The Malleable Light

I hope this post doesn’t make Emmy jealous, but for the sake of consciousness research I must write.

I fell asleep at around 11:30 PM last night and as I fell asleep I tried to clear my mind by observing thoughts without becoming attached to them. Around 5 AM I woke up and ran to the bathroom and then came back to bed and began trying the same techniques in an attempt to astral project. I was tired and my mind was not really coherent so I started trying to push thoughts away. I realized what I was doing and then began allowing my thoughts to drift in without resistance. I was surprised at some of the random thoughts that were entering my mind.  For example a fleeting thought of a specific trip to McDonald’s with my Dad when I was a small child entered my head. These thoughts came and went for 10 minutes or so and during this time frame vibrations were felt several times.

Around 5:30 AM I felt the sensation of myself being bouncing around inside my body. I knew what this was because it’s happened before so I envisioned myself violently bouncing back and forth and within couple of seconds I felt a release and I floated up into the ceiling and things went completely black. I suspected that I was stuck in the ceiling so I thought about standing in my backyard and as I did I felt movement as I drifted from the roof area of my house down into the backyard.

While I was standing in the yard I had full waking consciousness. I knew my name, address etc. I knew that I was either asleep, in some altered state of consciousness or in another reality. I stood there for a minute and let it all soak in. My quality of perception was very good this time and the quality of vision and my senses was superb, equal to or better than waking life.

I looked around and the first thing that came to mind was that I needed to validate and collect evidence. This is where reality fluctuations came into play. I had the idea of floating over to my neighbors house and looking around inside. The idea was that if I ever go inside her house I might be able to identify something I saw in this state. I probably need to rethink my methods of validation.

I floated over to this window that doesn’t really exist in waking life (reality fluctuation) and I pressed my head against the screen in the window (another reality fluctuation, it’s too cold for open windows). Inside I could see her getting a small girl ready for school. She glanced over in my direction at one point but she didn’t seem to notice me there. I was at the window for about a minute and then things shifted.

I found myself standing on the front porch of a house with her on the street I grew up on as a child. She was pissing off the front porch in an attempt to put out a cigarette that she had just thrown on the ground. This was all to funny for me so I asked her if she could see me? She nodded and said yes.  I laughed out loud and asked her “You know you are in my dream, right?”. She didn’t really answer, either she was a dream character or she was just drifting in unconsciousness, it’s hard to say.

She took off running towards the house where my dad lives and jumped into this truck that I have never seen before. This is the part Emmy will like. I jumped in behind her and asked her if she wanted to have sex just to see how she would respond. She agreed to this, but as we started undressing darkness faded in and I found myself back in bed. I question my level of lucidity at this point because I know that I would not cheat in waking life.

I lost lucidity because in my mind I really thought I was awake, but I should have known that I wasn’t because someone out back was mowing the lawn. It’s unlikely that someone would be mowing the lawn at this time of year and at this time of morning. Still this wasn’t enough to make me realize that I was sleeping and the dream continued for about another hour before I finally woke up and wrote this.

The conclusion here is that I was either in the RTZ with extreme reality fluctuations or I was having a lucid dream. Either way I had full waking consciousness. Emmy, you have my permission to have dream sex with anyone that you want.

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It’s been a while since I’ve written because I have had zero lucid dreams or astral projection type experiences lately. I am very serious about recording only true experiences objectively. Meaning that I must have waking consciousness while my body sleeps for it to qualify for an entry on here and I must describe only what I experienced without filling in the gaps. Most of the time when I perceive myself as being “out of body” I can recall my name, address or any “waking” thoughts and I know that I’m asleep. Many times I can look at myself sleeping in bed and then move around in what appears to be my house. None of this means that I am actually “out of body” and at this point I have no evidence to draw any definitive conclusions. More validation will be required to truly understand what’s going on. I will continue to call them “out of bod experiences” until my perception suggests otherwise.

I would like to point out my observation that being objective doesn’t necessarily have to mean being actively connected and receiving input from the five waking senses.  I apologize for the lack of a reference but I have read that the waking mind and the five senses can only process a small percentage of the information that’s actually hitting the senses and being sent to the brain at any given moment.  It’s my current belief that while a person is having an “out of body experience” they are not using the five senses and instead they are using a direct type of input, bypassing the senses. I would not then conclude that this type of experience would be any less objective than a waking experience, especially considering that fact that in these out of body states I have access to all waking memories and functions, even if the direct input is mimicking the five senses. Let us not be tricked into assuming that such altered states of conscious are any less real or objective than waking consciousness.

Last night the dream setting was my childhood elementary school O.L.P.H in Chattanooga TN and to expand on this many of my dreams take place at this school. Perhaps this is because I spent 8+ years of my childhood there.

I was riding a bike to some meeting at the church. I remember riding a BMX type bike up the sidewalk northbound on Moore Rd. between Delaware Dr. and the school. There was a fluctuation in the dream or a lapse in my memory because I don’t actually remember going to the meeting or locking the bike up. Not surprisingly, after the meeting I could not find the bike.

I began to question why I didn’t remember putting the bike away or going to the meeting and this missing time triggered my awareness of being in a dream. Immediately I felt a buzzing sensation throughout my body and I suddenly had full waking consciousness within my dream.

I was walking down the sidewalk that leads to the 5th and 6th grade building (at least it was when I went to school there) and I made a conscious effort to fly. I effortlessly rose to an altitude of 100 – 200 feet and noticed that everything had become foggy around me and that to the south and off into the distance there was a bright light that was cutting though the fog.

I was already slightly drifting towards the light but I made a conscious effort to move quicker but the harder I tried the move the more my dream faded until it was gone.

I have noticed that in lucid dreams, trying to take over my dreams seem to always end the dream.  It seems that the part of the brain that’s responsible for creating the dream rapidly deteriorates once I become lucid and specifically try to explore.

I think that next time I become lucid I may try to be more passive while holding on to my waking awareness and see what unfolds. Another possiblitiy would be to simply request a transition into the out of body state. Normally when I request to be out of body the dream ends and I find myself in my bed experiencing strong exit sensations at which time I can simply step out of bed and explore around the house.

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While getting back into lucid dream and astral projection attempts I fell asleep last night listening to the Tibetan Chakra Meditations [LIVE] cd while repeating the mantra “I am out of body now” in my head. Within a few minutes I fell asleep.

The dream was very foggy and I don’t remember anything before or after the lucid part of the dream. I know that at some point during normal dreaming I spoke out loud and heard my voice say “I am now lucid!”.

The pattern has always been that most of the time when I become lucid or out of body there is almost always an instinctive reflex to fly. Doing so feels very natural and yet it seems almost like getting back onto a bicycle after 15 years.  I know how to ride it but at the same time it feels new and I feel slightly out of touch.

I have noticed that with every new lucid dream or out of body experience that I have, my flying abilities become better and better. Last night When I became lucid I immediately took off flying. I was in the backyard of my childhood home and I remember flying up and over the top of the old pecan tree that stands over 100 ft high. I had precision control of my movement in the air and the detail of my vision in this dream state was superb. I remember hearing the word “eagle” while in flight. I soared up and over the top of the tree thousands of feet into the air and then back down and landed in the backyard. Everything became foggy again at this point and my subconscious came rushing back in. I think the entire lucid state lasted about a minute at most.

Even though the lucidity was short lived I am happy to know that my efforts to get back on track are producing results! I would love to hear from others about flying in lucid dreams. Does anyone else notice that flying seems to be an automatic and primary method of transit while out of body or lucid dreaming?

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I hope it does, because lately, it’s all I’ve got. Last night I had another dream about projecting. I’m not sure it would be considered Lucid Dreaming, although I did realize I was dreaming and then project. I can’t remember exactly what I was dreaming that was a cue to realize I was in a dream. I just remember realizing it, and then lifting myself through the ceiling and trying to project. Unfortunately, I didn’t get anywhere.

I remember a distinct feeling that Chi is stronger together, but I can’t remember the context that I heard/thought/felt this in. That’s a bit frustrating.

I have to trust that with time, it will get better. I go through the same cycles when I write. There are times when writing flows and it’s easy and I write and write and write. There are other times when I feel empty, when ideas are incubating. At those times, part of me feels as though I might never write again, and the other part trusts that it’s part of the process. I know that I incubate ideas. The ideas have to pull themselves together within me, and sometimes I just need a rest. Ultimately, I pick up pen and paper again. I’ve always picked up pen and paper again. I’ll be 30 this month, and I’ve had the same process since I was six and wrote my first poem.

And so, I’ll wait, and trust that I will be Astral Projecting again. I’ll have lucid dreams to write about. My consciousness must be incubating.

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I’m pretty sure within this experience last night, I was lucid dreaming, which then switched to astral projection. I’m planning to get new ear buds for my mp3 player today, so that I can use the timer starting tonight and hopefully have more progress with lucid dreaming, so I haven’t been trying much really. Last night I sort of half-focused on the mantra in the first technique shown in the post below this one. Basically, on exhale thinking “girrr”, next exhale thinking “tiiii”, and then “taakkk” until sleeping.

I didn’t actually think it would help with lucid dreaming, since I’ve had no luck at all with anything lately. I did end up with a lucid dream though so maybe there’s something to it, afterall.

When I realized I was lucid dreaming, I immediately decided to project. I wanted to go to my old hometown, so I thought about it and felt like I was moving somewhere, but somehow ended up in a room with computer screens. There were monitors on the wall with various websites I’ve visited. I lost control at that point because our 21 month old kicked me in the side and I woke up.

I’m wondering though, if I could have astral projected through those computer monitors. I’d like to go back and check into that. Lucid dreaming is a lot of fun. I’m hoping to have more to blog about once my mp3 player is functional again.

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