream, my real room and my real time arms moving pretty much all at the same time. I think that if I could have continued the experience and kept the fear at bay, my real time body, including the arms that were moving, would have exited and I may or may not have remembered the OBE. Perhaps the strong fear emotion was the reason I remembered any of it. This also suggest that when I woke up, any projected doubles must have been reeled in at that moment.

You can read more about dual consciousness “mind split” by reading Astral Dynamics by Robert Bruce.

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This experience was, for me, another little taste of an OBE experience. As per my first experience, I awoke during a lucid dream and sought to convert this into an OBE. The separation plan… sit up in my astral body directly from the lucid dream as this was successful at the last attempt.

This experience differed from the last one as it was much more vague and many of the memories of the dream and the OBE experience were forgotten as I must have fell back to sleep while still out of body.

Rather than going back to my body shortly after the projection (as Robert Bruce suggests in Astral Dynamics and) which happened to me in my first conscious OBE, I possibly followed my original waking intention (should I have another OBE) which was to do some exploring beyond my bedroom. I believe I probably spent too long “out” and forgot how important it is to download the memories in order to have “success”.

What I do remember is:
1) Waking in my dream thereby converting it to a lucid dream
2) The experience of blackness behind my eyelids as I prepared to project.
3) Standing in my bedroom and being out of body and remembering how I got there & some of the “felt” experiences which preceded me in getting to where I was (though I haven’t yet remembered the exit itself) – the first thing I remember is feeling the floor underneath me – last time I was extremely conscious during the exit phase and remembered a lot of the separation experience, which (to me) was possibly the most profound part.
4) I remember telling myself that was out of body (OOB) and am not awake as last time the experience was so real and my consciousness so similar to my waking state I thought I was in fact awake. This time I convinced myself that I was “out”… though typing this I also remember testing reality after this by trying to push my hand through the bedroom closet sliding door.. I remember feeling it hard beneath my fingers and thought that this was odd as I thought I should be able to push my hand through the door – I don’t remember the outcome of any further tests as everything beyond this point is currently forgotten.

This experience is a good sign that I can currently convert lucid dreams into an out of body experience using this method as I’m now 2/2 from my last 2 lucid dreams.

The other thing that probably made this experience different than the other experience is that the previous experience happened after sunrise and I was ready to awaken. Last night the experience happened (at a guess) between 1-3am and I believe I fell back to sleep.

In order to collect full memories of future experiences I should keep the explorations fairly short in order to successfully “download” my memories of the experience. It may also be useful to release expectations about how the experience will proceed as I did have some preconception about how I would feel during the separation phase which may have had some impact on the experience.

Cheers,

Dean

Dean Keune Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams Astral Dynamics, Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Lucid Dreams

I’ve just woken from this so it’s an exciting start to the day to say the least..

I was dreaming.. it was a lengthy, vivid colourful dream one NEARLY worth telling.. eventually it progresses and I notice the scene in the dream has changed.. It’s still vivid and colourful and because it has been so vivid I wonder how I got to this scene.. Plus I’m naked and no one else is.. I’m sort of sitting/lying on the grass in this scene.. a quick question to myself suggests this is a bit weird and likely a dream! Here I become lucid… My Mrs is sitting beside me on the grass.. I’m super excited by this point.. I pat her on the back a few times with love and excitement and shout a feeling like “Yes! OBE?”

The plan was clear.. just sit up in bed! As the scene moved from the dream to the back of my eyelids I felt quick but most pleasant quite unusual vibrations (different than i’d ever felt doing vipassana) throughout my body.. AND i simply sat up…

I could see a little in the bedroom but it didn’t last long.. I then found myself in my body again and tried to sit up again… I felt the vibrations again but this experience also didn’t last long.. I remember something happening on this exit but after waking I couldn’t remember this exit aside from the actual exit sensations and then sitting up… I then found myself in my body (again with vibrations) but now i had difficulty sitting straight up.. I moved around a bit in an attempt to get out and at one stage had no idea of my orientation with regard to my physical body. I was completely confused…

I remembered one of the Lucidology videos and decided the way I was facing was possibly the same as my physical body so I decided to switch ends and hopefully have my astral feet up the end of my physical bodies head (Phew !).. Anyway this felt more loose and I found that a bit of rolling loosened me up and I simply rolled out onto the floor.. I could feel the floor underneath me.. I then crawled as I couldn’t stand and crawled to the end of the bed..

At the end of the bed I felt lighter and stood up and at the same time as I was just about to look for my physical body in bed I was so excited that I screamed my partners name with excitement saying “look i’m out”… My two children were there and came running up to me (though my youngest is only 5months and sort of floated/ran to me).. I heard them giggling and laughing and obviously happy with their Dads transition to this state.. but then I noticed my physical body wasn’t asleep in bed and the sheets on my side of the bed were even pulled back I thought I was actually awake and the rolling onto the floor and everything else after that was experienced in my physical body..

At this point my attention wavered and I slipped out of consciousness… A very short time later I then noticed I was still lying in bed.. damn! I tricked myself! I could feel vibrations again and started to remember the experience and got so excited about remembering and writing it down that I couldn’t exit again as I was becoming too awake!

Two interesting things:
1. I believe this was my first OBE as exit sensations were present and I feel like I had the same/similar consciousness in the short OBE as I do while awake although I was definitely not in the RTZ (Real Time Zone)
2. Interesting how I/we devalue the waking state enough to be happy to loose and at times consciously aim to loose consciousness in it – Thinking I was awake in physical and devaluing the awake state is why I lost consciousness in this OBE experience.

Thanks,
Dean

Dean Keune Astral Projection, Dreams, Lucid Dreams Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Consciousness, Lucid Dreams, Out of Body Experience

It’s approaching the beginning of September and it’s time for my bi-monthly progress report on lucid dreaming and astral projection attempts. I have not had any new experiences lately but there is a new lucid dreaming approach that I would like to try. It’s something I thought of today at “Mighty Fine Burgers” here is Austin while I was consuming a years worth of bad cow karma.

I have noticed there are two things common in dreams. Some dreams reoccur regularly and that things I think about mostly during the day (especially with high emotion) show up in my dreams. Taking these two things into consideration I think I may have found an easy gateway into lucidity which usually transitions into astral projection.

I am going to start writing down these reoccurring dreams and then begin to think about them several times throughout each day. While thinking about them I am going to imagine that I am becoming lucid in the dreams. In addition to just thinking about or conceptualizing becoming lucid I am going to try to actually experience it as if it is happening in my mind. I think that by doing this the reoccurring dream will merge with my waking thoughts of lucidity and I will become lucid within my dream. Once this happens I will will myself out of body and I should find myself lying in bed in the vibrational state.

Regarding “Mighty Fine Burgers”, they are not mighty fine and will probably cause you to die prematurely of a massive coronary if you eat them all the time.

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This morning I found myself dreaming.. during which I became lucid.. I’m not sure what triggered the lucidity… I have been doing a few reality checks from time to time in physical lately but after gaining lucidity the memory was…  ”that doesn’t happen in real life” – “I must be dreaming” although I am not sure of the exact situation that preceeded the lucidity…

Instead of continuing with the Lucid Dream and seeing where it would take me I made the decision to make an Astral Projection attempt.. I believe the speed at which I made the switch hampered my efforts… On gaining lucidity, I straight away made the choice as I had planned on an Astral Projection should I become lucid in the near future – To my demise I hadn’t planned a way to achieve this… The method I made up on the spot was to feel for my physical body.. as this is kind of what happened in an experience I had here… The scene I was in began to break down instantly.. What I was looking at degraded into a white fuzz.. I continued to feel for my physical body.. At this stage I began to wonder whether I would feel vibrations begin in my physical body… Then sadly enough.. consciousness was lost..

I’m not sure if I fell back to sleep or what happened but as I thought about this today I had two ideas.

1. Make a plan – constructing lucid dream or Astral Projection goals or scenarios may not only help in prolonging & gaining lucidity in dreams, it may also foster a purpose for projecting astrally.. It may not only be useful to plan like I did – “when i next become lucid i will attempt to use it as a pathway to an Astral Projection experience” – but it may also be useful to create a method of how this might be achieved – eg. I might try shifting the dream to my bedroom to look at my physical body (or a better idea I can think of before the next Lucid Dream.. other ideas are only limited by imagination i assume)

2. Ensure a conscious stream is present before altering things too quickly – ie. maintain lucidity without loosing consciousness or being sucked back into the dream scenario.. Going along with the dream (to a degree) has partly helped me maintain lucidity in dreams before.. which is in contrast to quick changes of scenery I have tried (like catching a bus for example – which resulted in the dream deteriorating when I got off the bus as the scene wasn’t constructed – strangely enough in this past example the minorly formed scene also degraded into white fuzz before i woke up). Ensuring a conscious stream for at least a short time may be likely to assist in the Lucid Dream -> Astral Projection process..

I’m open to suggestions and feedback..

Dean

Dean Keune Astral Projection, Dreams, Lucid Dreams Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Dreams, Lucid Dreams

Last night I went to bed at 12:30 AM with a orgone transfer sitting above my head linked to my RAD 5 which was pulsing my orgone field at 63 HZ. I didn’t have much trouble falling asleep and was snoring in 10 minutes or less.

I don’t remember the dreams I had early into the night however at what seemed about 4 AM I had a very vivid dream of being on a passenger jet plane, sitting in the cockpit while the pilot was flying too low at takeoff. There was a fleeting moment of fear when I noticed that he wasn’t going to clear the house in front of us and then I was suddenly standing out in front of the house with an odd feeling that my body was somewhere else injured leaving my soul standing in front of this house. The rest of the dream was spent looking for my body. I seemed to be half lucid through this entire dream and I ended up meeting this girl that was helping me out in some shelter type place for souls that were temporarily out of body due to violent life threatening injuries. The people running the place seemed to be very rude and cruel and kept speaking in a language I didn’t understand.

I was still with this girl later in the dream. We were hanging out at a swimming pool after sneaking out of the shelter when I suddenly woke up in sleep paralysis and sensed a threatening presence beside me. This was odd to me because I knew that nothing should be able to harm me so I turned 90 degrees and realized that presence was my cat.

The room I was in was not my current room. I was in my childhood room, or at least that’s what my double was seeing. With a forceful will I demanded myself out out of body. I thought I woke myself up at first but then realized I had transitioned to out of body. I didn’t think about where my physical body was at this point.

The first thing I noticed was that some extremely cruel thoughts were flowing through me. I picked up my cat and threw her into the closet and violently closed the door. I then felt my thoughts normalizing and my waking life clarity locked in and I actually felt bad for throwing the cat into the closet so I let her go. I wonder if this really was my cat and if she was perceiving the same thing?

I remembered that in my previous out of body experiences I was unable to travel to different places and that irritated me so I tried a technique that I read in Monroe’s first book. He was able travel to a person’s location by thinking about their personality and leaning his body in the direction he thought they were relative to where he was.

Well… I tried his technique and it seemed to work very well. The only difference was that I used the send button on my blackberry wireless device instead of leaning . I may not have actually found who I was looking for but I did travel to at least 15 different places this time, of which only about 4 I can actually remember. The other 11 I know happened because I committed to memory during the experience that I had visited 15 places but would most likely not remember them all.

I used to work with a guy who was always poking fun at me for experimenting with astral projection so he was my first target. I thought about him and then hit the send button. I suddenly felt my body moving rapidly into darkness. The feeling of motion in one direction continued and in front of me I could see psychedelic fractal type patterns forming into circles which then morphed into colorful wormholes that my form was sucked into. This continued for 5 minutes and then I found myself walking down the street in front of my childhood home. I found myself thinking about the environment around me as I normally do, questioning the reality of the situation. It’s a very odd feeling in that I know I’m not awake but at the same time the trees, the street and everything around me is just as viable as waking life. The only difference is that I know that I am not in waking life.

I proceeded to walk to the house I grew up in and guy I sought was inside on a computer. When I approached he noticed me and looked out the window of my mom and dad’s old room and told me that he saw me. This was interesting because it seems unlikely that it was actually him, so I conclude that my mind must have been creating the entire thing. Another possibility might be that it was him but my perception was way off and my mind was filling in the gaps the best it could and perhaps with time my perception will get better. I walked through the wall of the house and stuck my hand through the monitor screen and my hand tingled when I did. I told him I would see him later and focused my attention on travelling to someone else that I currently work with.

I hit the send button again and I felt the movement again just like before. The same colorful patterns appeared and I was travelling for what seemed like about 10 minutes and I ended up in an unfamiliar house at Christmas time. There were several kids opening gifts and they seemed to see me and were talking to me. I don’t remember what they were saying but I did tell one of them to remember the moment. I lost interest with this location and decided to try a validation for a member of the astral pulse.

I hit the send button on the blackberry and the movement and color were present. This time I had the sensation that the area around the patterns of color was enormous. I was traveled for several minutes and then faded into a place that seemed to be on the Australian coast line. The only reason I say this is because I appeared in a group of people under this tent like pavilian and they all had Australian accents. They seemed to be filming some sort of recreation of a historical event. I spoke to several of the people and they seemed to be making fun of me somehow, although I forget exactly what they were saying. We moved away from the tent and into a set with a bunch of buildings and this is where I saw the movie cameras and I definitely knew they were filming something. I wish I understood how this event taking place in Australia linked to the person i was seeking to validate for. It really doesn’t make much sense to me and I guess I will never know because while there I had this overwhelming urge to travel to an orgy.

I hit the send button again and went through the same patterns as before and ended up in a room of several people having sex. I will not go into details but it was very graphic and I was very tempted. I was there for about a few minutes at most and started willing myself to wake up. Within about 5 seconds I actually felt my self transition into my bed at home in waking life. Once again I chicken out on the orgy scene.

I wish I could remember all of the other places I went but I am grateful recalled at least some of it. Every time I would travel to another location I would be thinking in the back of my mind that the attempt was going to wake me up from the experience like in the past when I tried, but for some reason it worked this time.

There are many aspects of this experience that makes me think that it was just a dream but at the same time I had full waking conscious with all of my waking memories and logic present. I knew my name and the names of the people in waking life that I was attempting to travel to or validate for. I must accept a shattered view of reality if I consider the experience an just a dream because the thoughts and statements of others in the experience were completely random and foriegn to me just as they are in waking life. I can never be sure that anything I experience is not just a creation of my mind. I also knew I was sleeping and was even fearing that I would wake up or lose the experience somehow.

When I woke up it took me 15 minutes to re-associate myself to reality due to the clarity and realness of the experience.

I would be interested in hearing feedback from others on this one.

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