The Malleable Light

I have been having a ton of dreams lately after starting up daily meditation. Last night was no exception as I can remember four different dreams last night, one of which was lucid.

I went to bed around 1:30 PM last night and meditated until I lost awareness. The exercise has been to stay aware as long as I can before sleep takes over while constantly focusing on something that keeps thoughts out. Additionally, any time that I wake up I repeat the same exercise.

I became lucid inside a dream at some point last night at what felt like about 2:00 AM. I was dreaming about a girl stealing my credit cards out of my wallet and then all of the sudden the dream shifted and I found myself in sleep paralysis in bed. Normally when I get into sleep paralysis I know exactly what to do, a simple thought of astral projection will take me to full waking awareness or into what is called the out of body state. The problem this time was that I was laying in my childhood bunk bed. Momentarily I was no longer an adult and had drifted back in time. It’s hard to explain, but at some point fear manifested because of a faint memory of being an adult that slipped in and caused me to question my sanity. It just got progressively worse the more I tried to bring the adult memory back.

During this lucid episode I was completely paralyzed and it seemed that part of a separate awareness was over-lapping this experience and was saying “this is it, project!”. The other part was the fear of not being able to find the time based identity. I was able to move my head and look around the room and it was truly amazing and nostalgic, the room was just like I remembered it with two sets of bunk beds. My other brothers shared a room with me during my childhood. I was paralyzed laying on my right side and was facing the other bed across from me on the other side of the room. It was a small room with only about a 5 foot section of floor space between the beds. Both beds were in opposing corners of the room with a window to the backyard between the two beds. The top of my head was facing the backyard. Opposite wall from the window was the old TV we used to play Atari on sitting on the old clothes drawer.

I kept staring at the TV throughout the experience. It was turned on and there was static on the screen and it looked normal for the most part, however the static seemed to occasionally have huge green flashes within the static. This seemed odd and my attention became intensely focused on the TV. This is where my awareness slowly started transitioning back to current time and the room faded out and my current room began to emerge. Through closed eyelids I saw the source of the green flashes. I was was looking at my Welz Rad5 Chi Generator and their flashing green lights which just happened to be sitting in the exact same location in relation to where my old childhood TV was. I slowly regained full waking consciousness and opened my eyes.

This was a really cool experience and if my identity based fear had not taken over me I would have projected. This has been a known fear for awhile and I think that it’s something that I need to overcome.

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I have not been sticking to my commitment to write a bi-weekly progress report so I will just do a monthly report instead, unless I am seeing a lot of activity and then I will just let the posts speak for themselves. I continuously try to consciously induce the out of body state but as I have stated so many times in the past, being busy in waking life puts a damper on any real progress. I have been meditating every night using a modified Shamatha meditation technique where I am actually laying down rather than sitting up and I have been reading Astral Dynamics and doing energy work.

The meditation is interesting but I think that laying down while meditating is probably not the best idea because I end up drifting off to sleep. I have been experiencing rushing noises right before drifting off that can only be described as the noise you might hear on a radio when the dial is between stations. I posted a video Rushing Noises / Sleep Paralysis Sounds in the video section that somewhat represents what I hear only mine are much shorter in quick bursts that fade in and out.

Astral Dynamics is great and is the best OBE guide available in my opinion. I have finally decided to just read the book rather than stopping when I don’t feel like I and progressing with certain exercises. The book states that one must understand tactile imaging and be able put it into practice to get the most out of the book however if I never read the book because I pause at every hurdle then I know for sure I will not get anything out of the book . I was able to get my hands on a wonderful Astral Dynamics overview Robert Bruce On OBEs thanks to ubikmonroe. I highly recommend this book and even if you don’t buy in to any of this, it’s a trip and worth the read.

That’s all for now. Thanks for dropping in and reading and I wish you the best of luck in your spiritual endeavors.

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I woke up early this morning at 4 AM and per the lucidology videos and for the first time ever I had enough clarity to consciously wake up and keep perfectly still. Nicholas Newport claims that if a person is able to wake up without moving then they should be able to slip right back into sleep, the trance state or an OBE. Before I woke I had been dreaming that I was back in my childhood bedroom that I had shared with my two brothers growing up. In the dream they are both sleeping in the same bed across from me and but they were grown and for some reason were annoying the crap out of me.

I laid in the bed across from them in the dream trying to fall asleep “while already sleeping” and suddenly I woke up. Perhaps it was the fact that I was dreaming of falling asleep that prevented me from moving when I woke, but I made a conscious decision not to move for the sole purpose of attempting an OBE.

I recall laying in my real bed thinking mostly about staying perfectly still and then 5 seconds later the vibrations hit and I found myself in sleep paralysis. Almost instantly I was back in my dream, however I was now lucid and I knew what was going on. Strangely enough, at the same time I was seeing my current bedroom too. I was not flipping back an forth between dream state and waking consciousness, It seems that I was actually thinking in duality between my dreaming consciousness and my expanded ethereal consciousness.

A few seconds later I noticed in my dream state that the bed sheets where not completely coving my back which caused me to feel unprotected and fear set in. My consciousness then shifted to my dream state and I remember being in paralysis trying to break free by swinging my arms back and forth over my chest. My consciousness suddenly shifted back to my ethereal body and my dream body at the same time and I could see my dream arms sitting still while another set of arms were moving back and forth across my chest passing through my dream arms. I think that the moving arms were perhaps my real time double’s arms.

I never woke up but instead the vibrations stopped and I went straight back into the dream and lost real time consciousness. The fear of not being covered up in the dream caused an abrupt end to the experience. It seems to me that I was conscious on 3 different levels during the experience. I was seeing my dream, my real room and my real time arms moving pretty much all at the same time. I think that if I could have continued the experience and kept the fear at bay, my real time body, including the arms that were moving, would have exited and I may or may not have remembered the OBE. Perhaps the strong fear emotion was the reason I remembered any of it. This also suggest that when I woke up, any projected doubles must have been reeled in at that moment.

You can read more about dual consciousness “mind split” by reading Astral Dynamics by Robert Bruce.

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Last night I went to bed at 12:30 AM with a orgone transfer sitting above my head linked to my RAD 5 which was pulsing my orgone field at 63 HZ. I didn’t have much trouble falling asleep and was snoring in 10 minutes or less.

I don’t remember the dreams I had early into the night however at what seemed about 4 AM I had a very vivid dream of being on a passenger jet plane, sitting in the cockpit while the pilot was flying too low at takeoff. There was a fleeting moment of fear when I noticed that he wasn’t going to clear the house in front of us and then I was suddenly standing out in front of the house with an odd feeling that my body was somewhere else injured leaving my soul standing in front of this house. The rest of the dream was spent looking for my body. I seemed to be half lucid through this entire dream and I ended up meeting this girl that was helping me out in some shelter type place for souls that were temporarily out of body due to violent life threatening injuries. The people running the place seemed to be very rude and cruel and kept speaking in a language I didn’t understand.

I was still with this girl later in the dream. We were hanging out at a swimming pool after sneaking out of the shelter when I suddenly woke up in sleep paralysis and sensed a threatening presence beside me. This was odd to me because I knew that nothing should be able to harm me so I turned 90 degrees and realized that presence was my cat.

The room I was in was not my current room. I was in my childhood room, or at least that’s what my double was seeing. With a forceful will I demanded myself out out of body. I thought I woke myself up at first but then realized I had transitioned to out of body. I didn’t think about where my physical body was at this point.

The first thing I noticed was that some extremely cruel thoughts were flowing through me. I picked up my cat and threw her into the closet and violently closed the door. I then felt my thoughts normalizing and my waking life clarity locked in and I actually felt bad for throwing the cat into the closet so I let her go. I wonder if this really was my cat and if she was perceiving the same thing?

I remembered that in my previous out of body experiences I was unable to travel to different places and that irritated me so I tried a technique that I read in Monroe’s first book. He was able travel to a person’s location by thinking about their personality and leaning his body in the direction he thought they were relative to where he was.

Well… I tried his technique and it seemed to work very well. The only difference was that I used the send button on my blackberry wireless device instead of leaning . I may not have actually found who I was looking for but I did travel to at least 15 different places this time, of which only about 4 I can actually remember. The other 11 I know happened because I committed to memory during the experience that I had visited 15 places but would most likely not remember them all.

I used to work with a guy who was always poking fun at me for experimenting with astral projection so he was my first target. I thought about him and then hit the send button. I suddenly felt my body moving rapidly into darkness. The feeling of motion in one direction continued and in front of me I could see psychedelic fractal type patterns forming into circles which then morphed into colorful wormholes that my form was sucked into. This continued for 5 minutes and then I found myself walking down the street in front of my childhood home. I found myself thinking about the environment around me as I normally do, questioning the reality of the situation. It’s a very odd feeling in that I know I’m not awake but at the same time the trees, the street and everything around me is just as viable as waking life. The only difference is that I know that I am not in waking life.

I proceeded to walk to the house I grew up in and guy I sought was inside on a computer. When I approached he noticed me and looked out the window of my mom and dad’s old room and told me that he saw me. This was interesting because it seems unlikely that it was actually him, so I conclude that my mind must have been creating the entire thing. Another possibility might be that it was him but my perception was way off and my mind was filling in the gaps the best it could and perhaps with time my perception will get better. I walked through the wall of the house and stuck my hand through the monitor screen and my hand tingled when I did. I told him I would see him later and focused my attention on travelling to someone else that I currently work with.

I hit the send button again and I felt the movement again just like before. The same colorful patterns appeared and I was travelling for what seemed like about 10 minutes and I ended up in an unfamiliar house at Christmas time. There were several kids opening gifts and they seemed to see me and were talking to me. I don’t remember what they were saying but I did tell one of them to remember the moment. I lost interest with this location and decided to try a validation for a member of the astral pulse.

I hit the send button on the blackberry and the movement and color were present. This time I had the sensation that the area around the patterns of color was enormous. I was traveled for several minutes and then faded into a place that seemed to be on the Australian coast line. The only reason I say this is because I appeared in a group of people under this tent like pavilian and they all had Australian accents. They seemed to be filming some sort of recreation of a historical event. I spoke to several of the people and they seemed to be making fun of me somehow, although I forget exactly what they were saying. We moved away from the tent and into a set with a bunch of buildings and this is where I saw the movie cameras and I definitely knew they were filming something. I wish I understood how this event taking place in Australia linked to the person i was seeking to validate for. It really doesn’t make much sense to me and I guess I will never know because while there I had this overwhelming urge to travel to an orgy.

I hit the send button again and went through the same patterns as before and ended up in a room of several people having sex. I will not go into details but it was very graphic and I was very tempted. I was there for about a few minutes at most and started willing myself to wake up. Within about 5 seconds I actually felt my self transition into my bed at home in waking life. Once again I chicken out on the orgy scene.

I wish I could remember all of the other places I went but I am grateful recalled at least some of it. Every time I would travel to another location I would be thinking in the back of my mind that the attempt was going to wake me up from the experience like in the past when I tried, but for some reason it worked this time.

There are many aspects of this experience that makes me think that it was just a dream but at the same time I had full waking conscious with all of my waking memories and logic present. I knew my name and the names of the people in waking life that I was attempting to travel to or validate for. I must accept a shattered view of reality if I consider the experience an just a dream because the thoughts and statements of others in the experience were completely random and foriegn to me just as they are in waking life. I can never be sure that anything I experience is not just a creation of my mind. I also knew I was sleeping and was even fearing that I would wake up or lose the experience somehow.

When I woke up it took me 15 minutes to re-associate myself to reality due to the clarity and realness of the experience.

I would be interested in hearing feedback from others on this one.

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