The Malleable Light

I wish I got up to write this dream down this morning after I woke from it.. but I decided not to write it anywhere as I wanted more sleep.. i took a little time to remember it before drifting off to sleep again but as we all know it’s much harder to remember a dream after drifting off to sleep again..

Anyway.. it was brilliant to say the least.. as per the title, my memory of it is short as I only remember the last little bit..

I’m with two or three other men.. sometimes I’m the third man at other times I’m watching the third man as if i’m seperate from him.. The first quality that stikes me about these men is they are ALL powerful.. physically they are well built.. solid.. muscular but not too muscular… energetically they have a powerful presence..  i don’t consider myself to be like this.. they have an energy that I imagine would be alluring to women and as a man you want to be like them.. they seem in control of their life.. they have an essence of security.. they believe in themselves.. you can feel it.. i’m sure you’ve met men like this..

I remember the three of us running and at this stage I am now, definately the third man. We are running.. the sky is blue… there are hills and beautiful scenery in front of us.. all around are picturesque surroundings.. colourful with a crystal like quality.. we continue running.. i’m kind of following the other two.. then they run and jump off the edge of a cliff and fly.. I follow them… i don’t think it odd at all and run and jump off the edge of the cliff with them..

this is where the magic happens.. as i am in the air.. i look at the surroundings.. begin to fly and instantly I become part of the sunshine!!

I became part of the sunshine.. the golden sunshine.. WOW.. that was brilliant.. at that moment i had no body.. my consciousness (as i know it) was present but it was fused with the consciousness of the sunshine… I’m not sure the sunshine was aware of my presence but it and I were joined.. I was aware of it and myself equally… 50-50…

I would be unlikely to post too many other non-lucid dreams here but as you can see this was quite special for me and as such I though it was worthy of mention here..

Thanks

Dean Keune Dreams Dreams, Flying

While getting back into lucid dream and astral projection attempts I fell asleep last night listening to the Tibetan Chakra Meditations [LIVE] cd while repeating the mantra “I am out of body now” in my head. Within a few minutes I fell asleep.

The dream was very foggy and I don’t remember anything before or after the lucid part of the dream. I know that at some point during normal dreaming I spoke out loud and heard my voice say “I am now lucid!”.

The pattern has always been that most of the time when I become lucid or out of body there is almost always an instinctive reflex to fly. Doing so feels very natural and yet it seems almost like getting back onto a bicycle after 15 years.  I know how to ride it but at the same time it feels new and I feel slightly out of touch.

I have noticed that with every new lucid dream or out of body experience that I have, my flying abilities become better and better. Last night When I became lucid I immediately took off flying. I was in the backyard of my childhood home and I remember flying up and over the top of the old pecan tree that stands over 100 ft high. I had precision control of my movement in the air and the detail of my vision in this dream state was superb. I remember hearing the word “eagle” while in flight. I soared up and over the top of the tree thousands of feet into the air and then back down and landed in the backyard. Everything became foggy again at this point and my subconscious came rushing back in. I think the entire lucid state lasted about a minute at most.

Even though the lucidity was short lived I am happy to know that my efforts to get back on track are producing results! I would love to hear from others about flying in lucid dreams. Does anyone else notice that flying seems to be an automatic and primary method of transit while out of body or lucid dreaming?

David Mathis Lucid Dreams Flying, Lucid Dreaming, Lucid Dreams

Last night I went to bed at 12:30 AM with a orgone transfer sitting above my head linked to my RAD 5 which was pulsing my orgone field at 63 HZ. I didn’t have much trouble falling asleep and was snoring in 10 minutes or less.

I don’t remember the dreams I had early into the night however at what seemed about 4 AM I had a very vivid dream of being on a passenger jet plane, sitting in the cockpit while the pilot was flying too low at takeoff. There was a fleeting moment of fear when I noticed that he wasn’t going to clear the house in front of us and then I was suddenly standing out in front of the house with an odd feeling that my body was somewhere else injured leaving my soul standing in front of this house. The rest of the dream was spent looking for my body. I seemed to be half lucid through this entire dream and I ended up meeting this girl that was helping me out in some shelter type place for souls that were temporarily out of body due to violent life threatening injuries. The people running the place seemed to be very rude and cruel and kept speaking in a language I didn’t understand.

I was still with this girl later in the dream. We were hanging out at a swimming pool after sneaking out of the shelter when I suddenly woke up in sleep paralysis and sensed a threatening presence beside me. This was odd to me because I knew that nothing should be able to harm me so I turned 90 degrees and realized that presence was my cat.

The room I was in was not my current room. I was in my childhood room, or at least that’s what my double was seeing. With a forceful will I demanded myself out out of body. I thought I woke myself up at first but then realized I had transitioned to out of body. I didn’t think about where my physical body was at this point.

The first thing I noticed was that some extremely cruel thoughts were flowing through me. I picked up my cat and threw her into the closet and violently closed the door. I then felt my thoughts normalizing and my waking life clarity locked in and I actually felt bad for throwing the cat into the closet so I let her go. I wonder if this really was my cat and if she was perceiving the same thing?

I remembered that in my previous out of body experiences I was unable to travel to different places and that irritated me so I tried a technique that I read in Monroe’s first book. He was able travel to a person’s location by thinking about their personality and leaning his body in the direction he thought they were relative to where he was.

Well… I tried his technique and it seemed to work very well. The only difference was that I used the send button on my blackberry wireless device instead of leaning . I may not have actually found who I was looking for but I did travel to at least 15 different places this time, of which only about 4 I can actually remember. The other 11 I know happened because I committed to memory during the experience that I had visited 15 places but would most likely not remember them all.

I used to work with a guy who was always poking fun at me for experimenting with astral projection so he was my first target. I thought about him and then hit the send button. I suddenly felt my body moving rapidly into darkness. The feeling of motion in one direction continued and in front of me I could see psychedelic fractal type patterns forming into circles which then morphed into colorful wormholes that my form was sucked into. This continued for 5 minutes and then I found myself walking down the street in front of my childhood home. I found myself thinking about the environment around me as I normally do, questioning the reality of the situation. It’s a very odd feeling in that I know I’m not awake but at the same time the trees, the street and everything around me is just as viable as waking life. The only difference is that I know that I am not in waking life.

I proceeded to walk to the house I grew up in and guy I sought was inside on a computer. When I approached he noticed me and looked out the window of my mom and dad’s old room and told me that he saw me. This was interesting because it seems unlikely that it was actually him, so I conclude that my mind must have been creating the entire thing. Another possibility might be that it was him but my perception was way off and my mind was filling in the gaps the best it could and perhaps with time my perception will get better. I walked through the wall of the house and stuck my hand through the monitor screen and my hand tingled when I did. I told him I would see him later and focused my attention on travelling to someone else that I currently work with.

I hit the send button again and I felt the movement again just like before. The same colorful patterns appeared and I was travelling for what seemed like about 10 minutes and I ended up in an unfamiliar house at Christmas time. There were several kids opening gifts and they seemed to see me and were talking to me. I don’t remember what they were saying but I did tell one of them to remember the moment. I lost interest with this location and decided to try a validation for a member of the astral pulse.

I hit the send button on the blackberry and the movement and color were present. This time I had the sensation that the area around the patterns of color was enormous. I was traveled for several minutes and then faded into a place that seemed to be on the Australian coast line. The only reason I say this is because I appeared in a group of people under this tent like pavilian and they all had Australian accents. They seemed to be filming some sort of recreation of a historical event. I spoke to several of the people and they seemed to be making fun of me somehow, although I forget exactly what they were saying. We moved away from the tent and into a set with a bunch of buildings and this is where I saw the movie cameras and I definitely knew they were filming something. I wish I understood how this event taking place in Australia linked to the person i was seeking to validate for. It really doesn’t make much sense to me and I guess I will never know because while there I had this overwhelming urge to travel to an orgy.

I hit the send button again and went through the same patterns as before and ended up in a room of several people having sex. I will not go into details but it was very graphic and I was very tempted. I was there for about a few minutes at most and started willing myself to wake up. Within about 5 seconds I actually felt my self transition into my bed at home in waking life. Once again I chicken out on the orgy scene.

I wish I could remember all of the other places I went but I am grateful recalled at least some of it. Every time I would travel to another location I would be thinking in the back of my mind that the attempt was going to wake me up from the experience like in the past when I tried, but for some reason it worked this time.

There are many aspects of this experience that makes me think that it was just a dream but at the same time I had full waking conscious with all of my waking memories and logic present. I knew my name and the names of the people in waking life that I was attempting to travel to or validate for. I must accept a shattered view of reality if I consider the experience an just a dream because the thoughts and statements of others in the experience were completely random and foriegn to me just as they are in waking life. I can never be sure that anything I experience is not just a creation of my mind. I also knew I was sleeping and was even fearing that I would wake up or lose the experience somehow.

When I woke up it took me 15 minutes to re-associate myself to reality due to the clarity and realness of the experience.

I would be interested in hearing feedback from others on this one.

David Mathis Astral Projection Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Chi Generators, Consciousness, Flying, Mind-Split, Sleep Paralysis

Last night I went to bed late and didn’t set the intent to leave my body while I was falling asleep at the beginning of my night. I fell asleep around 12:30 AM shortly after my 3 year old daughter climbed into bed with us.

I woke up at 4;30 AM after having a dream that I was living in and owned the house in Tennessee that I grew up in as a child. I don’t understand at the moment why, but several people I work with were living there too. I went and used the restroom and came back to bed and fell asleep.

I woke up again at 6:30 AM and noticed that my arm had been in an awkward position and had waken me up due to poor circulation. I figured that I had enough sleep at this point and set the intent to have an OBE.

I settled into a position and became very still and ran the mantra “I am out of body now” though my head several times until I fell into sleep again. I remember repeating the mantra about 4 times and then found myself walking down an unfamiliar road headed towards my parents house that I had dreamed about and my mind still had recollection of my coworkers and of my previous dream earlier in the night.

While I was walking down the road my awareness was definitely in a dreamlike reactive state at first and then I simply walked into awareness. It’s hard to explain this but as I walked down that road everything around me transitioned into waking awareness and became not only clear in my mind but clear in my vision as well. I was seeing things around me with waking clarity and I could not tell if I was OBE or awake. I felt a familiar fear surge through my body as if I was in waking life suffering from some sort of amnesia.

I continued to walk for a few seconds and then my logical brain clicked into place and I knew I could test this reality by attempting to fly. I jumped up off the ground and then while in the air I focused on wanting to fly. I felt a magnetic like force take hold of me and then a movement upwards started off slow and increased in speed until I literally felt the g-forces on my body as I accelerated upwards. I flew up and past the top of the trees and then my awareness shifted again into a knowing that I was either dreaming or was out of my body.

Seconds after I realized I was not in waking life I found myself in bed and I was spinning and had a slight but almost unnoticable vibration or warmth flowing through my body. I tried to hold onto this and project back out but I eventually woke up.

David Mathis Astral Projection Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Dreams, Flying, Lucid Dreams, Techniques

Last night was the first night in a while that I was able to sleep unobstructed for the entire night. My Wife and my Daughter are currently out of town for the next 5 days so I am hoping to have several lucid dreams and out of body experiences to write about in the days to come. I actually had a semi-lucid dream last night and would like to write about it simply because I have been in this dream locale before. I am going to start writing about any dream locales that I seem to have a memory of in the past.

It was lights out at 11:30 PM last night and I had the entire king size bed to myself. I put on the “Hemi-Sync – Intro to Focus 10″ and kept my eyes still and was asleep in less than 5 minutes. I slept very sound and woke up at 7:30 AM and my headphones were laying next to me. I had recall of my dreams at this point but lost that recall after I fell asleep again.

I got up to use the restroom and came back to bed quite alert and decided to use the eye trick again to see if I could slip back off into dream. Within 5 minutes I was asleep and I found myself in a familiar dream environment that I know I have been in before. I was in a long bathroom standing at a urinal doing my business and out of the corner of my right eye behind me I noticed that the toilet was actually under the divider wall and not actually “in” the stall as it should have been. The memory of being in this location before triggered my lucidity.

I notice that there was this dark red liquid in all of the urinals around me and there was body parts such as severed legs and arms laying all over the floor. I notice that these body parts were animated and flopping around and before I could move away from the urinal some of the red liquid splashed out of the toilet next to me and hit my leg. I backed away and at the same time some human shaped form emerged from the stall. I got the feeling that this “thing” didn’t realize that I was lucid and it started walking towards me and I immediately headed for the door. As I was walking out the door it smeared some of the red liquid across the side of my face and then followed me outside.

I was thinking to myself that this liquid was some type of poison or possibly worse but at the same time I felt something surge through me and I lost all fear. I was losing my lucidity at this point and I was feeling like I was being more reactive than objective. My next reaction was to fly away from this thing and off into the sky I went. Almost instantly my awareness of this thing disappeared.

I would like to briefly describe the method by which I fly in non lucid dreams because it’s the same every time. I will jump up off the ground and then while in the air I have to focus on wanting to fly and then I will either fly or I will have to try again. When it works I feel some magnetic force take hold of me and it’s like I am on an invisible elevator. The movement upwards starts off slow and the increases in speed and I can literally feel the g-forces on my body as I accelerate upwards. While moving upwards I always keep my eyes looking down watching the objects on the ground getting smaller so I can gauge when to stop. When I reach the desired elevation I almost always have the emotion that a person would have when they learn something new (like riding a bicycle) and I want to tell family and friends about it.

I continued flying and I passed through an arched bridge and found myself approaching an unfamiliar cabin with an aluminum awning and I “just knew” one of my friends was inside. I will not disclose who it was but as I mentioned above I wanted to show them my new skill. I went inside and dragged them outside and then used the method above and flew up 1000 feet and then floated back down and landed in front of them. They seemed to be shocked, amazed and confused all at the same time. I have no idea why I thought they weren’t interested because I was not lucid, but their reaction didn’t meet my expectations so I did the same thing again but this time instead of floating down I just let myself fall down towards the metal awning and then landed on it hard making my leg pierce the awning putting a 2 foot hole in it.

I took off into the sky again and landed in a tree beside the cabin and I noticed someone else was with my friend. I heard them tell my friend that they would take care of me and I noticed that this person was growing stronger and bigger muscularly kind of like the hulk.

He started walking toward the tree I was in and I remember laughing out load and telling the guy that his magic tricks didn’t scare me and I simply though about becoming bigger and stronger and morphed into a similar form and dropped out of the tree in front of him.

I remember the guy trying to stab me, but I blocked the attempt with some of the moves I learned in Krav Maga and then stripped the knife out of the guys hand and stabbed him several times with it.

The dream ended after this. I think this clearly demonstrates the drastic difference between one of my normal dreams and the out of body descriptions I have posted on here before. I have no idea what this dream was about, only that I have been in that bathroom before in previous dreams.

David Mathis Lucid Dreams Astral Projection Techniques, Dreams, Flying, Lucid Dreams, Techniques

Didn’t have any last night, but the night before I did. It’s a bit blurry now, but I remember the basics.

I realized I was in the dream state by noticing my old house. That seems to happen a lot. We lived in that house from the time I was 15 or so until I graduated college, so it’s the main old house in my head.

Once I recognized that I was dreaming, the whole room started to go blurry. I sat down and repeated “clarity now, focus now” until it cleared up. First, I tried to fly. I flew up and banged my head on the ceiling. No problem, I’ll just fly through the wall, right? Wrong. I tried to fly through the wall, and ran into it. Apparently, sometimes even in lucid dreams, you just have to use the front door.

I went out the front door and wandered around. The scenery wasn’t anything like that around my old house. This was very obviously a dream, and not projecting. I wandered through woods until I got to crocodiles in a sewer. Last time I checked, Chattanooga doesn’t have crocodiles in the sewers, so I’m pretty sure they’re not really there. I then willed myself to fly up.

That’s where my memory stops. I think maybe the baby woke me again after that and it ended.

What I’ve taken away from this is the following:

1. My old house is one of my signs that I’m dreaming.
2. You can’t always fly through the walls even in a dream.
3. It isn’t always a bad thing when your 18 month old wakes you every hour.

Renate Moody Lucid Dreams Flying, Lucid Dreams

Last night I got into bed around 11:00 PM. I read a chapter of Monroe’s book “Journeys out of the Body”, laid down and relaxed, put on my head phones and started listening to the Tibetan Chakra Meditation tracks. I started repeating the mantra “I am now out of body” in my head and fell asleep after about five iterations. I woke up at about 6:00 AM and noticed that the headphones had fallen off at some point during the night. I quickly fell back to sleep while running the same mantra through my head.

I woke up at 7:50 AM and noticed that my daughter was in the bed with me and my wife. I was doubtful that I would be able pull off an OBE because she moves around a lot. I decided to give it a try anyway so I closed my eyes and began the same mantra, “I am now out of body” over and over while I tried not to move. Suddenly I began to feel myself spinning at a rapid rate on an axis that ran through my head and out the bottom of my feet. Ten seconds later light vibrations hit me and I instinctively just relaxed more and told myself “enjoy the ride”. The vibrations then got more intense and seemed to last about 2 minutes and then faded.

The vibrations completely disappeared and I noticed that I was floating in blackness with partial awareness. I felt like I was in a half dream state. I began running the words “clarity and awareness now” over and over and after about 5 iterations I actually started saying it out loud. I continued to say this and I could hear myself very clearly asking for clarity and awareness and thought I was going to wake up my wife and daughter. Suddenly the blackness slowly started fading and I actually felt my analytical mind attach to my state of consciousness and I am standing in a field and in front of me was a huge bright tree. Everything was so vivid and clear I felt the urge to fly and explore. I flew higher and higher and I began to think about the ocean and the landscape turned into ocean. I was soaring and I remembered that in life I am scared of heights, so I told myself to go higher and higher so that I could face my fear. I arrived at what I perceived as to be 5000 feet over the water and I felt some fear surge though me, but I was able to push it away and climb higher.

While I was flying and enjoying complete freedom I remembered that I told my friend from work that I would visit him next time I was out of body. He is skeptical and I wanted to give him some validation. I started imagining his face but I must not have asked the universe right because I asked to see him over and over and nothing but a very slight change in speed occurred.

I lost interest and reduced altitude and was very close to the surface of the water. The ocean then morphed into a wide river and I continued to skim across it about a foot from the surface. I heard a voice that said I had not experienced everything and then suddenly felt myself begin to go under the water. I wasn’t ready and clearly noticed a change in awareness.

I woke, sat up and looked at the alarm clock and noticed that it displayed 9 AM. The first thing that entered my mind was that I needed to write down what had happened. Our bedroom is upstairs and my laptop is downstairs so I got out of bed and headed towards my laptop. I noticed that while walking down the hall that leads to the the stairs that everything was reversed. When I got to the stairs they were not right either. They looked like my stairs, but the distance that each step extended was inconsistent. Some extended about 5 inches out and others one foot. I “walked” down stairs and when I got there I noticed that the TV was gone and everything was packed up in boxes. My wife came down behind me and I felt a sense of fear come over me as if I had forgotten that we had packed and were in the process of moving. I began to panic because the events were so real and I felt as though I was losing my mind. Once again I felt a change in my awareness.

I woke up again. I noticed that the right side of my face was not working. I could not see out of my right eye. The right side of my head was literally inside of the pillow. I got up and looked in the mirror and blood was running down my moustache. The blood was dried to the hairs. I looked at my face in the mirror for about a minute in confusion and tried to understand where this blood had come from. I felt another change in my awareness.

I woke up and looked at the clock and it said 8:01 AM. I immediately got out of bed and headed for my laptop to write this entry. While I was walking down the stairs I was seriously asking myself if waking life was real or if I was out of body.

In conclusion I don’t recall exiting my body this time, the move from physical to nonphysical seemed more like a shift of awareness. Perhaps the intense spinning threw me a distance from my body. I have no idea. It seems that I started out in a half conscious out of body state and then became fully conscious. I then moved into a lucid dream state awareness and had a false awakening. I then had another out of body experience and another false awakening. Finally I moved back to an out of body awareness one final time and then woke up for real. I am definitely back on track.

One last thing that’s worth noting is that I was using my Performer 2400 chi generator. I had it set at a lucid dream frequency of 0.5 HZ with the trend set to the “The Gateway Affirmation” which goes like:

I am more than my physical body. Because I am more than physical matter, I can perceive that which is greater than the physical world. Therefore, I deeply desire to Expand, to Experience; to Know, to Understand; to Control, to Use such greater energies and energy systems as may be beneficial and constructive to me and to those who follow me. Also, I deeply desire the help and cooperation, the assistance, the understanding of those individuals whose wisdom, development and experience are equal or greater than my own. I ask their guidance and protection from any influence or any source that might provide me with less than my stated desires.

David Mathis Astral Projection Astral Projection, Astral Projection Techniques, Chakra, False Awakening, Flying, Lucid Dreams, Techniques, Tibetan Chakra Mediataion