The Malleable Light

I went to bed around 10 PM last night which was an amazing feat. We watched Monk, the kids fell asleep and our eyes got heavy so it was early to bed. I put on my earbud headphones and fell asleep listening to “”Naturespace Holographic Audio – Night at Lake Unknown”". I don’t remember any of my dreams up until about the time I woke up around 6 AM – 7 AM.

At about 6 AM I found myself in a dream. I was in the passenger side of a car that was moving through the foothills of The Smokies. The guy that was driving was unfamiliar and the road we were on must have been unfamiliar to him because he was driving too fast. It was a rough, narrow, winding two way road and I was afraid that a) he was going to run off the road or b) run into a car. I remember being part of this dream script and telling him to slow down. There were two passengers in the backseat that I knew but I can’t remember who they were now.

The place we were driving was familiar and I was trying to figure out where we were but the dream shifted at this point. We were no longer in the car, the driver was gone and we were standing in the mouth of a cave looking down a rocky slope in front of us. There were some huge boulder steps leading down to a road that was about 40 feet down and across the road was a lake surrounded by the forest. The time shifted forward and  I found myself backing down the steps. I was talking to the two people who were previously in the back seat but were now standing in the mouth of the cave. While climbing down I stuck my foot out and noticed that the pull of gravity on me changed which made me realize I was dreaming. I pushed away from the steps and floated over them. My thoughts and the scenery around me became crystal clear and for a few seconds I questioned whether I was in my primary reality (whatever that is). This awareness abruptly ended and I woke up.

From this point forward, the experiences described were absolutely real in the context of what our waking reality on Earth is like. I had fully waking consciousness with all senses and Earthly memories. I was laying in bed thinking about the dream and I could feel a vibration in my chest. I focused my intent on altering my awareness and the vibrations got stronger and actually tickled under my arms to the point that I woke up. I sat up and looked around and realized that I was not in my bed in Austin. I was in my childhood bunkbed and there was another bed across from me on the other side of the room. My younger brother had gotten up, gone to the restroom and come back to bed. It didn’t register at first, but then I thought to myself “My brother is married and grown!”. I realized that I was reliving the past or experiencing an alternate reality. I woke up again.

I was laying in bed and once again, I was still in the old childhood bunkbed. Then I heard a voice that said “Would you like to experience an unactualized past reality?” It went on to say “If you choose to do this, it will be absolutely real and you may lose the connection to your current incarnation briefly.” I said yes, the voice disappeared and I sat up in the bunkbed and it was morning. I jumped out of bed and instantly felt a lighter body. I must have been about 8 years old and I was in my childhood home.

I walked to the living room and I saw my Dad sitting in an armchair watching TV. It was interesting because I DID remember my current incarnation and I wanted to see what was different from what I remembered from growing up in waking reality. I figured the best way would be to ask my Dad questions.

The first thing I said to him was “Hey, what’s up?” Then I realized that I wouldn’t have said that back then and he was looking at me strange. Then I asked him “How’s Mr. Tate doing?” Mr. Tate was the neighbor directly to the left of us when we were growing up. My Dad replied “Who is that?” Interesting. Then I asked how Mr. Kindred and Mr. Beyer were doing. They were our other neighbors. He seemed to remember them and replied, “Kindered is good and Beyer is still the same crazy.” I guess it was a bit different than what he said about Mr. Beyer in waking life in the past which was “I’ll be glad when he is dead”. He got his wish in 2009 BTW.

I was kinda laughing and thinking that perhaps it was the presense of Mr. Tate that had created the bitterness in waking life, but at the same time realized that I would never understand the mind of my Dad. I woke up after this and had to check to make sure I was really awake this time. . My Wife was in bed with me and I could see my kids so yes, I was back in waking life. For those of you who have never experienced lucid dreams / alternate realities, it’s really hard to explain the reality confusion. I will just repeat myself and say that while in these altered states there is NO difference from them and waking reality other than I have my waking memories which seem to conflict with them. The things is, when the senses are telling me “This is REAL”, I end up questioning the memories.

This experience comes to me after several dormant weeks. I hope it’s a sign of things to come because I really do have fun with these things.

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A few days ago I found a new app for my iPhone called Naturespace Holographic Audio. It caught my attention when I was searching for ambiance applications. The creators make the following claim:

Like dreaming while awake, our recordings create the illusion of being transported to another place. Not just the sounds of nature, but the spaces of forests, canyons, rivers and open fields induce a “being there” experience. Created with recording techniques designed specifically for headphone listening, they reach deep into your subconscious and the dreaming begins.

Sounded good to me so I bought it! The product does indeed live up to their claim. I turned on one of the tracks that came with that application and it was like literally being in a remote location. They have somehow recorded the audio tracks so that the sounds are in 3D. Don’t ask me how because I don’t know, but it’s a unique experience to say the least.

There is one track in particular that I like and it’s called “Night at Lake Unknown”. When I listen to it, I feel like I am by a rushing mountain river out in the Smokies where I grew up.

Two nights ago I was listening to the track mentioned above as I fell asleep and as I did I noticed that the darkness behind my eyes began to fade into light and within about 15 minutes I found myself totally disconnected from my current awareness and back in my childhood awareness. This experience was not dreamlike. I literally was in my body as it was in the late 70s early 80s.  I was back in time on a camping trip with my dad in Telico Plains, TN up in the mountains.

It was morning and I was in the process of waking up. I noticed the sound of the river beside our tent and the smell of the campfire burning from the night before. There was a feeling of youthful excitement within me as I laid in my sleeping bag and realized that I was camping and that I was surrounded by a completely new environment. This wasn’t like the bed at home that I was used to. I felt connected to the forest around me and to the creatures in the river and trees that I had experienced the day before.

Within a few minutes the scene faded and I came back to present time and jumped up almost in a panic. Almost as if coming back to my current awareness was a shock.

This has to be one of the most rewarding altered states of consciousness that I have experienced in some time. I had completely forgotten how it felt to be new on this planet before being exposed to the abstracts of our society. I was  experiencing things for the first time with no filters in place. I was experiencing the joy of the world from the perspective of a child. It was such a wonderful experience.

I think that I actually accessed the past actualized database that Physicist Tom Campbell mentions in his My Big TOE and in his lectures.

I can’t promise that this application will produce results like I had, but if you have an iPhone check out Naturespace Holographic Audio. It will deeply relax you if nothing else.

David Mathis Astral Projection Astral Projection, Consciousness, Dreams, Lucid Dreaming, Lucid Dreams, Naturspace

I started my journey for spiritual growth about 1.5 years ago. From the beginning I have intuitively known that I need to quiet the incessant cacophony in my head to make any real progress. This has been a real challenge with so much work all the time. I have been searching for a practical meditation technique that only retains the active components needed to be effective without any added nonsense. The Buddhist meditation was close but didn’t totally connect with my personality.

I am not going to claim success, because I just don’t have enough experience with this technique to do that however I do know that Thomas Campbell’s meditation technique showed some positive results last night on the first try. I really liked when he said that humanity is just a wrinkle in the fabric of consciousness and by using a simple mantra we can create enough background noise to remove the wrinkles leaving only pure consciousness. He has a way with words that I can relate to. Eckhart Tolle almost had me there but not quite. The funny part is that I have been saying all along that the mantra itself didn’t matter but I missed a vital component.  I think the key was that I was using real words that were attached to meanings and that was creating thoughts. Last night for the first time I used an alternating mantra of sounds with no meanings. Each manta contained 5 syllables with only the third syllable changing which created resonate meaningless complex sounds which I kept coming back to anytime thoughts would arise.

I went to bed tired at about 10:30 PM and put on my headphones and started listening to Brain Sync Dream Wave Meditation to block out background noise and then started the mantra ah-lum-bar-dee-dum – ah-lum-baa-dee-dum over and over.Within 10 minutes all I could hear in my head was bar-baa bar-baa. 10 minutes after that all physical sensory perception was gone and I was a single point of consciousness floating in 3d blackness. I could feel a surge of energy flowing through my body and my heart felt like it was racing prior to this. I ended the meditation session and went to sleep.

I woke up at 2:30 AM itching and could not seem to go back to sleep so I got up and went to the restroom and then came back to bed and listened to some random music for a few minutes until I started getting sleepy again. I put on Brain Sync – Brain Massage this time and started the mantra again. I fell asleep within a few minutes.

Around 4:00 PM I woke up in vibrations and instinctively exited my body and was standing in front of my house in the dark. I must have teleported there. This was the first OOBE followed by 2 more. The first one was interesting and I will just say that I was creating my surroundings just by thinking about what I wanted. I will not get into too many details. I had a second OOBE but I can’t actually remember what happened, only that it occurred.

The third OOBE was the most interesting of the three. I was standing on the top of some building that stood alone in some remote country landscape at daybreak. I was thinking to myself about how I had always wanted to project into space. I figured I would give it a try. I thought about flying into space and instantly was projected upward at and incredible speed and stopped at an unknown altitude in complete darkness. With my mind I asked to see the cosmos and suddenly at what appeared like an altitude of about +50º to my right appeared the Milky Way Galaxy with the Moon sitting in front of it. I was so crystal clear and beautiful that I can’t even describe it. I found myself back in waking awareness right after this and then went back to sleep  and had no other experiences.

I would like to point out that if you are going to use Thomas Campbell’s technique for meditation then you will need to read his trilogy My Big TOE. Although I explained his technique above, there is a lot of reading material that leads up to that technique and prepares you for how to effectively use the technique. The main part is adjusting the attitude. Like I said, Eckhart Tolle get’s very close to the exact same message but comes across in a slightly less direct manner. Thomas Campbell is a nuclear physicist and is one of the main guys that helped Robert Monroe invent Hemi-Sync and start the Monroe Institute. He was also one of the main players participating in their exploration of consciousness.  It’s no surprise to me that the technique worked so well.

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As my lack of posts shows, I do not strive to project like my husband, David, does. I have known of such experiences but never really had the curiosity that my other half has in the subject. Even if I did, I think my mom duties would keep me from really becoming fully engaged in striving for achieving going out of body. I am more in the frame of mind that “if it happens , it happens..If not then I won’t be disappointed”

This morning I was not intending to try to go out of body. It was the last thing on my mind. I was more concerned with how long my 4 year old was going to sleep and the laundry I was going to have to start once I got up from bed. I woke up with David’s alarm clock and drifted back to sleep for some time. I awoke again some 45 minutes later and laid in bed checking my email and surfing the net on my I-phone as my daughter slept next to me in her bed. David came into the room and said goodbye to me before he headed to work and I continued to surf the net. I grew bored and a bit sleepy so I laid my head back down and found a comfortable spot to drift off. I am 24 weeks pregnant with our first son and so I fell asleep to feeling his kicks and movements. As I drifted off to sleep, I had a feeling I was going into sleep paralysis because I got a very similar sensation of the inability to keep my eyelids open no matter how much I tried. Its very similar to the feeling of trying to keep your eyes open as anesthesia is beginning to take its effect before you go under for surgery. The only difference is that your mind stays awake and aware of what is going on where as when under anesthesia, you just black out for what seems like a second and then your awake again.

As I lay there, I began to realize I could feel my child’s movements fade away. He was still active but its as if they just became lighter and lighter as I began to feel the vibrations come over me. I thought to myself ” Oh I know what this is…I am not gonna chicken out like I did last time!” Last time being my other post from back in April of 2009.

As the vibrational state came over me, I said to myself “I am going out of body” and repeated that about three times. Suddenly I heard myself take a deep, deep, breath of air and as the air filled my lungs, I felt myself float up. It was as if my lungs being filled with air were acting as helium balloons lifting me up and out. Right at that time, I heard a voice very clearly say to me ” I see France”. I also heard a man’s voice but could not make out what he said. I did not understand what “I see France” meant so as I tried to gain better sight, the motherly part of me took over. I heard my daughter stir and move and then I switched to what I can only assume was dream mode. I dreamed my daughter sat up in bed and was talking to me…I knew I was dreaming and tried to gain control back of reality but failed. I struggled to wake up and began to wiggle my fingers to wake myself up. Just then, my son gave me a good kick as if to say ” Hey mom wake up!” and that did it. I was back in my body and fully awake, only to see that I had been right to assume I was in a dream state when I imagined my daughter awake and sitting up. She was still fast asleep in the same position she was when I had drifted off to sleep.

All in all, it was pretty interesting and I am glad I got a little bit further then I did last time. I was able to at least get up and out of my body even if it was just for a short few seconds to a minute. Maybe in another 10 months, I will get a bit closer. Then again, I will have a 6 month old so I will just be thankful to get a whole night’s sleep, projecting or no projecting!

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