The Malleable Light

As my lack of posts shows, I do not strive to project like my husband, David, does. I have known of such experiences but never really had the curiosity that my other half has in the subject. Even if I did, I think my mom duties would keep me from really becoming fully engaged in striving for achieving going out of body. I am more in the frame of mind that “if it happens , it happens..If not then I won’t be disappointed”

This morning I was not intending to try to go out of body. It was the last thing on my mind. I was more concerned with how long my 4 year old was going to sleep and the laundry I was going to have to start once I got up from bed. I woke up with David’s alarm clock and drifted back to sleep for some time. I awoke again some 45 minutes later and laid in bed checking my email and surfing the net on my I-phone as my daughter slept next to me in her bed. David came into the room and said goodbye to me before he headed to work and I continued to surf the net. I grew bored and a bit sleepy so I laid my head back down and found a comfortable spot to drift off. I am 24 weeks pregnant with our first son and so I fell asleep to feeling his kicks and movements. As I drifted off to sleep, I had a feeling I was going into sleep paralysis because I got a very similar sensation of the inability to keep my eyelids open no matter how much I tried. Its very similar to the feeling of trying to keep your eyes open as anesthesia is beginning to take its effect before you go under for surgery. The only difference is that your mind stays awake and aware of what is going on where as when under anesthesia, you just black out for what seems like a second and then your awake again.

As I lay there, I began to realize I could feel my child’s movements fade away. He was still active but its as if they just became lighter and lighter as I began to feel the vibrations come over me. I thought to myself ” Oh I know what this is…I am not gonna chicken out like I did last time!” Last time being my other post from back in April of 2009.

As the vibrational state came over me, I said to myself “I am going out of body” and repeated that about three times. Suddenly I heard myself take a deep, deep, breath of air and as the air filled my lungs, I felt myself float up. It was as if my lungs being filled with air were acting as helium balloons lifting me up and out. Right at that time, I heard a voice very clearly say to me ” I see France”. I also heard a man’s voice but could not make out what he said. I did not understand what “I see France” meant so as I tried to gain better sight, the motherly part of me took over. I heard my daughter stir and move and then I switched to what I can only assume was dream mode. I dreamed my daughter sat up in bed and was talking to me…I knew I was dreaming and tried to gain control back of reality but failed. I struggled to wake up and began to wiggle my fingers to wake myself up. Just then, my son gave me a good kick as if to say ” Hey mom wake up!” and that did it. I was back in my body and fully awake, only to see that I had been right to assume I was in a dream state when I imagined my daughter awake and sitting up. She was still fast asleep in the same position she was when I had drifted off to sleep.

All in all, it was pretty interesting and I am glad I got a little bit further then I did last time. I was able to at least get up and out of my body even if it was just for a short few seconds to a minute. Maybe in another 10 months, I will get a bit closer. Then again, I will have a 6 month old so I will just be thankful to get a whole night’s sleep, projecting or no projecting!

Emmy Mathis Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams, Progress Astral Projection, Consciousness, Dreams, Floating, Lucid Dreams, pregnancy, Progress

This will be a short post because the lucid dream faded quickly. I feel the need to document these experiences if for no reason other than to trend the frequency that I become aware in states of consciousness where I should have been completely unconscious.

I went to bed around 11 PM Central after winning another game of iPhone Scrabble against my wife. I listened to “Brain Sync – The Secret – Universal Mind Meditation” as I drifted off and in about twenty minutes sleep and unconsciousness claimed my mind.

I don’t remember much of my dreams last night other than at some point around 4 AM I found myself throwing a baseball around with three other guys that I don’t remember meeting in waking life. I was in a semi-wooded field type area and I remember throwing the ball to one of the guys that was standing in a wooded patch and he ended up throwing the ball two miles up the hill from us. I felt the need to go fetch so I ran up the hill after the ball.

There was a fluctuation in time and suddenly I was at the top of the hill holding the ball in my hand. I don’t remember making the complete trip up the hill or actually finding the ball. I was standing uphill and in front of this half mile wide river which was opposite to the side of the field that I had been tossing the ball in.

I took off running down the hill towards the river and as I got closer I noticed that there was a steep embankment leading down to it. I started asking myself if I should stop running or if I should leap off of the embankment and fly across the river. This triggered lucidity in the dream because I knew that in waking life I would not be asking myself such things. If I have learned nothing else in life, I have learned that this physical subsystem that we exist in has laws and people can’t fly unaided, which is very unfortunate .

When I touched down on the baseball field side of the river I was fully conscious and lucid in my dream. The three guys were gone and I simply walked around for what I perceived as about a minute. It’s very exciting when you have waking consciousness while dreaming. You must experience it to get it. I tried to hold it all together but the environment and my surroundings quickly faded and I woke up.

Dreams and Lucid dreams in my opinion appear to be mostly physical phenomenons. I am not quite sure what happens when I become lucid and if the lucid awareness has its source rooted beyond the physical. I do know through personal experience that normal unconscious dreams are at least partly if not all physical.  When I was still experiencing migraines with visual auras I experienced the aura  in a dream and then woke up during this experience to find that I was still seeing it in waking life.

Now when I go out of body it’s a completely different feeling and I sometime actually transition out of a lucid dream to get there. Out of body experiences feel as real or more real than waking life. Thomas Campbell and Robert Bruce seem to be right about what’s going on when people experience projections into other realities.  Consciousness must manifest a new body for whatever reality you are visiting. This newly manifested body or form will of course exist in parallel to and independent from your physical body and the physical mind does not need to be in a sleep state in order to manifest consciousness into another reality.

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I hope this post doesn’t make Emmy jealous, but for the sake of consciousness research I must write.

I fell asleep at around 11:30 PM last night and as I fell asleep I tried to clear my mind by observing thoughts without becoming attached to them. Around 5 AM I woke up and ran to the bathroom and then came back to bed and began trying the same techniques in an attempt to astral project. I was tired and my mind was not really coherent so I started trying to push thoughts away. I realized what I was doing and then began allowing my thoughts to drift in without resistance. I was surprised at some of the random thoughts that were entering my mind.  For example a fleeting thought of a specific trip to McDonald’s with my Dad when I was a small child entered my head. These thoughts came and went for 10 minutes or so and during this time frame vibrations were felt several times.

Around 5:30 AM I felt the sensation of myself being bouncing around inside my body. I knew what this was because it’s happened before so I envisioned myself violently bouncing back and forth and within couple of seconds I felt a release and I floated up into the ceiling and things went completely black. I suspected that I was stuck in the ceiling so I thought about standing in my backyard and as I did I felt movement as I drifted from the roof area of my house down into the backyard.

While I was standing in the yard I had full waking consciousness. I knew my name, address etc. I knew that I was either asleep, in some altered state of consciousness or in another reality. I stood there for a minute and let it all soak in. My quality of perception was very good this time and the quality of vision and my senses was superb, equal to or better than waking life.

I looked around and the first thing that came to mind was that I needed to validate and collect evidence. This is where reality fluctuations came into play. I had the idea of floating over to my neighbors house and looking around inside. The idea was that if I ever go inside her house I might be able to identify something I saw in this state. I probably need to rethink my methods of validation.

I floated over to this window that doesn’t really exist in waking life (reality fluctuation) and I pressed my head against the screen in the window (another reality fluctuation, it’s too cold for open windows). Inside I could see her getting a small girl ready for school. She glanced over in my direction at one point but she didn’t seem to notice me there. I was at the window for about a minute and then things shifted.

I found myself standing on the front porch of a house with her on the street I grew up on as a child. She was pissing off the front porch in an attempt to put out a cigarette that she had just thrown on the ground. This was all to funny for me so I asked her if she could see me? She nodded and said yes.  I laughed out loud and asked her “You know you are in my dream, right?”. She didn’t really answer, either she was a dream character or she was just drifting in unconsciousness, it’s hard to say.

She took off running towards the house where my dad lives and jumped into this truck that I have never seen before. This is the part Emmy will like. I jumped in behind her and asked her if she wanted to have sex just to see how she would respond. She agreed to this, but as we started undressing darkness faded in and I found myself back in bed. I question my level of lucidity at this point because I know that I would not cheat in waking life.

I lost lucidity because in my mind I really thought I was awake, but I should have known that I wasn’t because someone out back was mowing the lawn. It’s unlikely that someone would be mowing the lawn at this time of year and at this time of morning. Still this wasn’t enough to make me realize that I was sleeping and the dream continued for about another hour before I finally woke up and wrote this.

The conclusion here is that I was either in the RTZ with extreme reality fluctuations or I was having a lucid dream. Either way I had full waking consciousness. Emmy, you have my permission to have dream sex with anyone that you want.

David Mathis Astral Projection, Lucid Dreams, Meditation, Techniques Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Consciousness, Dreams, Lucid Dreaming, Lucid Dreams

I have been reading Eckhart Tolle’s book The Power of Now and in doing so I have learned some new things and reinforced others. While riding my bike today I was putting Tolle’s words into action and became intensely aware of the unconscious state that everyone was in while driving, walking in out of stores, etc. Even fellow cyclists were somewhere else while they listened to their mp3 players.

I tried my best not to analyze the thoughts that entered my mind during the ride. My goal was to stay present and to simply observe everything around me including myself and my own thoughts and emotions without becoming attached to any of it. It was a riding meditation.

Several thoughts ran through my mind as I rode. I thought to myself: “Why aren’t people talking to one another?”, “Why aren’t they acknowledging each others existence?”, “Where are these people going in such a hurry?”, “What will they do once they get there?”, and “What happens after they do whatever it is that had them in such a hurry?”. Maybe they will start the entire cycle over again? It all seemed so surreal to me when I was in the now. The roar of the cars seemed be more like chaos and I could actually feel the insanity of the peoples uncontrolled thoughts dragging me into unconsciousness.

When I arrived back home I turned my analytical mind back on to process what I had experienced on a physical level. People in general didn’t seem to be aware of the present, anymore more so than when they are sleeping. They seemed to be walking and driving around in a sleep state. Consciousness manifested for the experience but the experience never happening because their minds were focused on the nonexistent future and past.

I thought back to my childhood for the specific purpose of trying to understand this unconscious state they were in. Before I started school, time meant nothing to me. I didn’t think about the past or the future, only the present. I still learned new things and functioned in society much like I do now only I was closer to the source of life as a child, the root consciousness that I feel we all come from and are still connected too. I rarely see a child that’s stressed out or on blood pressure medicines. Children are generally joyful and compassionate for others and live in the moment. What a wonderful idea.

This brings me to me new year’s resolution. Starting now I resolve to be more like a child and to live more in the present, only drawing from the past and the future when absolutely necessary while living this physical life that is trapped in time and space.

The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive. To put it more accurately, it is not so much that you use your mind wrongly—you usually dont use it at all. It uses you. — Eckhart Tolle

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I woke up early this morning at 4 AM and per the lucidology videos and for the first time ever I had enough clarity to consciously wake up and keep perfectly still. Nicholas Newport claims that if a person is able to wake up without moving then they should be able to slip right back into sleep, the trance state or an OBE. Before I woke I had been dreaming that I was back in my childhood bedroom that I had shared with my two brothers growing up. In the dream they are both sleeping in the same bed across from me and but they were grown and for some reason were annoying the crap out of me.

I laid in the bed across from them in the dream trying to fall asleep “while already sleeping” and suddenly I woke up. Perhaps it was the fact that I was dreaming of falling asleep that prevented me from moving when I woke, but I made a conscious decision not to move for the sole purpose of attempting an OBE.

I recall laying in my real bed thinking mostly about staying perfectly still and then 5 seconds later the vibrations hit and I found myself in sleep paralysis. Almost instantly I was back in my dream, however I was now lucid and I knew what was going on. Strangely enough, at the same time I was seeing my current bedroom too. I was not flipping back an forth between dream state and waking consciousness, It seems that I was actually thinking in duality between my dreaming consciousness and my expanded ethereal consciousness.

A few seconds later I noticed in my dream state that the bed sheets where not completely coving my back which caused me to feel unprotected and fear set in. My consciousness then shifted to my dream state and I remember being in paralysis trying to break free by swinging my arms back and forth over my chest. My consciousness suddenly shifted back to my ethereal body and my dream body at the same time and I could see my dream arms sitting still while another set of arms were moving back and forth across my chest passing through my dream arms. I think that the moving arms were perhaps my real time double’s arms.

I never woke up but instead the vibrations stopped and I went straight back into the dream and lost real time consciousness. The fear of not being covered up in the dream caused an abrupt end to the experience. It seems to me that I was conscious on 3 different levels during the experience. I was seeing my dream, my real room and my real time arms moving pretty much all at the same time. I think that if I could have continued the experience and kept the fear at bay, my real time body, including the arms that were moving, would have exited and I may or may not have remembered the OBE. Perhaps the strong fear emotion was the reason I remembered any of it. This also suggest that when I woke up, any projected doubles must have been reeled in at that moment.

You can read more about dual consciousness “mind split” by reading Astral Dynamics by Robert Bruce.

David Mathis Astral Projection, Dreams, Lucid Dreams, Techniques Astral Dynamics, Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Consciousness, Dreams, Lucid Dreams, saltcube.com, Sleep Paralysis, Techniques

I’ve just woken from this so it’s an exciting start to the day to say the least..

I was dreaming.. it was a lengthy, vivid colourful dream one NEARLY worth telling.. eventually it progresses and I notice the scene in the dream has changed.. It’s still vivid and colourful and because it has been so vivid I wonder how I got to this scene.. Plus I’m naked and no one else is.. I’m sort of sitting/lying on the grass in this scene.. a quick question to myself suggests this is a bit weird and likely a dream! Here I become lucid… My Mrs is sitting beside me on the grass.. I’m super excited by this point.. I pat her on the back a few times with love and excitement and shout a feeling like “Yes! OBE?”

The plan was clear.. just sit up in bed! As the scene moved from the dream to the back of my eyelids I felt quick but most pleasant quite unusual vibrations (different than i’d ever felt doing vipassana) throughout my body.. AND i simply sat up…

I could see a little in the bedroom but it didn’t last long.. I then found myself in my body again and tried to sit up again… I felt the vibrations again but this experience also didn’t last long.. I remember something happening on this exit but after waking I couldn’t remember this exit aside from the actual exit sensations and then sitting up… I then found myself in my body (again with vibrations) but now i had difficulty sitting straight up.. I moved around a bit in an attempt to get out and at one stage had no idea of my orientation with regard to my physical body. I was completely confused…

I remembered one of the Lucidology videos and decided the way I was facing was possibly the same as my physical body so I decided to switch ends and hopefully have my astral feet up the end of my physical bodies head (Phew !).. Anyway this felt more loose and I found that a bit of rolling loosened me up and I simply rolled out onto the floor.. I could feel the floor underneath me.. I then crawled as I couldn’t stand and crawled to the end of the bed..

At the end of the bed I felt lighter and stood up and at the same time as I was just about to look for my physical body in bed I was so excited that I screamed my partners name with excitement saying “look i’m out”… My two children were there and came running up to me (though my youngest is only 5months and sort of floated/ran to me).. I heard them giggling and laughing and obviously happy with their Dads transition to this state.. but then I noticed my physical body wasn’t asleep in bed and the sheets on my side of the bed were even pulled back I thought I was actually awake and the rolling onto the floor and everything else after that was experienced in my physical body..

At this point my attention wavered and I slipped out of consciousness… A very short time later I then noticed I was still lying in bed.. damn! I tricked myself! I could feel vibrations again and started to remember the experience and got so excited about remembering and writing it down that I couldn’t exit again as I was becoming too awake!

Two interesting things:
1. I believe this was my first OBE as exit sensations were present and I feel like I had the same/similar consciousness in the short OBE as I do while awake although I was definitely not in the RTZ (Real Time Zone)
2. Interesting how I/we devalue the waking state enough to be happy to loose and at times consciously aim to loose consciousness in it – Thinking I was awake in physical and devaluing the awake state is why I lost consciousness in this OBE experience.

Thanks,
Dean

Dean Keune Astral Projection, Dreams, Lucid Dreams Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Consciousness, Lucid Dreams, Out of Body Experience

Today I visited Auditorium Shores here in Austin so that my daughter could play in  the orchestrated water fountains that they have there out by the pond. I had been thinking about existence after responding to Dean’s intro post on here earlier and found myself thinking about the past.

When I lived out in the country in Georgia I would often sit outside on the porch at night and stare off into the night sky and I could literally see the Milky Way galaxy spanning from horizon to horizon.  Back then I always sensed that the stars were aware of me and I them and that we shared a connection to each other.  When I looked at the clouds today I got that same feeling of being connected to the sky. It was as if the clouds were speaking to me on some fundamental level that really can’t be communicated at this time.

This used to puzzle and confuse me but as I have gotten older I have realized that things are not what they seem and that perhaps consciousness is not isolated to living animate objects only. It’s only been very recent that I actually considered the possibility that I am both locally conscious and universally conscious at the same time which would explain the connection I felt with the stars at night.

I hope you find the photograph that I took above to be as breathtaking as I did. It’s  a shame I didn’t have equipment to capture those starry nights that provoked so many deep thoughts.

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Hi there,

Thank you David for inviting me to join in on this site. Thanks also to Emmy and Renate.

I’ve found The Malleable Light a splendid tool for maintaining my motivation on Astral Travel & Lucid Dreaming and I’m excited about joining the team .

My spiritual interest has always been present even as a small child. I did loose focus for a while as a teenager but rediscovered the search in my early twenties. I would call myself highly philisophical and desire to further understand what we are doing here on this planet Earth, and for that reason I also desire to further understand what it actually means to be alive and aware. This world we live in seems governed by an Intellegence and I desire to understand it and our role in it.

I first encountered Lucid Dreaming in about 1998 giving me a resonable depth of experience on this topic.

I am a virgo sun sign, turn 32 this month and am a mature age university student in my final year of a Naturopathic degree. Interests outside of meditation, AP, LD etc are sport (all types), health (hence the naturopathy) and music.

I may at times post experiences of Lucid Dreams or Astral experiences but find experiences from my everyday life and insights I gain through life totally relevant and worthy of mention on this site. When my insight feels deep and effects me profoundly, either energetically or spiritually, I shall post these experiences here also.

Please do not take what I say as Truth, however what I post here will be my Truth as I perceive it at the time. I am human and am simply offering my opinion and experience.

Thanks again to David & I hope you enjoy reading what I have to offer.

Peace be with you,

Dean

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